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Avoidance Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

Izzie couldn't wait to get Alex home. She was determined to have her husband all to herself with no interruptions from his boss. All she thought about all day was being able to make love to him.

Unfortunately that was the last thing on Alex's mind. He knew he had to try, which of course meant making love to his wife, which usually would not be a hardship. However it was a little difficult for him to get last night's activities out of his mind. That wouldn't be fair to Izzie or himself.

"Come here baby." Izzie said suggestively.

"Iz I want you, I do, its just I need a shower after the flight." He said trying to buy some time. He had to try to get the image of Addison's naked body entwined with his out of his mind.

"Well perhaps I can join you."

"NO!" He said a little harshly. It was the last thing he wanted. He needed 10 minutes to himself to get his thoughts together and try and push the guilt away.

"Alex." Izzie said a little hurt by his sharp tone.

"I'm sorry; I just need 10 minutes to unwind alone. I need a shower. Please hun I will join you in our bedroom after my shower. I promise." He said trying his best to give her his seductive smile.

"Fine." Izzie said and sulked her way into the bedroom.

Alex stepped into the shower and tried to focus on his wife. He told himself over and over that he loved Izzie and he was going to make love to her and it was going to be great.

Once he got into bed he whispered his apologies and began to kiss her. Alex proceeded to make love to his wife like he had done since they met. His ego wouldn't allow him to be anything short of good in bed, but even he knew this was by far not one of his best performances. Images of Addison and the night before kept flashing before his eyes, he involuntarily moaned, which made Izzie believe she was satisfying him, which of course made Alex feel even guiltier.

Afterwards he held her close and told her he loved her. He didn't know who he was trying to convince Izzie or himself.

"Alex are you okay?"

"Of course, I'm just tired. Sorry if you were wanting more." He said a little sheepishly.

"No it's okay, I've just missed you and it feels so good to be in your arms again."

"I missed you too." Alex's heart twisted. Could the guilt be any worse?

Even though he felt guilty and he felt like the biggest ass in the world, unfortunately his mind wouldn't allow him NOT to think about Addison and what she was doing. Was she 'going through the motions' just like he was? Was she remembering the hours of amazing sex with him from just last night? Or was her husband making her believe everything was all right between them again?

He should be the happiest man in the world. Men envied him; somehow Alex had managed to marry a sexy, smart, ex lingerie model turned doctor. Who wouldn't be happy with that? He held Izzie tighter putting Addison out of his mind. He would worry about working with her tomorrow. Right now he wanted to sleep with Izzie in his arms to remind him of what he had...and not what he didn't. Addison belonged to Derek, that's the way it was and the way it would stay.

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The ride home from the airport seemed to take forever, although in reality it was about a twenty minute drive. Addison kept looking out the window, replaying the recent events in her head. Just thinking about Alex and how amazing it was to feel him move inside of her was enough to get her very much in the mood again. She smiled to herself and thought it would be fun to play a little game with Derek, more-so to convince herself that she could still in fact sleep with her husband without having her intern on the brain.

Before she could even start to have any fun with him, he blurted out, "So, do you want to tell me what happened in New York?"

Addison whipped her head around to face him, all the color draining from her face. Trying to recover quickly, she replied, "Well, the surgery was a success. Karev has really shown improvement in my field which I'm very proud of considering I like to think I have a little to do with that." She grinned a little when she said that. "I don't know how he can be so organized at work though because he would make a terrible roommate. I had to pick up after him everywhere and I didn't bring him to have him make a mess of our house. So that bothered me a lot." She was trying really hard to sound nonchalant about Alex, but she thought he was picking up on it so she changed the subject quickly. "But all in all it was a good weekend. I missed you though. I wish you could have come with me. Remember all those late nights after surgeries where we would come home and be so tired, but couldn't wait to rip each other's clothes off?"

As the last words left her mouth, she placed her hand on the inside of his thigh, slowly rubbing it up and down, making him visibly hard. He, however, had other ideas in mind and pushed her hand away. She was hurt by his gesture, but he turned to her and smiled saying, "When we get home I promise we'll have fun. Right now though I would like to focus on not killing us. I have a once-in-a-lifetime surgery tomorrow and I would like to live to see another day."

Addison couldn't have been more turned off by everything he just said. Here she was trying to seduce her husband in a fast moving car, which sounded incredibly sexy to her, and all he could think about was surgery! She rolled her eyes at him and turned to face out the window again. Sometimes he could be such an insensitive asshole.

They pulled into the driveway of the trailer and got out of the car. He actually brought her bags inside for her; something he hadn't done since they first got married. That took her by surprise and made her smile. Little did she know he was just using the gesture to get her to cave and have sex with him. He knew he screwed up in the car saying the things he said, so this was just to get back into her good graces. He noted the smile on her face and realized it was working.

Addison walked inside and saw the place was still a mess. She sighed, noticing how far back she had jumped into reality. Derek came up behind her and wrapped his arms around her, kissing her lightly on the neck. She leaned into his touch, which felt so good and sadly unfamiliar.

"Take a shower with me." He whispered into her ear as he bit down on her earlobe.

Her mouth dropped open in surprise at how forward he was being considering he was such a closed off jerk in the car. He still knew how to turn her on at least. His hands travelled across her abdomen and down to a place that was quite sore from earlier this morning. She didn't let on though, as he carefully undid the button and zipper on her jeans and slid them over her hips. She could feel how hard he was pressed up against her and thought that for the first time in ages, they were going to have some pretty decent sex. She was actually participating in a two-person marriage for once and she was enjoying every second of it.

All thoughts of Alex were being erased from her mind because her husband was actually paying attention to her and the guilt was ripping her apart. This wasn't fair to him. She had made a horrible mistake. A horrible mistake that had felt so incredibly right it scared her. Derek pushed her into the shower and had her pinned against the wall in no time.

He was being a little more rough than normal and it was hurting her a little, but she didn't say anything because she was getting sex from her husband. That was something that should not be interrupted because these occurrences were few and far between.

No longer was Derek caressing her or paying attention to her body. No. All the focus was on him now and it was making Addison really mad.

"Derek, slow down. You're hurting me." Addison finally said trying to reach her husband. He was too far gone though, and he continued to thrust into her over and over again until he was fully satisfied. Then he pulled out of her and began washing himself off.

"Derek you can't be serious. I wasn't even close to being finished. That's all I am to you now isn't it? Just a body you can use for sex. You don't even see me as your wife anymore." Addison said on the verge of tears.

Derek looked at her and replied, "Addison, you couldn't be farther from the truth. If you had waited long enough I was going to get out of this shower and make love to you for the rest of the night, but no, you had to jump to conclusions like you always do and ruin the mood."

"No Derek. I think you ruined the mood for both of us. I'm going out. I'll be back later." She shoved him out of her way and pulled on some jeans to go for a drive. She grabbed a few CD's and was out the door. Derek didn't even bother calling after her. He knew she would be back sooner or later.

Addison made her way down the deserted highway, not knowing or caring where she was headed. She just wanted to clear her mind and feel the wind in her hair while doing so. Her mind that was racing with thoughts and images of what Alex might be doing at this very second and if he was happy doing it. She had thought they had been happy last night. He had paid such careful attention to her. He knew what she liked and what she wanted after one night. Sometimes Derek still didn't know how to properly make love to her. She didn't know when or how Alex had become more than just a friend to her, but she knew that with the way she felt, there was no turning back now.

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