Twenty-Six years later

Damn...I growled to myself. The memory of Jake and I had been so real, I cursed myself silently for being such a fool. I looked out the window of the abandoned shed I was staying and and snarled at the thought of Jake and I touching again. It had been 25 years since he's aknowledged my existance. About a year after our trip to Emilys he stopped talking to me, my growl deepened as I remembered my last argument with Jacob, how naïve I used to be: '

Italics is talking in the flashback

Who, Jake would ask, his eyes full of hatred and betrayal. Who is more important to you than we are? He motioned to the pack behind him, Paul and Embry both shaking menacingly,

Nobody Jake, A tear formed in my eye as I begged my best friend to believe me. My words came out in a whisper. Why are you doing this to me Jake? You know I would never lie to you? I reached out to touch my sun, but he flinched back. Away from me, as though I were the monster. I shivered as a wind blew and a bad scent hit me as well. I growled surprising myself. Jakes beautiful face snapped up, shocked at that animal like sound that came from my direction. He looked past me expecting to see something else there that had made the sound. He had no idea it was from me, and at the time I denied it as well.

Jake. I swear on all that is holy and good in this world, I swear on everything you mean to me. I even swear on Charlie Jacob. That I have not been anywhere near another vampire outside of yours or the packs knowledge. At this point I was on the ground crying. Sobbing would be a better word for it. I watched through my tears as jakes face softened, his eyes filled with forgiveness and love. He made as though to reach out for me, he would have too, but a sharp snarl from Sam brought him back to reality, even Jake's love for me wasn't strong enough for him to stop believing in his instincts.

BELLS! STOP LYING! I smell it on you, we all do! That sickly sweet smell, it's a vampire that's gotten close enough to touch you. Who Bella? Tears filled his eyes as well

Jake, I'm not lying

Bells….I don't ever want you to come near LaPush again. Do you hear me?"

It wasn't until I graduated from high school that I realized what I was becoming.And many years later that I figured out why

I am now in Volterra, after being called to meet with the Volturi last month. They insisted I take one of their private planes. I refused of course, it was a sick game I played but nevertheless I loved playing it. I would enter areas crowded with humans, resisting the urge to drink from them, only building up my thirst until I found one alone and let loose. The plane ride there was excrutiating, the urge not to attack the humans sitting beside me was too strong to resist.

I knew I would enjoy my dinner even more than usual if I managed to resist. Normally all humans on the plane would have been safe from me, but one foolish male made himself too available. As I got off the plane, in an urge to run out of the airport in superhuman speed before I let that monster I despised take control of me again, a young brunette stopped me and asked my name. I opened my mouth to answer and as soon as I did the smell hit me like a train. I've always been able to control myself for as long as I need to but I had to have him. He must have been around 23 years old. ATtractive by human standards and wearing cologne. Silly human, I thought to myself. The need to humans to wear perfumes always seemed useless to me, considering they smelled so wonderfully delectable on their own

I lured him into a dark alley outside the plane with a seductive smile and had him. I drank from my one thousandth human that day, when I finished my meal I turned to the side and caught my reflection in a mirror. Those wild red eyes shocked me even today. I should despise what I had become but how could I? I had no heart to despise it. I felt nothing, Life had become narrative.

Nothing had descriptions, even though my senses were now heightened as a vampire, colours had lost their intensity, smells had become dulled, and beauty might as well be non-existant for all I have to appreciate it. I stared at my reflection and waited for the remorse to hit. I kept myself hiidden within myself as much as I could. BUt the overwhelming guilt after a kill was too much for even me to surpress.

My eyes looked panicked, rather than their usual emptiness. My brown hair wild, I closed my wild brown hair in a scrunchy and began to close myself up again. I turned away from my reflection and saw the dead mans body. The face I always see after a kill replaced the young mans.

"Edward" I whispered, and stroked his face.

"Im a murderer Edward. Because of you. I'm lifeless Edward, because you left." I sat stroking the dead mans face for ten minutes. until I was finally able to collect myself and use my gift to turn off who I am. I closed my eyes, walked over the mans life-less body as I ran to Volterra to get the meeting over with.

Volterra

"Hello Bella, dear, when I heard you were in Spain I had to have you stop by!"

"Hello Aro" I said, lifelessly as always .

"Where's Cullen?" Marcus asked, observant as always.

"Not here" I growled at the mention of his name. It was his fault I'm like this.

"You mean to tell me Edward let you come alone? The intensity of your relationship last time we met,…. I never would have thought" Aro trailed on. I opened my eyes, realizing they had still been closed under my glasses.

I really ought to stop doing that. I took off my shades and looked around the room. Inhaling a sharp breath as I was attacked by the memory of the last time I was here, with Him.The high ceiling and layout of the room had not changed at all. It was empty now, with only Aro and Marcus sitting at two throne like chairs behind a table. Aro motioned for me to come sit accross from them. I stayed where I was

"Me and Edward have not spoken to each other for 26 years." I said, the usual snarl on my face. I decided to use my gift of heightened perceptivity to measure where this conversation was going.

My gift, I smiled, I love my gift. As a human I was always painfully aware, perceptive, although this only hurt me worse during the period where Edward had left me, It gave me immense power as a Vampire. I've learned to manipulate my gift to get insight to ones thoughts, to decide where ones actions would lead, and most recently I've been able to see what was happening with my eyes closed. I did this often, it helped me keep the Bella with emotions under wraps.

That was another plus to my power. Emotional Bella was an option. I could turn my perceptability on and off. I discovered soon after my transformation finished that I could turn off perceptability to myself. I was no longer connected to my feelings. That was a choice. One that I only chose after kills to keep myself in check–

"Bella, if that's the case, How were you changed? If you don't mind me asking of course" Aro's booming laugh filled the hall, I silently cursed him for interrupting my thoughts and looked at his cold, pale face. His beauty was an attractive one, his laugh was an obvious attempt to lighten the mood. I knew he was only trying to make me smile, Fat Chance. I thought. I opened my mouth to answer his question, but quickly closed it again and wondered, I don't have to tell them anything. Nothing bad will happen. My gift told me.

I looked at Aro and Marcus, Caius was missing, according to my gift, he was currently taking care of a rogue vampire in Cairo with Jane. I was still facing them, standing at the door at the other end of the carpet.. Pitiful waste of time. Why am I here? I wondered turning on my gift to high power to fully understand the situation. I was vaguely aware of Aro's pointless babbling as I tuned into my now on gift, once again closing my eyes. Hmm, So Aro knew Edward left me? And also that I was a Vampire? So what does he want, oh only to know how I became a vampire, well that shouldn't take long. Might as well get it over with.

"Bella, can you hear me?" Aro asked, full well knowing that I could.

"Yes, I was just-"Damn I hate having to explain myself, I just wont "In answer to your question, Edward changed me. But I don't even think he knows."

I felt Aro's need to interrupt with the age-old question of why and simply raised my hand to stop him mid-word.

"Let me explain. Some drugs are so lethal to humans, that once a human begins using the drug, not only are they psychologically addicted, they are also physically dependant on that substance to stay alive. Most of these drugs are venoms, my theory which is correct, is that vampire venom is a type of such drug. Whenever Edward and I would kiss, I would recieve a small amount of this drug.

"When Edward left, I was 17 years old. When I was 18 however, a pack of werewolves that lives in my vicinity sensed that something about me smelled like a vampire, even though I hadn't been around one for a whole year. That same year, I began to grow very pale, pale like a vampire. When I was 20 I noticed my face had not changed except for continuously becoming paler, since I was 17 years old. When I was 23 I woke up one morning and sparkled in the sun. I had my first urge to drink from a human when I was 25, although I could eat normal food until I was 27.

"My transformation was stretched over 10 years" I paused a second as thoughts and feelings of pity hit me. I quickly rectifyied them, I hate being pityied. "No, it was not as painful a regular vampires transformation, to say the least, there was no fire. There was however great pain everynight, pain which at the time, I attributed to a broken heart. That pain was my transformation" I paused, once more. Waiting for the awkward silence that should have followed. With aro however, every silence must be filled. I made the mistake of answering his next questions before they were asked.

"Yes aro, I am the only vampire to ever be transformed in that way. No I have not told Edward or any of the Cullens because I never really loved them." The mention of their names brought forth a fighting emotional bella from within me. YOU IDIOT! You loved him more than you love yourself. Don't use that goddamn I was addicted mess on me!! I loved him more than I loved life. I never swapped spit with Alice, and I loved her too! Explain that I took a deep breath and locked her back up. I should get rid f her all together, but she was me.

It made me go crazy feeling as though I had too personalities. I was so caught up controlling Emotional Bella (from now on, E.B.) that I forgot about Aro and Marcus. I looked at them and continued before they could ask what I was concentrating on.

"I believe I was only addicted to his venom. My gift Aro is" I contemplated not answering, my gift however told me that would not be smart. I settled with giving him one aspect of my gift,

"Is to read minds. I believe that is because of how much time I spent with Edward." I was lying through my teeth but that was fine with me. I knew if I told them the extent of my gift that they would demand I join them. Saying I read minds was the best lie for me to say. Although i'm 'perceptive' enough to know what ones thinking, I could never tell you the exact words theyre thinking of. SImply paraphrasing was enough for Aro and Marcus. I knew so. Marcus had the next question. Demanding me to prove it. He ofcourse, did not say anything outloud. I answered by looking at him and nodding yes.

His face was not as attractive as Aro, but more a stunning beauty. Like a greek myth. He wondered if I heard. I nodded again. He then lost his train of thought and wondered at how beautiful I am. I smiled, and turned back to Aro. "Is that all?" "Bella. Your story is amazing, you must come visit every three months. We need to study your transformation." I froze. My power was still on high and I sensed the name I've been waiting for for years. I hissed, and jumped on aro, forcing him and his chair backwards. "You ass, you invited him here, you called EDWARD!?!?" My voice was a roar. E.B. and my screaming together. Me at Aro, E.B. at me to run, I let E.B. take over and sprinted as far as I could.

I felt him running towards the hall after hearing my outburst, wondering who could hate him so much as to yell at aro. I cried as a I ran, I cried, loud tearless sobs, I ran to scisily that night. and halfway there I sensed Edward begin to follow me. Once I reached the island I swam until I found a cave underwater, in that cave I stayed that night, i stayed there for a week, until I knew he was gone. WHy did I run like that? Why did he run after me? What would he say? Would he be disgusted at my eating habits? Whats going on with me? I knew something within me had changed because I hadn;t had to ask questions in a decade. My perceptibility always answered them before I finished asking.

Now, however, I was full of questions. Why can't I answer these questions? SImple, my gift told me, because the person who can help you answer them is swimming back to the U.S. as we speak. I felt relief that he was gone, I felt sadness that he had passed, but most of all I felt angered at what my gift told me next, he knew I am a vampiress, and had been for quite a while.