Disclaimer: I own nothing of Janeway and Chakotay…. Nope still don't own them.
Kathryn quietly walked into the holodeck to watch Chakotay again. The first time it was by accident. She had wanted to lose herself in some mindless program when she saw one was running and decided to see who was in it. There she found Chakotay in all his glory. He was fighting a Cardassian who looked a little worse for ware and Chakotay didn't seem to have a scratch on him. The second time she reasoned that it was because she wanted to see what alien he fought next. He was going a few rounds with another human and he was taking a good beating. But Chakotay was bound and determined to win. He looked delicious to the eye. Kathryn had to get out of there before she did something that was very un-captain like. Then the third time came around and she stayed to see if he had won. If she wasn't careful she would have forgotten herself and followed him into the shower. This time she wanted to see him again. He was a sight to behold when he was like this. The way his muscles moved under his clothes had her mouth watering. While she continued to watch she unconsciously licked her lips.
Chakotay had come to the holodeck to loosen up with his boxing program. He knew Kathryn was in the shadows watching him, so he tried not to smile too much. This was the third time this week. Not that he minded. Any time Kathryn came to watch him Chakotay some how did better with his bouts, but the trick was not letting her know that he knew she was watching him. It was exciting the first time he had sensed her watching him. Then the second time he purposefully used the showers in the hologym where he trained. Chakotay wanted to see if Kathryn would get brave and join him, but she didn't. Now she was back watching him again and he loved every minute of it. With a right and a left combo his opponent went down.
He heard Kathryn chuckle. When he turned around she was stepping into the light with one of her half smiles gracing her delicate mouth. Her hands were clasped behind her back and along with her smile there was a question lurking in her eyes. "You really like doing this?" Kathryn asked tilting her head the side.
"Yeah... I do." Chakotay panted and climbed out of the ring to stand in front of her.
"I'm all for physical exorcise but this seems barbaric." Kathryn replied and grabbed his towel before Chakotay could reach for it. She wiped at the sweat on his forehead and then she moved it down over his arms.
"I like it. Besides all men are barbarians to some degree or another, and I'm no better." Chakotay chuckled and flashed one of his dimpled smiles at her that had Kathryn going weak at the knees. It was shear force of will that kept her standing and being this close to Chakotay.
"You don't have to do this." Chakotay whispered and Kathryn dropped the towel. She brought her hands up to his and started to remove the gloves. Slowly and as careful as she could Kathryn took off his boxing gloves and removed the wrappings that protected his hands when he sparred She was careful not to hurt them any further. Many other times when he had come to the bridge the next morning with bruised knuckles so even though Kathryn had watched him she knew that his hands were sore underneath them.
"I want to. You do so much for me and I..." Kathryn started but Chakotay placed finger over her lips to silence her.
"You do plenty already." He whispered and ran his finger down her lips and over her chin. Chakotay let his finger trail over her jaw line and up to trace her left ear. Janeway twitched a little because just below where his finger was the sensitive spot. No other man in her life could have turned her on quite as much as Chakotay.
"I meant for you." Kathryn replied.
"Just being here with you is enough." Chakotay commented and cupped Kathryn's face in his sore hands.
"What would I do with out you?" Kathryn asked.
"I don't know."
Kathryn closed her eyes and relished the feel of Chakotay's hands on her face. They couldn't be like this beyond the holodeck doors. Here they were just Kathryn and Chakotay, not Captain and Commander. She had often wondered what it would feel like if he held like he did now. The feel of him would be ingrained in her skin.
"I still don't see why you like getting all sweaty and beating the sense out of a holodeck character." Kathryn commented and smiled.
"Yeah, well I like."
"Getting all sweaty works for you. Let's face it Chakotay, you make it look good." Kathryn started to laugh when Chakotay backed away from her and tossed the towel at her. She caught it and laughed even harder. He came closer to her and smiled that dimpled smile at her. She went to him and did something she had never done before. Kathryn wrapped her arms around Chakotay's sweaty form and allowed her self to melt for a few minutes. He held onto her and savored the feel of her against him. There was nothing like it, but he knew it wouldn't last. When they stepped foot out of the holodeck doors they were the Captain and Commander again. For now in this moment they were two people trapped in each others gaze. The feeling was very nice.
Chakotay lightly brushed his lips to hers and nipped at her bottom lip. Kathryn couldn't help but moan softly. She wanted more of him but she had to take a step back from this before it got out of hand.
"Come on lets get something to eat. I think I can brave what Neelix made today." Chakotay laughed as Kathryn tossed the towel back at him and together they walked out of the holodeck and back to their lives. Kathryn had to be careful. It wasn't like her to lose control, but with Chakotay it was something she wanted to do more than anything. Yet it was something she couldn't do because she had a ship and a crew to manage. Whether she liked it or not Kathryn had to put herself last.