Jessica's Point of View
I could hardly sleep, but I got myself out of bed in the morning regardless. I wanted to go on a mission with Axel so I could take Xaldin's advice and find out exactly what Axel said to me that calmed me down. I saw him sitting back on a couch and approached him.
"Hey, there you are. Xaldin mentioned on his way out that you were going to want to talk to me about something," Axel greeted.
"Did he tell you what?" I wondered.
"Nope. He just said you bothered him about it last night and left," Axel replied.
"Can I come with you on your mission today?" I requested.
"Sure. I have to fight off some Heartless in Agrabah, so prepare to sweat," Axel agreed. He stood up, and we left for our mission.
When we were in Agrabah, I began to talk to Axel about my plight. "Yesterday, I had some clarification."
"Oh yeah? About what?" Axel wondered.
"Sometimes I don't think clearly, and my judgment becomes extremely flawed. You brought me back, though, when I was there yesterday. How did you do that?" I wondered.
"Oh, that? I was just trying to get you to focus on something else until you were calmer. Look, you start thinking about things, and it's like you don't even recognize anything around you, right? What seemed shiny and perfect is suddenly something you hate with a passion. You lose who you are until your friends are your enemies, and you hate everything that you know," Axel said.
"How? That sounds exactly like how I feel. You couldn't possibly have known that," I gasped.
"You're not the only person who's lost someone they're close to. When my sister died, I acted a lot like you. Isa was the one who brought me back from that. Saix could probably explain this better than I could. I had forgotten about that part of my life for a long time. I try to block it out a lot, you know? I guess seeing you like that made me remember that time in my life," Axel realized.
"I didn't know you had a sister," I commented.
"Yeah. I don't really talk about her. It used to hurt me, but when I became a Nobody, there was never any need to bring it up. You never realize how much you'll miss someone until they're gone. That's why I want to make sure I have every moment memorized. When people are gone, memories are all that's left," Axel explained.
"That's so sad," I whimpered.
"Hey, no tears. We've still got a mission to do," Axel reminded me.
"R-right," I replied.
When we got back to the castle after ice cream on the Clock Tower, I sought out Saix but instead found Xemnas, or rather, he found me. "There you are. I've been looking for you."
"You have?" It was then I recalled that Xaldin said he would tell Xemnas about our conversation. "Oh. I suppose you want to talk with me?"
Xemnas folded his arms over his chest. "Did you have something better to do?"
"N-no," I answered.
"Hmm. Alright then," He began heading toward The Altar of Naught. I followed him, and he started talking to me as we walked. "Xaldin has told me that you are becoming aware that your behavior has not been acceptable as of late."
I frowned. "What about it?"
"It's no secret that I've had my concerns about your recent behavioral pattern." We reached The Altar of Naugh and continued until we reached the end. "Now that you understand, will the outbursts cease?"
"I don't know! Why would you ask me that?! I can't promise that I won't be like that again! It's something that I need time to work on!" I snapped.
"You're upset," Xemnas observed.
"Way to go, genius. You just cracked the code of humanity," I huffed, sitting on the ledge that surrounded the area, though still facing inward.
"Jessica, perhaps you should move away from there," Xemnas advised.
"I know, I know. It's fine. I'm not going to jump," I groaned.
Xemnas teleported to the spot right beside me and placed one hand behind my back, likely so that he didn't have to worry about me going over. I allowed it since I acknowledged that it wouldn't be that far of a stretch under the right circumstances. "I just want-" Xemnas began.
I did what was possibly the stupidest thing I had ever done in my life. I interrupted Xemnas. "I'm going to stop you right there before you say anything else. I need you to know something. You're not my dad, and you'll never be my dad. I don't need you checking in on me. You have, like, half an Organization that can just as easily ask me about things and report back to you. That's what you would do if I were anyone else. Yeah, I'm confused right now, and I need help getting through this, but not from you." I hadn't spoken to Xemnas quite like that before and realized my mistake after it blurted out of me. The pressure on my back increased slightly, which told me that he didn't like what he heard, but strangely enough, he didn't say anything. "Please don't throw me in the dungeon."
Xemnas's hand disappeared from my back, and his other pushed me down. I was so surprised that I couldn't stop him. I let out a scream as I fell into the abyss below.