Harry moaned in pain and turned his head side from side. Lucius looked at him in concern. He was feverish and his back seemed to be making no progress towards healing. He sighed as he redressed the sleeping boy. The deep cuts and bruises signified pent up hate and rage. The more he thought on it the more Lucius thought it was Draco who had inflicted this upon Harry. As he finished what he was doing Harry cracked his eyes open. Seeing the golden locks and steel grey eyes Harry gave a startled sob and jumped away.
He slithered across the floor and huddled in the corner. His eyes were bright and terrified. He kept mumbling words. "So-sorry! So sorry! Never again! Please stop! So sorry…!" Lucius hastened to slowly soothe his fears. While he kept eye contact with Harry he slowly moved towards him making reassuring noises and soft words of safety. "M 'dead? Right? Seeing as you're here? M 'So-Sorry! For everything! The prejudices, the hate, everything! I know how it feels to be hated by everyone, except those that want to bask in the glory of someone that everyone worships……I can't believe what a fucking failure I am to everyone! I didn't even do the one thing I was supposed to do…that I was born to do….Failure…..Complete failure! So sorry, Will you ever forgive me!?" sobbed Harry after realizing who the towering man was.
Lucius' eyes widened but he kept his thoughts to himself. Lucius slowly reached and lightly ran his fingers over Harry's cheek, Harry flinched but didn't move. When no movement came to stop him, Lucius gently tugged the small boy towards him. Harry's tear filled eyes raised to Lucius' calm stormy eyes and stared at him in confusion. "Why're you trying to be kind? I'm dead and I KILLED YOU! You should hate me….really you should….it is my fault….."Harry asked.
Lucius ignored the degrading comments Harry said about himself and instead smiled a warm smile and chuckled softly. "Would you like something to eat and drink?" he asked inquiringly as if Harry's behavior was normal. Harry nodded and tried to sit up. His chartreuse eyes widened when he felt the pain shoot through his wrists and back. "This is so fucking shitty!!! I'm dead and I still feel pain!!!" panted Harry. Lucius just smiled and helped him to slowly sit up. Harry's bottom exploded in pain. His hand tightened on the thigh of Lucius' pants. The lump in Harry's throat grew almost unbearable. Lucius rested his hand on Harry's shoulder and squeezed it briefly. A sob escaped Harry's throat and Lucius tugged the distraught boy into his lap. "I'm so sorry for everything!" sobbed a broken Harry. Lucius held him and rocked him slowly, feeling as helpless as when Draco slipped further into his depression stages.
"Who hurt you so badly Harry?" whispered Lucius. Harry struggled to gain control of his tears. He gave a great hiccupping sob and sullenly stated, "Dunno!" After a while Lucius decided in for a dime in for a dollar, he had to ask Harry, "Harry, I know this is hard for you…Someday when you're ready to hear it I have a similar story to tell you about someone you care very much about! But I have been in your shoes, I know the hardness of the heartbreak….I need to ask you this, Was it Draco?" said Lucius warily. Harry heaved in a great gush of air, and for awhile he held it in tightly. Suddenly he began to sob uncontrollably confirming Lucius' fears. Harry desperately tried to stop himself, but the more he sobbed the more he clung to Lucius who was starting to think he might need some help with Harry's case, him not being a professional healer. Lucius felt his heart grow heavy. He felt torn between two people. He loved his son dearly, but what he'd done to Harry was….barbaric. Yet, Harry had not helped much in Draco's case. How many nights had he stopped Draco from going mad and slicing his wrists. How many days had passed coaxing Draco off of the balcony? How many evenings had he spent begging a sobbing Draco to take the rope off of his neck and get off of the chair? Yet, Lucius knew something that many did not know about the Wizarding Worlds Wonder-Boy. This wonder boy had had thee most un-wonderful life since he was a baby. The stormy grey eyes shut in sadness as they recalled a 12 year old Harry Potter getting off the train and walking to his Muggle family.
At the time Lucius had felt rage in his heart that a mere 12 year old child had foiled his chances. He had followed the spoilt Harry he had envisioned. What he had found out had shook him to his very core. Harry had been dragged out of the car and shoved into the home. After locking Harry's items up the large Muggle began to beat on him. The names he called Harry and shocked Lucius to the bone. "How dare they act on a child? Especially a wizard!? Why, why! How dare they?!" Lucius had fumed. And yet, and yet he never told a soul. In his heart he knew it was wrong but, as he had turned to leave he made eye contact with Potter. He shouldn't have been able to see Lucius and yet those haunted green eyes had stared back into troubled stormy ones. Lucius had sneered and Apparated away, hearing the great fat Muggle bellow about more freakish behaviour. In his heart Lucius knew that it was just coincidence that Harry had made eye contact and the he had not truly known Lucius saw his most horrible and hidden secrets. Sighing Lucius spoke to Harry with great trepidation. "Harry this…is not an excuse but…Draco's…he's not completely right in the head….--" Lucius looked startled as a small voice cut him off. "No! Lucius this is my entire fault! It is not Draco's fault! I should never have treated you and your family with such outlandish distaste!" Harry's lips trembled and he bit his lip to stop the flow of tears from escaping with his sobs.
At once Lucius was furious. The boy was sinking deeper and deeper into a depression. "Harry James Potter!!! I will not have you saying that! This is not entirely your fault! Draco has a bit of a, unhealthy obsession with you…At first it was harmless, but then….it grew to a full obsession…you were the savior of the wizarding world and he adored you! When you rejected his hand he grew angry….He…had figured you being the Golden Boy that you would make his problems go away if he befriended you…when he realized you were human, his obsession turned again……He blamed you for the Dark Lord coming back…for my imprisonment before I changed my ways…which by the way I am truly sorry for how I treated you and your friends before I came to my senses…We never stopped him because…well it seemed so harmless…if he could focus all his attention on you we could go about our business without worrying about him focusing on me and my wife….Then the Order came up with the plan to stage my death, and then switching my sides….we couldn't tell anyone though, not Draco, or You……And our plan is working brilliantly! Of course I have to stay here in the shack until the end of the school year, but….It is little compared to the well being of my family and I…" finished Lucius strongly.
Harry sat there in silence. His heart was heavy but his mind was clear. "Thank you for…..telling me that! I do appreciate it, I know it's hard to tell someone a….secret…" he whispered to the older man. Harry sat there for awhile resting against the older man in a companionable silence. SPLUCGHK! Harry blushed a furious red that would have put the Weasley family to shame. What happened next made Harry shocked. Lucius threw back his head and roared with laughter. Harry sat for a minute watching the man convulse with laughter. Then his face broke out into a grin and for the first time since being raped Harry laughed. "Well Harry, it seems your stomach is a little close to rebelling on you, what say you and I have a little to eat?" asked Lucius, his eyes twinkling like molten silver in the light. Harry's blush receded and he nodded yes. Lucius bent down and slowly and carefully lifted Harry up. He placed him on the chair he transfigured into a comfy arm chair. Harry's quiet hiss was the only sound as he moved around getting food. "You know, you've really shared a lot with me…I feel, like I should give you something in return…You might think differently of me, but please no pity! I just want some common ground…" stated Harry hesitantly. Lucius paused in his gathering and turned to smile fondly at Harry. "You don't have to, but whatever you say I promise to listen…Do not feel obligated…." Lucius smiled at Harry.
Harry relaxed and said, "Okay, well let's start with my childhood, since you told me about Draco and his problems." Lucius froze. Harry completely unawares continued on. "I haven't had the most splendid family….They were pretty abusive…They beat me regularly, but I thought it was normal behavior until I turned 11…. Then it got worse, I was barely alive usually when I stayed with my relatives….they hate me….called me a freak,…….faggot, well that they had right anyways….well what I guess I am trying to say is that I didn't have a loving family, I'm not spoilt….truly…..I never told anyone because I didn't want a family out of pity or because of my name, I wanted one because people loved me for me….does that sound selfish?" Harry begged Lucius. Lucius turned slowly. "Harry, I don't know how to tell you this, but I know….I saw, I was there once!" he said gently. Harry froze.
Heya everyone!!! It's me! I awoke from the dead! Will you ever forgive me for taking so long to write!? I have had computer problems and haven't been updating!! Thanks for all the reviews and readings!! I love them!! Please continue to tell me what you think! Constructive Criticism is a good thing, but please don't be too cruel!!! And I decided that I probably won't be killing off any of my beloved characters…like Draco, Harry, Snape, Lucius etc….
Don't forget to please R&R! Feel free to ask me questions because I know at times it can be confusing!!!! Love you all!!!!!
-Mistaken
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Rita in Wonderland- Thanks for the reviews!!! Chapters 2-4 I wanted to be slightly fast because it was just pretty much giving you an idea of Draco's mental instability and Harry's fight to get to the Shrieking Shack! But now I am going to go slower…..
Lyline- Thanks!!! I really am trying to write my best…and like I said, I am trying to go slower now!
Celestial Luna- Thanks!!
Kat1132- Thanks! I took your advice and thanks for that tidbit! I used it! Sorry bout the confusing-ness, it seems confusing now but I am going to try and clear things up as I go! Thanks for the review!!!