Disclamber-I don't own anything

Thanks for all of the wonderful reviews, don't worry Meredith and Derek don't just fall right back into love it will take time.

Derek stood there savoring the taste of her lips, he couldn't let her walk out again, he wouldn't, he couldn't.

Meredith opened the door to her mothers house. Sure it did have quiet the coat of dust, but she didn't know when she might have time to clean it. She looked at the wall, there was old pictures hanging on the wall. They were of her, her mom, her dad and Elizabeth. She never knew Lizzie that well, Lizzie died when she was five, that's when their parents had got their divorce.

Meredith passed the pictures, all of them, she hated pictures. She never hated pictures till her parents split. When she left for high school she swore that she would never come back. She was going to live in NY and never come back to Seattle. Then the rumors started, her life in NY was ruined. She left there, and went to Boston. She left Boston and went to med school, and now she was back in Seattle.

Why the hell does this happen to me? Meredith thought. She pulled a glass off the shelf and poured herself some pop that she had bought on her trip to Seattle. She took a sip, it wasn't what she wanted, she wanted Tequila.

Meredith walked up to the bar, she knew this one her mom would come here after long shifts at the hospital. She walked into the bar. Her mind focused on one thing and one thing only tequila.

"Ten shots of tequila." Meredith demanded the bartender.

"Okay." The bartender walked away.

She sat the waiting, she had a one track mind tonight. Nothing was going to stop her from reuniting with her but friend tequila, well that's what she thought.

Derek's POV

I can't believe it she's still as beautiful as she was when she lived in NY. Why did she not pull away when I kissed her? Maybe I still have a chance? Dammit you idiot you don't think she's really going to fall right back into your arms do you? I need something, I need tequila. Derek picked up his keys and left.

He didn't know where he was going to go? He had only been in Seattle for a week. He remembered the small bar not to far away from the hospital.

Meredith was now on her 13th shot. She felt a little dizzy, her vision blurring. Not to far away a man was getting ready to try to charm her.

"Hey babe." The man said wrapping his arms around her waist.

"GET OFF!" Meredith pushed him away.

"Oh, now you want to play hard to get?"The man teased playfully.

"Will you get your sorry drunk ass off of me!" Meredith yelled.

Derek walked up to the window, he watched the man. He didn't know what he was feeling right now, anger, jealousy. He didn't know he just reacted. He opened the door. He walked over to the man.

"Get off of her." Derek stated.

"Oh, what are you her boyfriend!" The man laughed as he tried to pull her off the stool.

"I told you! Get your hands off of her!" Derek yelled.

"What if I don't?" The man asked grouping her ass.

Derek didn't care to warn him anymore. Derek pulled him by the top of his shirt and punched him. The man feel to the ground. Derek looked back at Meredith who was not very pleased that he hit the man. Derek was taken by surprise when the man shot his fist right into his gut.

"When I want a woman, I get her." The man stuttered.

"Get lost freak, before I hit you again." Derek stated.

The man gave in and left. Derek looked back at Meredith, he shook his head, she was about two shots from being out cold. He sat on the stool next to her.

"What are you doing?" Derek asked concerned.

"I'm drinking, what the hell do you think I'm doing." Meredith yelled.

"Meredith, you shouldn't do that to yourself." Derek told her.

"Don't you tell me what to do!" Meredith raised her voice.

Meredith downed another shot, she winced as the liquid ran down her throat.

"Another Joe." Meredith demanded.

"Don't get her anything. Here is the bill." Derek told him as he pulled the money out of his pocket.

"Derek, your not my boyfriend! You can't tell me what to do." Meredith stated drunkenly

"I might not be your boyfriend, but I could hope that you think of me as a friend." Derek stated.

Meredith just about passed out about before she got to Derek's car. He put her in the front seat and buckled her in. He was headed to her house. He just moved here but she had told him when they were together about the house, where it was etc.

Derek stopped outside what he thought was Meredith's house. She stirred a little, and feel back to sleep. He pulled the keys out of the purse that she had with her.

Derek walked around to the other side of the jeep. He picked her up he packed her into the house. He packed her upstairs, and found what he thought was her room. He pulled the blankets down and placed her on the bed. He pulled the blankets over her. He sat down beside her on the bed. He missed watching her sleep, she looked like an angel. He pulled a stray piece of hair out of her face as he stood up, he walked out of the room, she would be in misery when she woke up.

Derek walked downstairs and sat down on the couch. He pulled his legs up to lay down. He looked at the empty house. How could she live here? He soon drifted off.

Derek awoke to the sounds of an almost sober Meredith vomiting in the kitchen trash can.

"Dammit." Meredith mumbled.

Derek got off the couch and walked out into the kitchen.

"You shouldn't drink like that its not good for you." Derek stated.

"Yeah, you did this, you broke me, now this is the way I deal with things. So if your going to stick around get used to it." Meredith told him.

"Why didn't you pull away from me when I kissed you?" Derek asked walking over to sit on the stool.

Meredith didn't answer, she pulled out a half eaten bag of lays potato chips. Derek got off the stool, he walked over, and snagged the bag away from her.

"This is nothing you should be eating for breakfast." Derek told her rolling up the bag and sitting it on the counter.

"I have to tell you that I'm glad you came in when you did." Meredith told him.

"You sit I'll make you breakfast." Derek told her pushing her to where he was sitting a couple minutes ago.

Meredith reached for the chips.

"Don't you dare." Derek told her a smile forming on her face.

Meredith wrinkled her nose and put the bag back. She sat there watching Derek cook, every now and then he would ask where things were.

"Why did you kiss me?" Meredith blurted.

"Pardon." Derek stated.

"You heard me." Meredith stated.

"I don't know, I guess time has made my heart grow fonder of you. After you left I hit rock bottom. Then finally Addison told me the truth, then I couldn't think straight I missed you. I missed waking up with you in my arms. So I really don't know why I did it I guess I still have feelings for you." Derek told her forgetting about the eggs that were frying in the pan.

"Um.. Derek!" Meredith giggled as she pointed at the egg in the pan.

"Shit!" Derek shouted turning red.

"Derek, I didn't pull away because, I didn't want to. It was you, the kiss just felt right, I felt like I was paralyzed, but us together can't happen, you're my boss." Meredith told him.

"I know." Derek gritted his teeth as he lied. He knew he couldn't deny his feelings for her.

There was an silence before Meredith broke the ice.

"I have to get some roommates." She shook her head and laughed.

"Why don't I stay here?" Derek offered.

"Well... I guess that you could." Meredith told him.

"Good, you need someone to cook good food for you." Derek teased.

"You do have the day off right?" Derek asked.

"Yeah." Meredith answered.

"Good, we need to do some cleaning up this place looks horrible." Derek stated.

to be continued

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