Chapter Ten: The Bee's Sting

"You know, the doctor said that it might be best to try again."

"Excuse me?" Sara was adjusting the brace she had to wear on her wrist now that her cast was finally off.

Grissom misunderstood what Sara meant, "Best to try and get pregnant again I mean."

Grissom had been mentioning the miscarriage lately, but Sara would change the subject before they talked about it. It was simple: Not talking about it was her way of getting over it. Sara counted to ten before turning to face him, "I understood what you meant," Sara replied coolly. She didn't like being mean about it, but this was the only way short of flat out ignoring the subject to get Gil to understand that he wasn't welcome to keep bringing it up, "What makes you think that I want to get pregnant again?"

"Its just that you were so happy about being a mother. The doctor said that-"

"Honest to God I do not care about what the doctor said!" Sara cut in, "I have absolutely no desire to get pregnant. And no, I don't want to talk about the miscarriage. This is my way of dealing with it."

"Being angry about it?" Grissom replied sarcastically, "That's not a very healthy way to deal with things. You of all people should know that."

"It happened for a reason Gil, you have to let me believe that. The only way I can ever get over it is to believe that it happened for a reason," Sara uttered softly, "If not that, then what? It was some cruel twist of fate? Some higher power telling me that I don't deserve to be happy?"

"No Sara, never that. I'll stop talking about it. I only wanted to help you."

"That's the thing Gil. I'm okay, or rather, I'm going to be. You can't help me."

Grissom sighed, that was what nagged at him the most. No matter how much Sara said that she was okay, she wasn't. At least she'd admit it. Grissom supposed that only time could heal the deepest of wounds.

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Marriage. Before Sara, Grissom would have never even considered it. Before she got pregnant, he'd been considering asking her. But after she was pregnant, he didn't dare. She would never get married simply for the sake of tradition, and that's why she would think that he was doing it. Traditionally, if a man got a woman pregnant, he would ask her to marry him so that he could support her and the baby. Grissom didn't want that to be Sara's first thought when and if he ever asked her.

And he did ask her. Randomly. He was tending to his bee colony, which served as a very effective and interesting distraction. He was telling Sara all about the worker bees and showing her how they didn't sting when the notion came to him. He wanted more than anything to marry Sara. He wanted her to be Sara Grissom. Or Sara Sidle Grissom. Or just Sara Sidle if she wanted, but he was getting ahead of himself. So he asked. And she said yes.

She was very happy about it. And excited. They didn't start planning right away, they had plenty of time for that. They were getting married, and even they hadn't ever expected that to happen.

Grissom didn't tell anyone, but Sara did. She was really sick of keeping secrets, so she told Greg. Greg really was her best friend besides Grissom. It was nice being able to confide in him. And she really did enjoy hanging out with him. He really missed her. And truth be told, she missed him too.

Greg thought that it was very funny that instead of an engagement ring, Sara had a bee sting. "If it scars, you'll have a permanent reminder of your marriage!" Was all Greg could say between laughs.

He and Sara had breakfast every morning. He would hang around the lab and help her with her latest cases until she got off of work. All the death was really effecting her, she'd lost her spark. "I think that I'm sick of having death shoved in my face every day," Was all that Sara would say about how she was feeling. But Greg could see it. Sara was burnt out. Not burning out, but burnt out. There was nothing to stop her from quitting her job anymore. Especially since she didn't even get any satisfaction out of it. Greg figured that the only reason she was still sticking around the lab was because it was all she knew. Sara just couldn't accept that she was done with her job.

Greg knew that Sara was done with the lab, and he fully expected that it was only a matter of time before she left. But he never expected her to leave Las Vegas. It was plausible that she would, but unexpected. The thing that Greg would have never even dreamed she'd do was leaving Grissom behind when she left. But as he'd always say, "People surprise you every day. They often act in ways that you'd least expect. But they are very predictable if you pay enough attention." Or maybe that was a mobster from one of the old movies who always said that?

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To Be Continued…