Hey, sorry, it took me so long to update, but I had so many tests as soon as I got back to school!! So, I'm proud but sad to say that this'll be the last chapter of 'Afraid'!! I thank all of you for all the reviews I got!!!
Beware: This is a strong T for the drinking and the words that a kid shouldn't use.
Mr. Glass: Yep, I sure do win, I always win!! –sticks out tongue-
Disclaimer: If I owned them, this would be on the show! Don't own song either.
Chapter 13: Tonight, I Wanna Cry
Alone in this house again tonight
I've got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's picture of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could've been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walking away
Temperance Brennan unlocked the keys to her apartment door, opened, entered, closed the door, and plopped onto her couch. She sighed at what had just happened, she wanted to say 'Yes' but 'No' popped out of her mouth. Now, now… she has nothing and no one. No one to fall back on, no one to talk to, no one in her life. Her cell phone rang loudly in the apartment. She looked at the Caller ID and sighed, this was the third time this guy called about that thing. "Brennan … Good, I've thought about it… I want it… There by tomorrow night? … I'll see what I can do. Bye." She put her phone down and sighed. I can't believe I'm doing this. I've got to try to get over Booth sometime; I guess I can start by doing this. Brennan picked up her phone and made some calls as she went into her bedroom to go pack…
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain from my eyes
Tonight, I Wanna Cry
He smiled as he put the phone down after his conversation with Tempe. He had his chance with her once, now he might have it again. Cause he knew that pretty soon she would be here with his arms around her…
He let himself wonder with that thought as he put the beer bottle up to his lips and swallowed the cold liquid…
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Seeley Booth had parked his SUV in his regular parking spot, as he felt so bad he didn't go after Tempe before she left her maybe for good. He sighed and loosened his grip on the steering wheel after he noticed his knuckles turning white… He got out of the car and walked to his apartment. He took off his jacket and tossed it onto his couch and pulled out a wine glass and a bottle of vodka. He sat down on the couch, poured himself a glass and turned on the TV.
He knew what he wanted: Temperance Brennan. But he let her slipped away. He could've told her how he felt, hold her in his arms, and kiss her passionately. He poured himself a glass and wondered what he would do next. He still had hope of them being together and wanted to know that she had hope too. He poured himself another glass and decided to do something he would probably do only for his Bones. He grabbed his jacket and left his apartment…
Would it help if I turned a sad song on
'All By Myself' would sure hit me hard not that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hiding this way
Booth looked up at Brennan's window from his car. The lights were off and her car was nowhere in sight. He got out and walked up to her apartment. He knocked on the door. Silence. He knocked again. Again, nothing. He tried the door and was surprised to find it unlocked. He looked around; it looked like she wasn't here much. He walked down the hallway to the bedroom, there were clothes scattered everywhere and her closet was wide open, showing that two suitcases were missing. Oh Fuck, Booth thought. Booth walked out of the bedroom, into the living room where he found a white envelope on her coffee table. It was addressed to him in her own handwriting. He opened it and read what it said:
Dear Seeley,
I'm sorry we never got a chance. It hurts me as much as it hurts you. I've decided to go away for a while until I can get my life together again. I don't know how long I'll be gone. I think it's best that you don't know where I am because I just need to be by myself for a little while.
Tempe
Fuck, fuck, fuck, Booth thought as he reread her letter. He sighed and he suddenly realized that only one person might know where Bones went. He stuffed the letter into his pocket and left her apartment.
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain from my eyes
Tonight, I Wanna Cry
Booth knocked once and waited. A moment later, he heard footsteps and Angela appeared. She was a little surprised about Booth being here, but still managed to say, "Booth? What are you doing?"
"I want her back."
"I tried to get you two together, but I guess it didn't work and I-"
"Where is she?" Booth asked.
"I can't. I told Brennan I wouldn't."
"Look, Angela, I screwed up for not stopping Bones from leaving when I had the chance, and I feel like an asshole for it. And I just… wanna make things right."
Angela looked at him, sighed, pursed her lips, and said, "She didn't tell me much."
"What did she tell you?"
"She said she was going to visit a friend, he lives in a small town in California, and stay help him out with some corpses found. She just needed to get away for a while. You're not going to go after her are you?"
"I have to."
"Have to or want to?"
"Both."
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Brennan a sip of the beer she was drinking while on the plane. Everything was a mess, at least now, she can escape it all. She began thinking about everything that happened between her and Booth, she searched through her purse and found Jasper in there, she gave it a squeeze as her memory brought back her past and present into her mind. Tears were building in her eyes, and she let them fall freely…
I've never been the kind to let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like from my eyes
Tonight, I Wanna Cry
There you have it, the final chapter!! Now, let me know what you think, what was you're favorite parts, what did you like, did you think the lyrics fit the chapters? Please, a newbie needs answers!! Thank you to all the reviews!! Including the weird ones of Mr.Glass!!
I think I might post a sneak peek of 'I Lost You', just tell me you want it by reviewing!!
-CJ