A/N: Here is Chapter 4. We really hope you like it!! A big thank you to everyone who is reading this story. Thanks to everyone who has reviewed too! It certainly keeps both Jaz and me motivated to keep writing this story. Enjoy!!!!

CHAPTER 4

SHARING FEARS

"I just don't understand why you have to stay at Addison's house" Izzie whined for what felt like the thousandth time.

"Iz, I've explained this, it will just be easier. We couldn't get anywhere to stay close to the hospital, and Addison's house is close by so it just makes sense." Alex said trying not to let his annoyance show.

"But it just seems a little unprofessional don't you think?"

"No I don't. It's no different than if we had to sleep at the hospital. You know how much money the Shepherds have, the house will be huge. I probably won't even see her. "Alex said hoping that would be enough to pacify his wife.

"Just be careful, I don't like the idea of you being alone with another woman, especially one that looks like she does."

"Jesus Izzie, have a little faith in me. I'm only going to say this one more time. Addison and I are just work colleagues and friends. Nothing more, I love you. Now I'm going to go & check my bag in." Alex said as he walked to the check in queue for the flight to New York.

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"Sweetheart, you don't mind if I don't come in with you, do you? I just want to get back to the trailer for a decent night's sleep." Derek said as he drove into the car park of the airport.

"Oh, um sure, I understand. I'm going to miss you" Addison added

"Well it's only 4 days, I'm sure we can manage." Derek said giving her his McDreamy smile.

"Yeah. Is there anything you would like bought back from the house?"

"No I don't think so. If you get a chance you should see if you can catch up with Savvy and Weiss though."

"I'll try I don't know if I will have time though. I don't want to leave Alex on his own."

"I keep forgetting you are taking Karev with you. You must think he shows some promise."

"Yes I do. He is going to be a good OB/GYN. His bedside manner needs to improve, but he is working on that." Addison said with a slight laugh.

"Well just make sure he doesn't go near your bedside." Derek said with a little sarcasm.

"Don't be so ridiculous." Addison said rolling her eyes

"Oh come on Addie, you must have noticed the way that kid looks at you."

"Jealous are we" she said enjoying the fact that her husband was noticing her.

"Hardly, like I said he is a kid, what's to be jealous of. Now have a safe flight, don't call when you land I'll be sleeping but send me a quick text message to let me know you got there safely."

Addison leant over and kissed Derek on the lips. Just as she tried to deepen the kiss he pulled back. "You will miss your flight."

"Yeah, I'll see you when I get back" Addison said as she got out of the car and made her way into the airport.

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Addison and Alex were seated in the first class section on the plane and were waiting for takeoff. Addison noticed Alex fidgeting with his seat belt and basically looking really uncomfortable.

"Hey are you okay" Addison asked

"Yeah, yep, I'm good, I'm all good"

"Alex, why are you so nervous? Do you hate flying?"

"No, no love flying" Alex said

"Why don't I believe you?"

"Because you know me, and I am lying." He said with a laugh

"You're lying?" she asked surprised yet she shouldn't be by his honesty

"Yeah, It's not the flying I hate it's the take off. I just hate that feeling. I was the kid who always hated roller coasters and other fast rides and this just feels like one of them." Alex explained.

"Oh, well you will be fine." Addison said as she placed her hand over his as the plane began its race down the runway.

Alex turned her hand over and squeezed it tightly. Addison could feel the electricity run all the way up her arm at the feel of his strong hand in hers. She looked at him but Alex had his eyes closed as the plane began its assent into the air. Alex never let go of Addison's hand until they were safely cruising at the correct altitude. Addison smiled at him when he opened his eyes.

"You okay?" she asked

"Yeah um sorry about that." He said sheepishly as he removed his hand from hers.

"That's okay Alex; everyone has something they are scared of."

"If you tell anyone I will deny it." He said with a laugh.

"I promise I won't tell anyone. Your secret is safe with me." She said as she picked up her magazine & began flicking through its pages.

"What's your fear?" Alex asked

"Oh no I can't tell you that." She said smiling

"Yes you can. You know mine."

"Mine is silly and you will laugh at me."

"I won't, it can't be worse than my fear of a flight taking off"

"Okay, promise not to laugh"

"I promise."

"Well I'm scared of the dark"

"The dark?" He said as he tried to hold back the smirk that was forming on his lips.

"You said you wouldn't laugh." Addison said as she smacked his arm.

"Sorry, but the dark seriously."

"Yes the dark."

"Well how do you go, living in the trailer in the middle of no-where?" He asked

"It's really hard. I hate it. Derek he just refuses to move."

"He knows that you're scared of the dark though."

"Yeah he knows he likes to make fun of me because of it." Addison said sadly

"Oh, sorry I didn't mean to make light of it. It's not very fair of him to make you live in a trailer anyway."

"No but I agreed to it, so you do what you have to do to save your marriage."

"Save your marriage? Why did you move to Seattle?"

"We were growing apart so we decided that a change might do us good. As you know Richard is a good friend of ours, so he offered us both a job so we thought the move out of New York would be good for us. Well Derek loves fishing and the wilderness so I thought he may work a little less and relax a little more."

"It's not working is it?" Alex asked concerned

"No. It's not." Addison said quietly.

This time when Alex took her hand in his he felt the electricity run up his arm. He looked into her eyes and smiled slightly, seeing all of the hurt behind her big blue eyes. Addison was the first to remove her hand as she began to feel a little uncomfortable.

God Alex, you have no idea how you make me feel. I feel light headed and I just want to touch you. Stop it Addison, Derek Derek Derek think of him. I don't want Derek I want Alex. Shit did I really just think that?

"I'm sorry Addison, it's none of my business I shouldn't have asked you that."

"No it's okay; I just don't know what I'm going to do."

"Well I may not be like Callie or your other friends but if you want to talk..."

"Thanks Alex."

What kind of moron is Derek Shepherd! I mean Jesus who wouldn't want Addison to be their wife? The guy deserves to lose her. I would never treat her like that; I would want to be with Addison as much as I could. I don't think I could keep my hands off her. Stop it Alex shit, Izzie remember her?

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They arrived in New York and Addison instructed the cab driver to take them to the brownstone. It was late in New York, as they had lost 5 hours from the flight, but Addison was used to the 3 hour time difference. Although they had to be at Mount Sinai at 8:00am the next morning, Addison wasn't really that tired.

Addison showed Alex to the guest room and made sure he had everything he needed. He hid his surprise at how beautiful and large the guest room was, but he expected nothing less.

"I'm going to have something to eat. Are you hungry?" she asked

"Yeah that sounds good." Alex replied as they made their way back down to the kitchen.

Addison made some coffee and ordered some Chinese food from the restaurant not too far from the house. They sat in the living room eating a late dinner and they talked about the case they had to work on the next day, as well as other things.

An hour later Addison was rinsing out the coffee cups and plates when Alex walked in. She turned around and noticed him standing in the doorway. She smiled but he made no motion to move. That is, until she heard footsteps coming towards her and she felt a presence close behind her. She felt his breath on her neck and gripped the edges of the sink.

"They're still wet." came the words out of his mouth.

She wasn't sure she heard him right so she replied, "Wha...What did you say?"

He smirked and leaned in a little closer to the nape of her neck.

"I said, the dishes, they're still wet. I can help you with that if you want."

Her breath hitched in her throat as she turned around to face him. He was smiling at her but it quickly turned into a very innocent 'what? I'm not doing anything' look. Even though she had turned around he hadn't moved, they stood there gazing at each other. Time seemed to stand still as they looked at each other, but Addison didn't move. She stood completely still as she watched him move in closer.

Alex placed one hand on the counter top next to her hand and the other on the side of her face. He could feel his heart rate increase as he glanced from her lips to her eyes and back again to her lips. Just as they both leant in to each other, something inside Addison screamed at her to stop.

"Um Alex I think that we should um go to bed. I mean not together, oh shit no not like that; I mean we should get some sleep. We have to be at the hospital and..." Addison said stumbling on her words as she moved away from him.

"Oh yeah sure, sorry I don't know why um I did that um ah sorry."

"No it's fine, fine, um okay well I will see you in the morning."

"Yeah um in the morning."

Addison made a quick retreat up the stairs and into her bedroom. She changed and got into bed, hoping she would be able to get some sleep.

My god, what just happened? I was going to kiss another man. Not just any man. Alex. My intern. This is bad. Yes it's bad, but why do I want to go into the guest room and get into bed and sleep next to him. I wonder what it would be like to kiss him, feel his body pressed against mine. Mmm I think it would feel fantastic. Christ Addison you have to stop this. Now get some sleep.

Alex walked up the stairs to the guest room and tried to get some sleep. He tossed and turned trying to comprehend what had just happened.

What were you thinking? Trapping her, touching her face leaning in to kiss her. Jesus Alex, do you want to get fired? She didn't push me away though. I think a part of her wanted to kiss me too. She just came to her senses before I did. She is so beautiful though, I really want to kiss her and feel her naked body against mine. Okay you have to stop this, you have to focus and get some sleep.

It would seem that the next 4 days were going to be very difficult for both of them. How much longer would they be able to resist each other?

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