Chapter Five: Why Did I Run?

(This chapter is in Edward's POV, but the rest of the story will be in Bella's POV unless I type it up here, like I did this time.)

I sat in my hotel room, starring at the wall. I had no idea why I was in Indiana right now. I only knew that I had run as fast as I could. Away from her, away from what she had become.

I don't really know why I ran away from her. I still loved her; I still hated being apart from her. I sighed. I remembered the earlier day…or rather, night.

Flashback

I stared at her house, and listened numbly as her father and her mother cried over her.

"Why?" Her mother murmured over and over as she hugged her husband, Phil. He, of course, had no answers.

I couldn't move, I just couldn't. I felt as though someone had ripped by heart out of my chest. Bella was dead. I was too late.

I turned to leave, but was shocked when I saw Alice.

"Hello Edward." She said brightly. I scowled at her.

"Did you know?" I asked softly. She nodded.

"Yes." She said simply. I glared at her.

"Then why couldn't you stop it! Or tell me!" I hissed. She sighed.

"Come on Edward." Was all she said. I allowed her to lead me through the woods and to our old house.

When we arrived, she opened the door, and we walked in. I looked around.

"Really Alice, I just saw you two weeks ago. Why do I have to b here now?" I asked. I didn't want to, but I recalled everything that she had ever done in this house.

"Because! I have a little surprise for you! Now come on!" Alice said. She started up eth stairs and I sighed.

"I'm not going to go to my room Alice. They're too many memories of her there." I whispered sadly.

"You went to see her house today, didn't you?" Alice asked kindly, stopping her climb.

I nodded, even though she already knew that. "Yes. They were mourning her Alice." I said. My voice broke a little.

Alice was quite, but I started to climb the stairs anyway. She nodded and we climbed together.

"What's that smell? It smells like another vampire…" I murmured. We were right outside my door now.

Alice opened the door, and turned the lights on. There was someone standing in the center of my room. It was…

"Bella…" I gasped. She was…a vampire. I was o sad…my chest hurt so badly too…

"Hi." She said softly. Her voice was different now. More musical. More like ours.

"You were…changed?" I managed to gasp out. She looked at me with golden eyes.

She nodded. "Yes. Laurent changed me." She said. I felt another painful blow to my stomach. Laurent? Had he attacked her? Or had she let him…

She took a step foreword. I took a step back. She stopped and closed her eyes, a sob escape her throat.

"Are you afraid of me?" She asked gently, she wouldn't look up to meet my eyes.

I was silent, but I started to back away. When she looked up, she saw me leaving. I had to get away from her…I couldn't stand her face like that, so perfect, so not my Bella.

"Edward…" She said. I shook his head, I didn't want to here her say my name. It was too painful.

"Edward, I still love you! I need you right now! Edward!" She called frantically as I backed away faster. I turned and flew down the stairs, and out the door, and into the woods.

I was long gone in almost no time, running away. Didn't know to where, I just knew I had to get away as soon and as far as possible.

End Flashback

I sighed again. I thought about her face. It was so pale, with perfect features and golden eyes. It was the face of my kind, the face she had wanted. But it wasn't her face. It wasn't the face I loved.

'Its not? I still love her…' I thought. I closed my eyes. Of course I still loved her. How could I not? She was my everything. I opened my eyes and stood up. I wondered where she was…

I picked up my phone and called Alice. I was sure she would be with Alice.

"Hello! This is Alice!" She said cheerily. I could tell it was being faked.

"Alice? Is…is Bella with you?" I asked softly.

She was silent for a long moment. "No." She said.

I closed my eyes against the pain in my chest. "She isn't? Do you know where she could have gone?" I asked. I was hoping she would know…

She was quiet again, for longer this time. I wondered if she was having a vision… "Forks. She's probably going there." She said.

"Probably? Didn't you have a vision?" I asked.

"Yes. But not about that. It was about you…" She stopped.

"What?" I asked.

"I'll tell you when I see you next." She said. I sighed and snapped my phone shut. I had to go to Forks. Maybe I would get lucky and she was there.

And maybe she wouldn't actually hate me for running from her…I could only hope.

A/N so, what do you think? I wanted to do what Edward thought about Bella's change and such. Next chapter up soon!