A/n: Another pretty intense chapter! And finally I reveal Gaara's past and people don't freak out about the thing I know you will ok; my story whatever I say goes XP. Pretty much just Gaara's past but I assure you it will be important later on and besides we all need to know why he's such a meanie lol

Well as always please REVIEW:D

Gaara and Sasori shielded their faces with their arms as Sakura's reiatsu blasted out the door. "Get Deidara or else the excess energy will burn her to a crisp!" Gaara yelled over the screaming. Sasori ran into the room still shielding his eyes and grabbing Deidara with one arm.

She looked back shocked and tear filled and Sasori ran back into the hallway setting her down against the wall. Gaara walked in trying to shield himself from the reiatsu, he made his way behind Sakura's whose sword had released itself and her cherry blossoms were raging around her.

Gaara held his arm as a cut appeared on it. "Sakura!" he tried to yell over her constant screaming. He wrapped one arm around her stomach and covered her glowing pink eyes with the others. "Sakura, please calm down" he whispered into her ear.

He felt his hand becoming wet and knew he was catching her tears. The pink cherry blossoms disappeared and her reiatsu faded, she slumped against him and he held her more tightly.

He kneeled down to the ground and looked across the room at his old master's body and pressed Sakura against him. Jiraiya was more then just his commander; he had been the one to save him from his loneliness.

Flashback. . .

A very young Gaara walked down the hall of the Sabaku house bored out of his mind. He stopped when he heard his father shouting, it was normal to hear but this time was unusually threatening. "You two are complete failures! You disgust me, Kankuro you just learned your zanpakuto's! Your younger brother has already known his for 2 years! He learned it the same year as Temari! This is a disgrace. You two are put to shame by him I should disown you both and pass the head of the house unto him"

Gaara backed away from the door he was listening from wide eyed. He ran down the hallway to the room he knew his mother always stayed in to drink her tea and talk with the servants. "Mommy!! Mommy!!" he cried and fell into her open arms.

"Yes darling what is it?" she asked looking down at her adorable son and placed her hand on his head.

"I don't wanna be like father" he said through tear-filled eyes.

"Sweetie what ever do you mean?"

"I heard him tell Temari and Kankuro that he was going to make me the head of the house instead and I don't want to be head. I don't want to be a mean person!" he cried more.

"Oh don't cry" she smiled placing a comforting hand on his cheek. "Gaara you are a kind person you will never be cruel even as the head of the family" she smiled. "Now run along and head to bed its getting very late" she told him and pat his back.

Gaara got up and smiled wiping his eyes, "Mommy, you won't ever leave us right?" he turned around with a look of somewhat fear. She blinked and stared at him for a moment before having her smile return to her face.

"Of course not darling I love you all far too much to ever leave you, someone would have to take me away"

Gaara smiled and headed out of the room and down the hall. He stopped when he saw Temari and Kankuro walking towards him. "Hey" Temari said with a sad smile on her face. "Are you heading to bed? It's past bed time isn't it?" she asked.

Gaara nodded and gave his sister a smile that made her look at him quizzically. "Don't worry Temari when I become head I won't be mean like father" he smiled.

Temari smiled back at him, "Gaara you would be a fine head of the family, you're so strong and kind. I hope you do become head" she said placing her hand on the top of his head and smiling. "Goodnight" she said before leaving.

"Kankuro ruffled his hair and smiled, "Night little man"

Gaara smiled he was glad father's praise of them did not make them angry or hate him. They had no real idea of what their father did to him. Ever since he could remember their father was stricter with him. Even though in front of everyone he acted as if he loved Gaara.

He was trained before normal Shinigami were supposed to be train and pushed to the edge countless time almost being faced with death itself. His father told him it was because he wanted the best for his son and he just wanted him to be able to be the best of everyone.

His training had caused him to loose his ability to sleep much since his training kept him up most of the day from dawn to very late in the night. There were times when his mother had begged his father to let him take a day or more off and he actually lived like a normal person. But in training his father always told him it wasn't perfect or not good enough to be the top and that he would bring him and his mother to shame. And that was the last thing Gaara wanted . . . was to shame his mother.

He froze seeing his father come out of the room in which he was talking, well more like yelling at Temari and Kankuro in. "Why aren't you in bed?!" he yelled adding a glare.

Gaara looked down to the ground trying to avoid his father's hateful glare. "You always have your mother complain to me because of your insomnia well maybe you wouldn't look so tired if you went to sleep when I told you too!" he snarled and pointed towards his room and waited.

Gaara proceeded past him and didn't bother looking back but hurried towards his room closing his door and looking out the window at the full moon. "I should try and get to bed, father's going to be angry tomorrow during training I don't want to screw up" he said to himself and lay down.

-

Gaara shot up and looked around, "What is this feeling?" he wondered and stood up grabbing his sword that was clearly too big for him at this point. He rushed out and ran down the hallway and stopped where the garden met with the house. He looked around and saw hollow land in the garden.

"AHAHA how delicious! A young Shinigami boy! You sure look delicious! And you can see me you must have immense spiritual power. I would assume you are the son of the 8th Captain since it is him I am after but your power surpasses him! I shall eat you first!" he cackled.

He slammed his hand down and Gaara just dodged out of the way. "Stop running you useless scum! Fight him what do you think I have been training you for" he heard his father's voice and went wide eyed. How could he not help him?! His own son!

"Slippery aren't you!" the hollow laughed and shot his hand forward and Gaara saw no way for escape.

"GET AWAY FOMR MY SON!" a shriek filled the air and a lightening bolt shot at the hollow stunning it. Gaara saw his mother run in front of him with her sword drawn. "You try and touch my son again and it will be the last thing you do!" she screamed.

"AHAHAHA a woman!!! How delightful! I shall consume you all!" she stood ready and slashed at his hand when it came in as Gaara's father just watched. He made another grab for Gaara and she went wide eyed.

"NO!" she yelled pushing Gaara out of the way but having the hollow grabbed her instead.

"Mother!!!!"

She tried to pry herself from his grasp. Gaara froze as his whole world melted before his eyes. He saw the hollow throw his mother's body to the side and laugh. "What a pure soul! A mother saving her child is the best! And now for you!" he looked at Gaara who was horror struck.

"MOTHER!!!!!" he yelled at the top of his lungs but got no reply from her. "I'll KILL YOU!" Gaara screamed and pulled out his sword from the sheath. He jumped up and swung the sword as hard as her could and created a gash in the hollows mask.

"Disperse, SABURE!!"

His sword burst into sand and shot at the hollow, the hollow screeched as the sand began ripping it apart bit by bit and crush the mask. Gaara stood with his sand all around him breathing hard tears blurred his vision but he knew his father was watching.

"Good job my son"

"SHUT UP!! DON'T YOU DARE TALK TO ME!" he screamed. "YOU LET HER DIE! AND NOW I'm going to kill you like I did that hollow!" he seethed feeling all his emotions except for hate and sorrow slip away.

Happiness

He looked at his mother's dead body and glared over at his father, "I'll kill you!!"

Love

He ran at his so-called father and formed his sand into a sword driving it right through him before he could even react.

Compassion

He fell to his knees holding his stomach and looking up as his son. "I hate you and I want you to see this smile on my face as you die" Gaara said bringing a sadistic smile to his face. "I hope you burn in hell" he sand sending his excess sand at him and ripping him to shreds.

Kindness

Gaara released the sand sword and walked over to his mother's body. H kneeled beside it and placed a hand on her now cold face. "Mommy, I'm sorry" he cried.

"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you!" he shouted into the air and sent his sand up and then drove it down on his forehead. He looked back down blood steaming down his face from his forehead and there he marked himself with the kanji for 'Love'.

"The only love I will ever share with anyone will be with you, mom" he said placing his head on her stomach. "I will no longer depend on you, I will protect your memory and be the best I can be, I won't let anything die" Gaara said with an emotionless face.

-

Gaara sat on bench at the Shinigami academy and looked up at the sky. He felt nothing, as usual. "Hi Gaara!" he heard someone call his name and saw a girl from his class with pink hair.

"Hey Gaara your sitting over here by yourself do you want to eat lunch with me?" she smiled holding up her box of food.

"No."

Sakura made a pouting face "Oh come on you look so sad over here by yourself what's the harm in eating with a classmate?" she asked.

"I don't associate myself with Shinigami not born in Seireitei" he said standing up and facing away from her. He walked off leaving a steaming pink haired girl behind. He continued his walk around the grounds and stopped seeing the Captain Commander coming his way.

"Ah so you are Sabaku no Gaara" he smiled stopping in front of the red head. "How are you esteemed Head of the Sabaku Clan?" he asked placing a hand on his shoulder.

Gaara looked up at the seemingly kind man. "Fine" he said keeping his answers short.

"That's good to hear, I have heard promising things from you. Indeed I have although being the Head of the Sabaku clan for 10 years now has made a youngster like you quite serious. I recall you being a bit more relaxed way before then"

"Clan heads are supposed to be strong to reflect the outlook of their families. I don't want disrespect for my family" he said trying to be respectful of Jiraiya.

"And by your family you mean your mother? Am I correct? What a tragic night that was, to drive a boy to kill his own father. Do you want respect for your father as well?" he asked.

"I couldn't care less about that swine. I hope he's burning in hell this very moment" he seethed.

Jiraiya sighed and then gave him a smile. He placed an assuring hand on Gaara's shoulder "After your classes today I want you to come to the meeting room. I want to give you something" he said and turned around and began his walk off.

He waved back and left Gaara there very confused.

-

Gaara walked towards the giant doors with the symbol for the 1st squad on it. This was the first time he had even been in the 13 Squad buildings. Gaara walked into the room and was surprised by what he saw, the pink haired girl and her blonde friend training with wooden swords.

Jiraiya looked up and smiled seeing him. "I'm sorry my darlings but your train must by cut short for today, the Head of the Sabaku clan is here" he said placing a hand on both their heads. "Why don't you go out and play with Tsunade" he smiled.

The two smiled and ran past Gaara and shut the door behind them. "Well my boy I'm glad you came" he said walking up to Gaara.

"What is it you needed me for?"

"Well I just wanted to let you know that I think you are very strong and I wanted to give you something that belonged to my granddaughter" Jiraiya smiled and turned around heading for his desk. "It was very precious to her," he pulled out a box and opened it pulling something out.

"Sir, if it was your granddaughter's then why give it to me?" Gaara asked as Jiraiya walked back over. He just smiled and let the necklace dangle from his hand. Gaara went wide eyed and held the necklace he had grown accustomed too seeing on his mother.

It was a white gold stab with 'Love with all that you can Love'. Gaara stared at it and then looked up at Jiraiya. "Karura was my granddaughter was one of the kindest Shinigami to enter the court. Her parents, my son, were killed when she was very young and I raised her myself. Then she married your father, after I found out what had happened from the household I knew it was him who was at fault for her death"

"Gaara please keep it I know she would want you to have it and I know she would want you to be happy" he smiled. Gaara looked down and felt something he hadn't felt for 10 years. His eyes stung and he fell into Jiraiya and cried.

Jiraiya smiled and hugged him. "I know that deep down you care about all things and want to protect them. Things may have made you hard but I know you can over come them" he smiled letting tears fall from his own eyes.

End. . .

Gaara looked back down at Sakura who was in his arms. He let go of her and she looked up at him as he stood up and walked over to Jiraiya. He grabbed the hilt of the sword that had pinned him against the wall. He pulled it out and grabbed Jiraiya before he fell.

He walked over a bit and placed Jiraiya down and placed his hands over his open eyes and closing them. Sakura watched him walk over to where the balcony started and he stopped with the bloodied sword in his hand.

"SHINO!!" He yelled, "You better run for your pitiful life! Because if I find you, I'm going to rip you to shreds!!" he stabbed the sword into the ground and walked back into the meeting room.

"Let's go" he told Sakura as she stood up. Her and Gaara stared at each other for awhile before she walked it front of him and kissed him. "If you want to kill him you'll have to beat me" she said seriously and he nodded.

"The first to deal the killing blow" he said and walked past her as she followed. Sasori looked at the two as they came out and placed his hand on his sword.

"Let's go hunting" he said in a threatening voice.