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disclaimer

I no own. I own dryer lint, candy wrappers, and teh computer. I don't even own teh Fruits Basket anime. I only own a hundred or so badly translated Furuba manga chapters on my computer.

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envy/

–n, a feeling of discontent or covetousness with regard to another's advantages

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Envy is not something I feel often.

I used to feel jealous of everyone else, of blindly believing that I'm a stupid person. I was jealous of everyone who wasn't stupid. I was jealous of the rat, for being smart, for being praised. For being god's cherished one.

Since Yuki opened my eyes, I rarely feel envy. When I'm white I feel apathy, or loyalty, when I'm black I feel anger.

It's wrong of me, I know, to be jealous of her. She's such a sweet, loving/perfect person. I don't hate her, not at all, but I do envy her.

To be able to help the people I love, the people I am loyal to. I should be happy simply because they're /changing. Even if they're changing for the better without me.

I saw the blush on his face when she called his name. The nearly carefree smile on his face, the smile rarely seen, is on his face because of her. That smile makes me so happy, but then I remember /why it's there and the happiness lessens, only slightly.

One thing I can say /I did, though, is get him out of that house. He has his sanity because of me. But I don't feel pride, I feel shame. That I didn't save him before that.

And Rin, she has a new friend in Tohru. Barely a week of knowing her, and she trusts her almost as much as she trusts me, a trust we've built up over years.

She's not afraid of Akito. When I couldn't protect Yuki, couldn't protect Rin. If she was in my place, she could do it.

Still, I don't hate Tohru, the outsider, the newcomer. More than envy, I am grateful. For the changes she has brought. For helping Yuki forget. For making Rin happier.

I can forgive them, because they ignorantly use cruel words.

I can forgive her, because she has done nothing that requires forgiveness.

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by T.E.B.E.-sway- completed 12/12/06

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Again, some things may be untrue. This is the (my fictional idea of the) opinion of Haru, not the fact.

This is done by the request of youshi! I'm sorry if I didn't quite get it right. It was a bit hard to do Haru's. I hope this wasn't too confusing. I decided to make him jealous of Tohru mostly, but I hope I didn't overdo it and make him seem mad at her… I don't think there's any spite, only jealousy. Also, this one is (quite) shorter than the others. I tried to make it longer, but… it didn't turn out that way.

About the reviews! I have gotten a grand total of 5 reviews. It kind of hurts my feelings… If you don't like my story enough to review, well, that's a pity. But you could still tell me what I'm doing wrong, right?

BTW, I'm still open to do more requests for people!

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