Sunsets and Car Crashes
By: Ayoru K.
A/N: There's a bit of lemon juice in here. Lol, a teeny bit of (somewhat censored) drunken mansecks. JUST WARNING YOU:B
Disclaimer: I don't own KH or the lyrics to any Spill Canvas songs. 'Nuff said.
Chapter Two
I will find you
"And in case you were wondering, you were like a sunset to me… You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day, as you sweetly retire and the stars chase you away." – The Spill Canvas.
"I'm sorry…" I began to apologize.
"…But, I'm drunk."
Myde only pulled me back down for another kiss before saying.
"It's okay… I am too."
I should've stopped before this went any further, but when something feels so good… Why stop?
I really didn't know what I was doing. We were both men, we were both really drunk and Myde was my best friend… Did I mention Myde was a man?
My god, I was really smashed.
I leaned over the blond, propped up on my elbows, kissing him from time to time, and each time we kissed, left an electrifying sensation on my lips.
And then Myde's hips bucked up and grinded against my hardening member.
Slowly… Oh so slowly.
Excuse my language, but…
"Holy shit." I cursed loudly. Myde wrapped his arms around my broad shoulders, capturing my lips again, his hands creeping down my sides to my stomach, stopping right at the hem of my shorts. His blue eyes, glazed over with desire, looked up at me.
"I-Ien-…" The blond started.
I cut him off and kissed him, my hand cupped at his erection.
Myde tensed up a little, his eyes widened in shock. I guess I was moving too fast, but I was too drunk to tell.
"You don't have to ask. Just… Do it." I said gruffly, my words seemed slurred. Our pants, well actually, the rest of our clothing were strewn across my bedroom floor.
We hungered for each other.
Our bottled emotions, unrestrained…
I lost myself in Myde.
In the heat of our passion, Myde kept saying, "I love you, Ienzo, I love you." Over and over.
And every time he did, I'd reply with.
"I love you too."
Of course, I really meant it at that time.
Everything else after that was a blur...
I woke slowly with a grand headache, the throbbing pain was unbearable, my muscles were all tensed up and sore... I somehow ended up on my bed. Eh, no matter, at least I was comfortable and warm.
You know, another person's body heat felt really good. My arms curled around the source of warmth. Then it hit me.
Another.
Person's.
Body.
My eyes shot open, first thing that greeted my eyes was Myde's sleeping form in my arms. His back was against my chest. I froze up, staring at the back of Myde's head.
'I'm… Sleeping with Myde. In my arms. Naked.' The information was processing slowly through my hangover. I thought back real hard to remember what happened.
'Last night, we came home from the carnival, and started drinking and drinking.
… And drank some more, and then… Oh god.'
I zoned out.
Myde stirred in my arms, he stretched and yawned, looking over his shoulder to catch me gawking at him. The blonds face held a shocked expression. I mean, I'd be shocked too, waking up to someone staring right at me.
"Oh you're awake." The blond said calmly, "I'm sorry, I must be heavy." Myde got up to gather his clothes on the floor. Putting each article of clothing on, one by one.
"Y-you know…" I began, searching for the words to say.
"I'm sorry… Really." I sighed and turned over, my arm covering my eyes.
I couldn't take it.
"I'm so ashamed, I can't even look you in the eye… I'm… I'm such an asshole." I grimaced, I waited for him to say something, something hurtful. To let me know I did something wrong.
I could feel his gaze burning a hole in the back of my head. Then I heard him let out a small sigh as he walked to the door.
"You know… All the things I said last night…" Myde spoke, his voice soft.
I listened, I listened hard, I heard the click of my doorknob and his slow footsteps.
"… I was serious." The blond finished, the door closing behind him quietly.
I sighed, mentally smacking myself in the head.
"I'm such a fuck up…"
I didn't see Myde after that day.
Actually, even if I did see him, I wouldn't have known how to act or what to say to him. While a part of me was relieved… Another part was searching for him, I went out and looked for him, even if it was just a glance.
I walked around our usual hang out spots, and even passed by the old playground, hoping to see him sitting there.
No such luck.
I wanted to see Myde.
I remembered that Myde was staying at his father's place, so I went there. I walked up the stairs to the old apartment complex. I found the suite number in a directory and proceeded to knock on the door. I was greeted shortly by a blond man with piercing blue-green eyes.
I was surprised at how young Myde's father looked even after all these years.
"Uh… G-good day Mr. Sutoraifu, is Myde here?" I stuttered.
"Are you Myde's frien- Oh! Is that you Ien?" The blond man asked, squinting at me. He leaned in closer, scrutinizing my face.
"Wha- Yes!" I answered, straightening up. The older man nodded and smiled at me.
"Well, Myde's not in right now... I think he went out somewhere." said Myde's father.
I was shot down again. Shit.
"Oh, I see…" I sighed. I turned around to walk away, only to be stopped.
"Did something happen recently Ien?" asked Myde's father.
"Huh?" I turned back around.
"Myde told me he was going to stay the whole summer here, and suddenly he's talking about going back to his mother's place." The blond man frowned, knowing that his son wanted to leave.
"Myde's never really been good at expressing how he feels, and he seemed so much happier here. He was always happy talking about you… I had thought maybe he'd said something about it to you." Myde's father continued.
I felt a pang of guilt.
"If anything, please Ien… I know this will be awkward of me to ask you, since I'm his father… But, would you please be there for Myde when he's troubled?" Myde's father looked hopeful and I accepted. I waved farewell to the blond man and took off. Clenching my fists I went to search for Myde again. I ran blocks and blocks, surveying areas I had looked over.
'You're always like this Myde… Always! You're a coward and a crybaby… and you had a smile that would make my knees weak and my heart race. I've always been the one you'd open up to.' I thought as I ran the city blocks.
It started to rain, in the midst of summer, the rain drizzled down.
I stopped running to catch my breath.
"Myde… Are you… Crying again?" I huffed, speaking out loudly enough for myself to hear. I let the rain fall down on me as I began walking again, aimlessly… I didn't know where else to search.
And I remembered. I stopped dead in my tracks to smack myself in the head for not thinking of it earlier.
'Stupid secret base!'
I ran as fast as I could, to the field of flowers, to that stupid crap shack, to the secret base…
To Myde.
I was out of breath again, damn small lungs! I was soaked to the bone too. I walked towards the old run down shed and stopped right at the entrance. I took a step forward and peered in the open doorway. I slammed my fist on the frame of the doorway and gritted my teeth.
"Not here either… God dammit! Where are you?" I seethed.
"So it's still here huh?" Said an all too familiar voice behind me.
I whipped around to see Myde holding an umbrella, standing a few yards away from me.
"I thought it'd disappeared or torn down by now." Myde's voice was… Cold and hollow. It wasn't what I was used to hearing. The blond turned and began walking away.
"Myde!... Y-You're… Going back to your mother's place?" I burst out. I had to say something. Anything.
"Yeah. So you heard?" He replied quietly, it was hard to hear over the rain. Silence settled between us two. Myde turned over to face me, and smiled at me. Even if his smile was to assure me, his eyes were sad.
"Well, at least it'll be better this way… We don't have to feel weird around each other." With that, Myde turned back around and started to walk away from me again. Not again… I was not going to lose Myde again.
My eyes widened and rage burned in my chest. I briskly walked over to Myde and grabbed his arm.
"It won't be easier for me!" I bellowed. Myde tensed, and stared at the ground.
"I thought I was going crazy, it was unbearable these past few days!"
My grip tightened around Myde's arm.
"And now… Now… You're just going to leave me again?" I said in a whisper.
I wanted him to look at me… Look at me Myde!
"Myde…" I started.
I didn't want to see someone so dear to me walk away from me again.
Not again.
Not ever.
"I love you, Myde." I said, my voice was clear and straightforward. I kept staring at the back of Myde's head. He didn't answer me… But he didn't move away from me either.
"Please don't leave me again Myde… I'm begging you." I really was, I must've sounded so helpless and pathetic. I'm sure most people would too if they were crazy in love with someone.
"Enough…! That's enough already!" Myde exclaimed. He pulled away from my hold and took a few steps away from me. He dropped his umbrella and brought up his hands to cover his face.
"Myde I-…"
"I get it… Just… I get it." Myde sighed and ran a hand through his dirty blonde hair.
I walked up to him slowly, and wrapped my arms around his waist, pressing my chest against his back.
"I love you, Myde." I repeated, whispering in his ear.
"Yeah…"
Myde was still tense in my arms, but I held him a bit longer before letting my arms slowly pull away from the blond.
"Don't." The blond said.
I stopped all movement and he turned around to face me again. His face was flushed, and his eyes were slightly red from, what I assumed, crying.
But he was still beautiful to me.
"Don't let me go." The blond said smiling.
"Or I might slip away from you again." He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and brushed his lips against mine.
"I ran miles and miles for you… I'm not planning on letting you go again." I grinned and pulled him into a tight embrace, kissing back deeply.
'Nope, not letting you go. We'll stay together, forever.'
The rain had let up and the sun shone down upon the two of us. Quite cliché, yet romantic. I didn't care.
Myde was back in my life and that was all that mattered.
A/N: Another chapter done! This one was pretty short... But yeah... And NO this isn't the end… This is JUST the beginning. :D
Well get to the real isht after all this sappy stuff is done. YOU WILL SEE! The later chapters/ stories will be so much more intense than this one.
Please review, I will personally thank you! All criticisms are welcomed.
Stick around!
- Ayoru K.