James is alone in his 6th year Dormitory. Late Autumn rain is pounding the window, and he lies on his bed, thinking of Lily. Lily. James loved Lily, and she knew that, but she still wouldn't go out with him. He wasn't going to give up. She hurt him so much. Just thinking of all the times she had rejected him brung tears to his lonely hazel eyes. Things couldn't get worse. Thunder clapped in the backgroud, and James looked up, out the window.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
"Lily. You're like an angel to me. I think about you all of the time. Your beautiful red locks, they're perfect, like your eyes. Sparkling green, like an Emerald, and when they look at me it's as if you can see exactly what's inside. It's captivating. I Love you with all my heart, and yet every day you break it. You are perfect. You are the one I'll always want to be with. I just wish you'd see that I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere, I'm waiting for you, I always will." James sniffed, and ran his hand through his hair, and then, remembering how much Lily hated it, he flattened it back down.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
James sniffed again. "Lily. Everyday, when I ask you out, I mean it with every bit of love in my heart. I never thought of you as a trophy, or just so I can show off, I want you becuase I Love you. I want to come home from the Ministry to you, kiss you, mark you as mine, for you to call me yours, and to eat dinner across from you, then wash the dishes muggle-style just to make you giggle. I want us to have kids, especially a little boy, with Raven hair like mine, emerald eyes like yours and a passion for quidditch, and the chance to stay with you forever. Thats all I want Lily."
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
James rips up the sleeve of his robes, showing his tanned, toned arms, striped with deep scars, and recent cuts. "Every time you say no Lily, It makes me want to kill myself, becasue I think I'm not good enough for you, and I can't live without you. Lily. Please. Just say yes and you'll make me the happiest guy alive. Simple as that. I want to be with you so bad, Because you're Lily Evans, the girl of my dreams, the one I'll always love, even if I some how end up with someone else. If I'm with someone and you decide you love me Lily, I'm yours in a matter of minutes. And then I'll be yours forever. I'm really yours now, you just need to admit it. Please Lily, for me"What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
The Tears flew free, down James' cheeks, and leaving water on his robes. "Lily. Lily. Your name can even captivate me. Everything is hypnotising about you, you're like a drug, I'm addicted to you, like you've slipped me a Love Potion, but I know you'd never do that, you're not like that, you're too decent, and good, and that's what's great about you, apart from everything else about you. You're perfect. I Love everything about you. I want to wake up every day and watch you sleep, and see you open you eyes and feel the electricity flow between Hazel and Emerald. But that won't happen if you don't give me a chance." Sobs fill the dormitory, issuing from James' mouth. Tears fall faster, and thicker, and his shoulder are shaking with his ragged breaths.
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
James hears the door fly open, and it a flash as he looks up, his veiw is obscured by red hair. Not just and red hair, but the Red Locks of Lily Evans. She's crying, like him, and she's in his arms! What?!? "James! I can't beleive you'd cut yourself! I never really knew that you loved me that much! I Love you too!" Lily met his lips with hers, in a tantalising kiss that shocked him. The electricity, the chemistry, it was everything James imagined it to be, and more. He smiled through the dry tears, and with his callused thumb, he gently wiped her tears away, and she smiled back at him. "Lily. You heard all of that?" James felt embarassed, and he blushed. "Yeah. It was amazing. I alway thought you only wanted me because I was thonly one to say no." she blushed at this "but all the time you were only telling me the truth." She looked up into his hazel eyes, and she instantly felt warm and at home.
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