Nerd?...or undercover agent Beauty?

Hi my name is Chica this is my first fanfic hope u all like it!

Disclaimer: I don't own CCS or the characters except some I have made. Also it's my own storyline! NO MAGIC! I HAVE ALSO USED SOME CHARACTERS BY LITTLE WOLF LOVER (if your looking for great stories to read check hers out there fantastic!)

Full Summary: Sakura, once a beautiful and cheerful girl. She had it all, friends, popularity and most of all a loving family. When her family was unexpectedly murdered she changed her look. Now she is a nerd with no friends but Tomoyo Daidouji and Eriol Hiiragizawa. The only one who knows her secret is Tomoyo, her best friend and distant cousin and Eriol, another friend. Sakura was adopted and 1 year later had to move to America. When she returns 7 years later with a new look what will everyone think? Do they even know it's her? She hides a big secret from the world, what is it? Sakura a cold girl is now back in Japan for her last year of University and revenge for her family. What will happen? What happens when there is someone out to kill her? Who will help her when she is down? Read and find out!

Key:

"….." talking

'…..' thoughts

Italics….Italics character action

(….) me talking

--FLASHBACK-- start of flashback

--END OF FLASHBACK--

Li Syaoran and Kinomoto Sakura

Meilin Li and Jamie Chan

Daidouji Tomoyo and Hiiragizawa Eriol

Sasaki Rika and Yang Alex

Yanagisawa Naoko and Ling Mika

Mihara Chiharu and Yamazaki Takashi

Important: I just realized that I made a BIG MISTAKE! I said "in one month on April 24th" I'm sorry I didn't mean to skip that far ahead in the story but I guess its okay and IT WILL stay there now! It's CURRENTLY MAY 24th! Also those who asked questions in my review please read below!

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Chapter 4

Taking a seat across from the man she despises, Sakura started to take out empty lined sheets of paper. 'I hate this silence' thought Sakura. How would they work on this project together if they both wouldn't talk to each other?

Finally after about 5 minutes of dead silence Syaoran broke it, and not nicely either, in fact it was down right rude. "Okay let's just finish this stupid project, the sooner it's over, the sooner I'll be rid of you."

Sakura glared at him with her black emotion-less eyes. "O-okay" she replied shakily, pretending to be the –oh-so-innocent-and-scared-little-girl. 'Pathetic' she thought. Only a little longer and I'll be done pretending to be like this, then I'll show him and everyone NOT to mess with me.

Syaoran smirked at her discomfort; he really enjoyed it when he made her feel scared. "Okay so we have to do this so called project on "life" right… so why don't you and I both say what we think about life, then jot it down? After we can write it all up using the jot notes. Okay?" he asked.

To say the least Sakura was a little surprised. Firstly because he actually came up with an intelligent idea, which she thought was highly impossible for him. And secondly because he asked for her opinion, like it actually mattered.

"Sounds good to me you go first and I'll write down your so-called stupid meaning about life," her voice monotone; while getting her pen and paper ready.

Syaoran ignored the fact she had, in a way, mocked him about the 'so-called stupid meaning about life' part and started to talk about what his meaning of life was.

"Life: The interval of time between birth and death. Life is a part of part of us, and many things live on earth such as humans and animals. It's the condition of living or the state of being alive. A famous quote of life is "Where there's life there's hope". Also if you spend time trying to figure out the meaning of life you loose track of life itself. You don't have to know what it's all about you just have to feel it to live it…Life can be pictured in many different ways, I personally think life is not all what its looked up to be. Life is hard. To live is great but if living involves you being told what to do then its pure torture…"

Syaoran looked up once he was done; he saw Sakura in deep thought and actually wondered what she was thinking of. "Yeah, that's about all I can't think of right now but if I come up with more I'll tell you tomorrow in class. Oh and if you think my meaning was stupid well all I have to say is, screw off bitch." Smirking Syaoran laughed inside at his joke… that only made sense to him.

Sakura snapped out of her thoughts, only to hear the last bit of what he said "By the way I do think your meaning of life if stupid but hey everyone has there own opinions, who am I to judge?"

"You just did when you said it was stupid. Didn't I tell you to screw off? If you think my idea was retarded what's yours? I bet your opinion on life is and I quote "Life is soooo lovely! Pretty flowers and ponies! Life is sooo beautiful!"

Sakura started at him amused, yet fuming at the same time for making assumptions. Syaoran sat across her attempting to look like a 'life-lover-wanna-be' with googely eyes. She would have laughed if it weren't for that fact he was mocking her.

"Shut up Li" she hissed, "My meaning of life is not that, in fact it's no where near it," she added.

"Oh really" he raised an eyebrow in question, "Little miss-goody-goody has another meaning? Fine then what is it hmm?"

Sakura was trying her hardest not to lose control, she hated him, and he was pissing her off right now. She was going to scream at him, and tell him to shut up but he cut her off.

"Now, now four-eyed-freak I don't have all day. I have better things to do then sit in a library – with you."

That was the last straw for Sakura; she stuffed her sheets into her backpack and practically jumped off her chair. She took a couple steps towards the door to leave but stopped and turned her head back slightly glaring fully at Syaoran.

"You want to know my meaning of life Li" she hissed, "its plain and simple: Life's a bitch," she stated quietly yet firmly.

And with that she completely stormed out of the library, leaving, a half stunned, shocked and puzzled Syaoran.

--Sakura—

Sakura stormed out of the school and onto the streets on Tomoeada. She couldn't believe the nerve of him! He was so infuriating and totally disrespectful. He has no idea what it's like to live my life, none at all. Lost in her thoughts of the –cocky-mean-stupid-gay-evil-Syaoran she didn't hear someone calling her name.

"SAKURA!" Tomoyo shouted again. Gasping for breath she finally reached up to her best friend who was still oblivious of her presence. Tomoyo tapped her on the shoulder.

"—Whaatt, oh Tomoyo Hi, how long have you been there?"

"I've ­–huff—been calling your name –huff—since I saw you leave –huff—the school gate. But of course you didn't hear me, what are thinking so deeply of that you didn't hear me?"

Tomoyo said as she got her breathing under control.

"Sorry Tomoyo, I was thinking how much of a bastard Li is, that's all"

"Oh Sakura I can't understand why they pick on you like that, I hate it, I can't stand to see you like this."

"Like what, I'm still me"

"Saku" said Tomoyo using her nickname "You know what I mean, why won't you let me help you, why won't you do anything to stop them?"

"Tomoyo please, I don't need this right now okay. I will stop them someday, when the time is right, but for now I've gotta get home. Ja" Sakura said, and with that she continued walking home, leaving her friend standing on the sidewalk.

I'm sorry Tomoyo, I really am but it's for the best that you and I stay as far away as possible. I don't want you to get hurt because of me. That Shadow Killer is still out there, though I have a disguise I'm sure he'll find out sooner or later. If he does figure out this is me right now he'll hurt you and all my friends, its best if I stay away until I am sure that I'll be able to kill him. 'I will kill him one day'Sakura thought as she entered her house making her way to her room.

Outside on the sidewalk tears formed in the Amethyst-girls eyes. She knew all Sakura's secrets and what happened to her, and who did this to her. But she promised she wouldn't tell the authorities. She was to be faithful to her friend. But now she felt as though she hardly knew her and it hurt her; it hurt to know that she couldn't confide in her anymore.

"Tomoyo? What are you doing standing here by yourself?" asked Eriol. He was on his way home when he saw the girl he had a crush on for as long as he could remember standing alone on the sidewalk.

What happened next totally surprised Eriol; he suddenly felt a force on him and almost stumbled down but caught himself at the last moment. He looked down to see his crush clinging on to him as if her life depended on it, crying her eyes out.

"Tomoyo? What's wrong? What happened?" he asked worriedly. Tomoyo wasn't the type to break down much.

"Oh Erri-iol –sob—It hu–sob—rts so much –sob—she's in so –sob—much pain and, and –sob--…" Tomoyo couldn't continue, she was crying too much.

"Tomoyo, Tomoyo, come on now shhh… its okay everything will be alright. It'll be okay I promise. Shh… come one I'll take you home…" said Eriol. People were looking at them in wonder, as too what happened to make the beautiful girl cry.

A couple passing by said "I wonder what that blue-hair man said to make such a beautiful lady cry?" His wife nodded and shook her head.

"Kids these days…" she muttered "take it from me boy and apologize to the young lady, you wouldn't want to let go a pretty girl as herself" the wife added as the couple walked away.

Both Tomoyo and Eriol blushed scarlet. "Umm… co-ome on I'll…I'll take you home k?" asked Eriol

Tomoyo just nodded her head, still hanging onto Eriol. She liked being in his arms, she felt so safe as if nothing bad could ever happen to her as long as she stayed there.

Together they walked down the streets, Eriol speaking words of comfort to Tomoyo in attempt to make her stop crying. She didn't let him go until they were both at Tomoyo's doorstep.

"Thank you Eriol-kun" she said quietly, finally finding her voice "I'm sorry for breaking down like that its just I can't stand to see Sakura like this."

"I know what you mean, and it wasn't your fault, I hate to see her like this as well but don't worry I had a talk to my so-called cousin. I hope it put him straight but knowing him it might get worse…" he trailed off thinking of his little chat with Syaoran.

--FLASHBACK—

"Hey cute little cousin" said Eriol.

"Hiiragizawa," Syaoran hissed, "how many times must I tell you to never fucking call me that?"

"Umm… too many to count cute little cousin!" Eriol answered cheerfully.

"What do you want Eriol I don't have time for this"

Suddenly Eriol's cheerful face turned into a serious angry one. He glared at Syaoran "Fine. I'll make this plain and simple. Lay off Sakura got it? You have no idea what her life is like, so I'd back off if I were you," he stated firmly, never once breaking eye contact.

Syaoran glared icily back at Eriol, "The thing is Eriol I'm not you, and I do as I please. And what's this bullshit about Yumi's life? Your right I don't know anything about it, no do I want to. I really don't give a shit, and I'll do a I please."

"Cut the crap Syaoran. Why do you only pick on her? There are loads of other students in the school that you can pick on and yet you choose Sakura. Why?" demanded Eriol trying to keep his anger down. Usually he was very calm and collected but Syaoran was really pushing the limit.

Syaoran was taken back by the question 'why do I always pick on Yumi?' he questioned himself. "I pick on Yumi because I feel like it, she's an easy target," said Syaoran. "Are you happy with the answer? Now can I go? Or are we going to continue playing '21 questions?'" he asked sarcastically.

Finally a vein popped in Eriol's head, he took Syaoran by the collar and slammed him roughly against the wall, "Listen Syaoran and listen well. I don't fucking care if Sakura is an easy target got it. She's my friend and I will not have you hurt her. BACK OFF," Eriol roared and with that he left Syaoran standing there alone.

Once again Syaoran was surprised, he never once saw Eriol so Not-calm and collected. 'What's with all these surprises today?' he thought. What the hell is going on today? And why does Eriol care so much about that dork Yumi? And what did he mean by 'I have no idea what her life is like? Arrggg… this is all bullshit. I'll do as I please!' With that concluded he made his way home to his apartment which he shared with his butler, Wei

--END FLASHBACK--

Tomoyo looked at him astounded about what he had just told her. She had a very hard time believing that he, Eriol, had lost control and actually yelled at Syaoran.

She stared at Eriol with new admiration; boy did she love him. " Arigatio Eriol-kun, that was very brave of you and kind" she said sweetly.

Eriol blushed red like a cherry, "Anyway Tomoyo I've gotta get home I'll see you tomorrow at school ok?" But what he did next was totally unexpected. Leaning over he quickly kissed her cheek, running down the steps of her house he yelled a bye then disappeared past the giant gate and onto the busy streets again.

Tomoyo's eyes widened as she took in what had just happened only moments ago. Finally processing the information she quickly entered her mansion and shut the door behind her.

What Tomoyo did next was also much unexpected, she screamed "Oh my god ERIOL-KUN JUST KISSED ME! Oh my god! Oh my god!" she shrieked skipping around the house, holding her cheek on which Eriol had kissed.

The staff around the house all stopped what they were doing to see what the commotion was, only to find their young mistress jumping around like a kangaroo, laughing and squealing in delight. They all sweat dropped and slowly returned to their work leaving their young mistress alone in her daydream state.

--Sakura—

As Sakura lay on her bed she thought about her life and how messed up it was. Her 'parents' finally gave up trying to take the place of her real parents. But that didn't stop them from making an effort once in awhile.

'I hate that I'm pushing my friends away, I hate lying to them all, but it's for the best' she thought. Slowly she got up from her bed and changed her clothes.

Choosing to wear a tight black tank top and tight black shorts with the word 'rebel' written across the butt, she took off her wig and black contact lenses. Tying up her hair she proceeding down to her basement. This was where she spent most her time when she was home, either here or in her room.

The basement was like a gym, there were mats along the floor and in the corners there were various equipments for fighting. A punching bag hung from the ceiling and exercise machines and weights were scattered around the room.

You may be wondering what this was all doing down here, well lets just say both her 'parents' enjoyed working out.

She put on two red boxing gloves and made her way to the punching bag. Sakura trained everyday for at least 3 hours. Everyday she taught herself to fight. Though she was only 15 years old (A/N: She 15 now because her b'day was on April 1st and she is in 9th grade currently) she fought very well. She could probably kick everyone's ass at school but sadly she was in 'hiding' right now until she perfected her fighting skills and was completely sure she could reveal herself to the 'Shadow Killer'.

Sakura hadn't heard of the killer since her real parents had died, secretly she hope he was dead but also wished that he weren't so she could kill him and/or send him to jail.

As Sakura continued her work-out session, a thought was nagging at her mind and that was the last line Syaoran had said to her when he was explaining what he thought the meaning of life was. And that was 'Life is hard. To live is great but if living involves you being told what to do then its pure torture…' she wondered what he meant by that. To live in pure torture, she already did that but why would Li say something like that? Does he live in pure torture?

Sakura wondered. Finally realizing who she was thinking of she scolded herself. How could she ever think that Li lives in pure torture? He lives in a perfect world, he knows nothing of what life is really like.

Shaking her head she continued working out in full concentration, but in the back of her mind a little nerve kept bothering her.

--Syaoran—

"Good afternoon Master Syaoran," said Wei, the butler and Syaoran's guardian for the time being.

"Good afternoon Wei," Syaoran mumbled heading towards his room.

Syaoran was currently living in an apartment. His family all lived in Hong Kong, China. His mother, Li Yelen and his four older sisters Li Shiefa, Li Fuutie, Li Fanren, and Li Feimei. His dad had died when he was only 5 years old. Since Syaoran was the only male off-spring he was the rightful heir to the Li Empire. When he would turn 21 years old, the empire would be completely his.

In all of China the Li Family was by far the most richest and powerful.

Syaoran hated it there; he was always followed around by news reporters and people asking for his autographs. Never once did he have a real friend. That's why he transferred to Tomoeada, Japan.

Laying on his bed he thought about his home. I never had a real life there. I was always told what to do and where to go. My sisters were always making fun of me saying 'ohh cute little brother' and stuff. My mother was always demanding, and constantly telling me about my responsibilities as the Li clan heir.

'My life was a complete hell in Hong Kong' he thoughtThat Yumi says her life is a bitch, well I bet she has no idea what real life is like. She has no idea how much it hurts not to be loved. To be told what to do and having to grow up at such a young age. She's just a dork who thinks that not getting straight A's will put her life in misery.

Furiously Syaoran shook his head trying to get these thoughts out of his head. He didn't want to be thinking of that freak right now. Slowly drifting off to sleep his last thought consisted of an angry voice. 'You have no idea what her life is like, so I'd back off if I were you' … ……

Authors Note

Hey all Chica here! Howz it goin? I hope you all enjoyed this chapter! I was very pleased with what I accomplished! It's the longest chapter I've written yet! Lolz! Ne way! I want to thank everyone for his or her reviews! They really help a lot and give me a more encouragement to keep writing! If it weren't 4 u all I'd probably never write anything at all! THANX! Well plz R&R and if you have any comment and/or suggestions please feel free to place them in your review!

I would also like to clear up that Sakura is now 15 years old and is in 9th grade. She's been adopted for almost one year now and soon she will be moving to America. And 7 years later she will return. She will be 22 then, for her last year in University.

Ne way I've g2g now iz getting really late and I've got school tomorrow sadly lolz! Bye!

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