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An Unwelcome Visitor
Alex tossed and turned all night. The thought of Addison staying in that hotel by herself mixed with the prospect of being a father really took a toll on him. He was stressing about every little thing. Tomorrow couldn't come fast enough.
Addison was doing the same halfway across town. She knew Alex didn't want a child with Izzie, so why was the woman pushing so hard? Addison also knew that since they trusted her, she would probably end up being their doctor which was not something she would be looking forward to. She barely got two hours of sleep before her wake-up call blared in her ear.
Addison and Alex arrived at the hospital about an hour apart; Alex being the latter. Bailey told him Addison wanted to see him so he walked upstairs to find her but failed. He searched everywhere and when he couldn't find her, he resorted to paging her.
She had been in her office pacing back and forth, wondering what she was going to say to him. She couldn't be their doctor and if Izzie was serious about this whole pregnancy thing, then whatever this was between them had to stop immediately. None of this would be happening if they hadn't slept together in New York. Oh, who was she kidding, they would have slept together sooner or later. It just happened to be sooner. She felt her pager vibrate on her hip and read the words 'Where are you?' Oh great, he's here already. This is not good.
She told him to meet her in her office and it just so happened that is right where he was standing so the abrupt knock on her door made her jump in surprise.
"Come in." She said.
"Hey Addie. Is everything all right? Bailey said it was urgent."
"Alex sit down. We need to talk."
Alex felt a little uneasy about the conversation he knew they were about to have but he sat down anyway. Addison leaned against the edge of her desk, put her glasses on top of her head, and crossed her ankles. She looked like the epitome of someone about to scold a child. Alex took a bit of offense to this but kept his mouth shut.
"Alex listen. I've been doing some thinking. The other day, I ran to you out of instinct. That shouldn't happen. Derek should be my instinct. Not you. And it made me realize that as of late, you have been the one constant in my life that I can count on no matter what. I honestly don't know what I would do without you anymore. Which is why I think we should start keeping our relationship strictly professional? We're growing too attached to each other and it's ruining our marriages. I mean Izzie wants to have a baby for God's sake! We can't keep doing this Alex. It isn't good for our work environment either. Our work will suffer. Our patients will start dying again. We don't want this to taint our reputations. And it isn't fair to Izzie or Derek. So from now on I think it's best if we don't associate outside of these hospital walls. Okay?"
Alex took one look at Addison and smiled.
"Are you done now?"
"Excuse me?"
But Alex didn't say anything in reply. Instead, he shot up from the couch he was sitting on until his hands were cupping either side of her face and he was kissing her. Her eyes widened at the sudden contact and when she went to push him away, he only brought his hands around her face tighter until she finally relaxed and melted into his embrace. He parted her lips with his tongue and kissed her like it would be the last time they would ever do this. Which he knew wasn't true. If she was responding to his kiss this well, then their relationship outside of the hospital was far from over. When he pulled back, both their faces were flushed and their tangled breaths were ragged. He leaned his forehead against hers and held his hands in place on her face, caressing her cheeks with his thumbs.
"This isn't over Addie. It's far from over and you know it too. The way we feel about each other isn't going to just disappear overnight. We've both felt this way for a long time now and we've only done something about it once. Wouldn't it be fairer to everyone involved if we just ended it with Derek and Izzie so they can deserve to be happy like we would be? Izzie doesn't want a baby with me. She just wants to keep me around because she is scared of being alone, but I have no doubt she would find someone else. And Derek treats you like shit. He doesn't deserve you. You are way too good for that. Pretty soon you'll realize that too. You and I fit together. We work well together. We fight like crazy, but that's what makes us, us. You don't take shit from me and I don't take shit from you. It's why we work."
Addison was about to cry as she heard him talk. Why was this so difficult? She wanted to be with him so badly and knew they would be perfect for each other, but what about everyone else involved? She looked him in the eyes and saw the seriousness and sincerity there. Grabbing his hands, Addison held them in between their bodies as she watched his thumb start rubbing circles on her skin. She stood silent for a minute before looking back at Alex.
"I want this Alex. But we can't do this. People would look at us differently. They wouldn't see us as doctors anymore. They would see us as cheaters. And I don't want that for you or for me. You're just starting out as a doctor. Your career would be ruined. And my reputation as a surgeon would be compromised. It's just too risky."
"Addison don't you want to be happy? Don't you think you deserve to be happy just as much as everyone else?"
"Yes I do, but the risk in this situation is greater than the reward."
"So what you're telling me is that you would rather keep your precious reputation as a double Board certified neo-natal surgeon than be truly happy with me?"
"Alex that isn't what I'm saying...I"
"No Addison, I think that is exactly what you're saying." he said as he roughly shoved her hands away from him. She retracted from him as if he was going to hurt her and in that moment he saw something he never wanted to see again in his life. The look of utter fear in her eyes said he had gone too far. This wasn't all right. She wasn't all right. She was scared and hurting and as soon as it had happened, he wished he could take it back.
"Addie I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do that. I just..."
"Get out."
"What?"
"I said get out. I don't want you in here anymore. In fact, I want Bailey to send me Meredith" Addison, who was now full on crying, repeated again more forcefully this time.
Alex looked at her broken face. He had done that to her. He was the one who was making her feel this way. This is something Derek did. Not Alex.
"Addison, I never meant to hurt you. That is the last thing I would ever do and I really hope you know that."
"I know, but can you just...just go. Please?" she asked pleading.
"Okay. If it will make you feel better then I'll go. But this talk isn't over between us. I care about you Addie and I hate to see you hurting so please just think about talking with me later. Okay?"
She nodded her head silently as she watched his retreating form walk through her door. This was going to be an incredibly long day without him by her side.
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As the next few days passed into weeks Addison became all too aware that she felt a real sense of loss without Alex working with her. She finally admitted to herself that she missed him, missed him with a physical hurt that quite simply wasn't going to go away. She was the one that asked him to leave; she was the one that insisted on a new Intern. Meredith Grey while a very nice woman and was shaping up to be a competent surgeon, she just didn't have the same passion and drive that Alex did.
Alex was miserable. He hated working in Orthopedics but it was what Addison wanted. He would stick it out this year but if he couldn't work again in Gynecology and Obstetrics here at Seattle Grace then he would ask for a transfer to Mercy West. The way he felt about Addison was a completely separate issue to how he felt about her specialty. While he understood why she did what she did he wasn't going to allow her to stop him from becoming an OB/GYN Surgeon.
Neither of them had seen each other since the altercation in her office 2 weeks earlier. Addison knew that it was up to her to make the first move. She was his superior and he would never contact her or push to continue the conversation that was only partly done. It was just another reason why she cared for him so deeply. He knew when to push her to talk but he also knew when to back off. They were so well connected on so many levels that Addison realized ignoring it wasn't going to make it go away all it was doing was making her more and more anxious. So she checked the board to see when Alex would be free. She paged him to her office.
Alex knocked on her office door. He had no idea what she was about to say, but he was glad they were going to finish the conversation they started 2 weeks ago. He had missed her and hoped she was going to want to, at the very least work together again.
"Hey." Alex said as he made his way into her office.
"Hi. Do you want to sit down?"
"Sure"
"How are you?"
"Addie, can we just cut the small talk and get to the real reason why you asked me here."
Addison laughed slightly. It was yet another reason why she missed Alex, his straight to the point no bullshit attitude towards everything.
"I miss you." She said simply.
"I miss you too." He replied.
Alex noticed how tired and sad she looked. If he was honest with himself it was probably how he looked as well. He wasn't prepared for the tears that were starting to form in her eyes.
"I'm so sorry for asking you to leave, for stopping you from working in OB/GYN. Alex, I'm sorry for getting angry."
"It's fine. I'm sorry for scaring you. I hope you know I would never hurt you. Not physically anyway and I would never hurt you intentionally. You know how much you mean to me."
"I know Alex. The way I feel about you scares the hell out of me. I just don't know what to do." She finished before the tears made their way down her cheeks.
"Addie, please don't cry." He said as he got up from his seat and walked over to where she was standing near the window of her office.
He took her in his arms and was glad when she responded and pulled him closer to her. Alex continued. "I don't have the answers for you. I just know we can't keep ignoring this. It's real and it's not going to go away."
"You're right." She said as she pulled away from him and looked into his warm chocolate eyes.
Slowly and gently their lips met. His left hand caressed her cheek, his tongue began to tease her bottom lip and his right hand moved softly over her left arm. Addison could feel her heart rate increase as she moaned into his mouth at his sensual touch. Her hands were placed firmly on his chest. She could never get enough of how amazing he felt. The kissing intensified and became deeper and more passionate. Tongues began to dual and hands began to explore each other's bodies.
Alex's hand travelled up her thigh as he had pushed her skirt up slightly. Addison didn't protest it felt so good, her hands made their way from his chest to the front of his scrubs. She could feel his arousal as she lightly began to touch him there. They still hadn't broken the kiss. Alex brushed his hand over her panties and was just about to push them aside when Addison's office door flew open.
"Addie, do you want to… Oh shit sorry." Callie said dumbfounded as she found her friend and her current intern in a very compromising position.
Addison and Alex pulled apart very quickly and just stood there totally shocked.
"Um Callie, hi what was it you wanted?" Addison asked trying to regain composure.
"Lunch, I just wanted to see if you were free and wanted to grab some lunch, but I think I might just leave. Karev when you are free, can you run pre op tests on Mr. Hudson?"
"Sure Dr Torres."
Callie made a quick retreat. Addie, what the hell are you doing? You are not going to avoid talking to me about this.
Well there you have it:) Chapter 10. We know, we know...we left it on kind of a cliffhanger...but trust us when we tell you that we more than made up for it in the next chapter;) Let's just say it's OUR take on Prom...
