Chapter 2: More than Nothing
Souh Tamaki whirled Fujioka Haruhi around the dance floor, her lace petticoats whirling around her. It was true she was stunning in an ordinary kind of way, her inner beauty radiating strong and confident, but it was also true that she was in fact, prettier as a boy.
Tamaki had to prove to his father and grandfather that he was capable of picking his own bride to avoid another Éclair incident, so they wouldn't be suspicious, so they wouldn't know who the real reason he came back was. He came back for Ootori Kyoya.
'Too bad I'll never mean more than nothing to him' he bit out mentally.
Souh Tamaki had been waiting far too long, since the day they'd met, for Kyoya to say more. Although he could always read his emotions thought the dark eyes hidden behind his glasses, he'd waited for words, something more, something to let him know that maybe.
'He doesn't love you Tamaki, He never will' he told himself.
Cold and callous Kyoya didn't want him.
'Why would he?' Tamaki questioned himself as he continued waltzing with Haruhi. 'He's so much better than you. He's everything you are supposed to be, brilliant, Handsome, TOGETHER, no matter how much you act… you still need someone to put you together. Kyoya will NEVER be that someone' he told himself.
Even though he'd warmed up he was his competitor at the least and his best friend at most. He would never have those kinds of feelings for him, Tamaki was sure. It was kind of ironic, he could have whoever he wanted but the one person he wanted.
He'd left to see, maybe, if he could find a glimmer of hope in Kyoya's dark grey eyes. He had seen a glimmer of hope when he came back, but that faded quickly and he returned to his notes and Tamaki forced himself to accept the fact that Kyoya saw him as a best friend first and an opponent last, but it hadn't been the look Tamaki was looking for.
He'd been hoping Kyoya could find him, past the flake he acted like, the hysterical drama queen, and see him as the young man everyone expected him to be, and to see past the heartbreaker and the charming seductive gentleman and see the honest naïve love he had for him.
His whole life Souh Tamaki tried to fit in where he was needed. He was like a puzzle waiting to be put together, but everyone put the pieces where they wanted, not where they were supposed to go. Making Tamaki whatever they wanted, a lover an heir a Lord or King, everyone but Kyoya. He just…accepted. He was the only one who had faith in the idea of the Host Club, in him. He never treated him like a great lord, but he also let him wear the title, ruling from the side lines as the "Shadow King". Even though he had brothers, his father still considered him to be the sole Heir, because he was the only one capable of doing the job efficiently.
"He's a well oiled machine of efficiency, of perfection, not a mess like me. He's always picking up after my messes." Tamaki thought sadly, as he brought Haruhi closer. That had been why he'd left. Because he was so sick of making Kyoya pick up after him when he had his own life to run. Haruhi laughed playfully as he missed a step and he realized that she was what everyone wanted for him. 'Who cares if she's not everything I want' he churned bitterly. He drew her in from a turn and with a glance towards Kyoya, waiting for some sign, some hint that maybe just maybe, Kyoya could stop him from making the biggest mistake of his life. Or maybe push him away. He waited Haruhi looking confused in his arms, wondering why her Sensei had stopped dancing. The wait was like razor blades ripping through his heart. It was just another wound to his already battered heart. The last wound he could stand. He stopped waiting.
'What will it take to see if I mean more than nothing?' Tamaki thought to himself.
But Kyoya was too far into his notebook, into his own little world, giving no sign towards either one. Tamaki sighed inwardly. He looked down at his "Darling Daughter" the one that he was supposed to fall madly in love with and live happily ever after.
'Irony at it's best' he thought as he leaned over and kissed her tender pink lips. It wasn't that Haruhi was a bad kisser, on the contrary if she hadn't been so shocked she might have proven to be a very good kisser, or that everyone was staring, he was too used to that.
'It's that she's not Kyo' his inner mind screamed out. 'He means nothing to you' he told himself as he forced his eyes closed. Haruhi pulled away looking not angry or happy but disappointed. She hugged him close and whispered.
"Is this what it will take for you to realize I'm not the reason you came back?" Tamaki blinked. She was far too smart for fifteen.
Haruhi pulled away from him and turned her back. He realized Kyoya had left, and the twins were now standing in his place applauding along with most of the crowd. He walked past her towards the double doors "I'm sorry. That wasn't….I thought" he tried to explain, to her to everyone. Words failed him.
Kyoya was gone, and it was his fault. If only he has told him. Said something to let him know….
'I'm waiting for you to say I mean more than nothing to you."
Haruhi glanced at them and then turned back to him. "I understand. I came back for you because you are my best friend…not my lover…You have me mistaken for someone else. Now we know there is nothing between us, you can go on, and everyone knows I'm not the reason you left Eclair." she said clearly. He understood, nodding his head. She wasn't there to put him together. Just to lead him to where he was supposed to be.
'If he had any feelings for you. If you needed any more of a a sign…this is it. These are the unspoken words.
Hopefully he wasn't too late.
You're waiting for
someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push
you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's
always something more you wish he'd say
Chorus
He's
everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything
inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right
things
At exactly the right time
But he means
nothing to you
And you don't know why
You're waiting for
someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push
you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's
always something more you wish he'd say
That's #2!!! Read and review. I'm looking for another 10 before I update. I have another one to tide you over called Running Away that is Tamaki/Kyoya that is in desperate need of reviews before I update.
Yukiona : Kyoya was always, in his father's mind the only heir. That was why he was pushed sooo much. This takes place AFTER episode 26, after the fireworks when they are dancing..
Wickedlady101: I used to be into Haruhi/Tamaki myself…but then towards the end of the Anime I was like. F that…They belong together. I hate when people make Kyoya a bastard. And yes…Twincest is Best.
LidOol.fantaSee.Gurl: I got addicted to this quickly too. Damn your user name is long.
CrazyFaucet: Yes it is really sad. Running away is like the reverse of this. Still sad for Kyoya.
Akito-Aya: It would have been sooner If reviews had come sooner.
Sora Kusanagi: You won't know until the end What happens.
Klueless: The other one is a bit more reversed. In Running Away Kyoya leaves to protect Tamaki, as opposed to end of Episode 25 where Tamaki leaves.
Clingy: Again you'll find out at the end. I need more reviews.
Bramblerose4: I'm a definite review whore. I want another 10 to continue. It's like a ransom.
Spiraldeovted: Thank you. It's my first Ouran Fic.
I've set the Randsom for this story at another 10 reviews. Read and review or the Story gets it.
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