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Matt Hardy awoke the next morning to feverish pounding on his door. After a struggle to get himself out of bed he ran down to the door to reveal Jeff standing before him.

"Matt, we need to talk" Jeff said while stepping inside his brothers house.

Matt, after first having walked away turned around again to face him, disgusted " Do you have any idea what your drunk ass did last night? " he snapped

"Yeah Matt, and Im sorry I just don't want to see you get hurt again" Jeff replied in an equally aggressive manner.

" We're friends Jeff" Matt paused "Or we're trying to be. Look, I just think that if we were to become friends again, like we were…it would make this whole thing a lot easier…because then, maybe I could just erase everything" he laughed "I know it sounds crazy, but I cant help it"

"You don't need her and her shit though man. Shes a bitch, I just wish you could get over it" His brother spat out.

"You don't get it Jeff" Matt snapped, his brother looked at him strangely and took a step back. "I'm sick of everyone going on about her"

"What?!"

"Im sick of everyone acting like shes trash, and wasn't even our friend at all, Im just…"He pulled at his hair "Im sick and tired of it all."

"Oh so its okay for you to say things about her, but not us?" Jeff questioned

"Yes." Matt said blankly. "She fucked me over, she broke my heart. I wish I could hate her. I wish I could just write her off and forget about her…but I cant. "

Jeff just stared at his brother confused.

"You don't get it. Jeff, have you ever loved someone so much, you would do anything for them…and then they were ripped away from you." Matt paused, already knowing the answer "I just, I know it ended, and that it had to end….but I still loved her. I just had to walk away. Jeff she hurt me more than anyone ever has in my life. More than any broken bone or botched wrestling move. I just don't think you know what that feels like. " he paused and spoke more quietly "I want to hate her, so, so much…but I cant. I just…I hate what she did to me, and yeah I could talk about her…because she hurt me…but at the end of the day, shes still a person, and everyone treating her like shit, or talking about her, just isn't helping the cause. "

"Matt man, Im sorry" Jeff responded, not knowing what to say. Matt just seemed to be pouring this all out at him at once.

" I've been thinking about her a lot lately you know. " He paused and backed up to lean against the wall. "My life was ripped apart in one day, and its just not the same. I don't know, its like…when Im not around her, I hate her and what she did to me, but then again when I run into her like with last night, I just forget all of that" He looked down at his feet "She's Amy you know?"

By now Jeff was beginning to understand, he just hated what his brother was going through "Yeah, I get it" he said slowly.

Matt continued "If someone came to me on the very day I found out, and said I would still even be thinking about it two years later, I wouldn't believe them. She just meant so much to me, and its damn hard to let that all go."

"Do you still love her?" Jeff asked blankly

Matt shook his head "Im always going to love her, but I don't think Im IN love with her anymore. "

Jeff nodded his head and then got a call on his cell phone from Beth who needed him to run to the store, soon after he left leaving Matt to sit on his couch and think.

Flashback

"Could you believe how they just took to us tonight?" Amy asked Matt with a smile "It was pretty cool"

The two were hanging out at their hotel room after Raw.

Matt grinned a boyish grin back at her "Yeah I know" he then walked over and wrapped his arms around his waste "Who wouldn't want this…" He said before reenacting their Kiss on Raw. It was the 'debut ' of Matt and Lita as a couple and the two were pleased that all had gone well.

As the two pulled away they locked eyes and shared a smile. "Matt, do you think this will change anything?"

Matt looked at her "This? Like, you and me?"

Amy nodded as Matt continued "No Ames, why?"

She looked down at the ground " I don't know, im just worried. Things are fine now, but what if they split us up in the future, and even before that, what if the fans turn on us, or if they do split us up, will that effect us and -"

Matt put his finger to her mouth to cut her off and chuckled "I love you" he said plainly.

Amy froze a big grin spread across her face "I love you too"

This was the first time Matt had embraced his feelings and finally came out with it. The two had been dating for about a year, and both know how the other felt it was just Matt wasn't too big on using those three words. He felt that they were too many times, meaninglessly thrown around and the first time he was going to say it, he wanted it to mean something. "You're too cute" Matt said as he kissed her on the top of her head. "You don't have to worry about anything. They cant break us up, I mean really break us up as long as we have this" He pointed at his chest and then to hers.

Matt got off the couch after thinking back to a simpler time "This is so fucked up" he said out loud to no one. Wrestlemania was in a few days and he needed to get his head cleared up.