I am back! It's been months on top of months on months! I am happy to say here it is! The next chapter!
Ok so this is a big chapter for Brooke! And I keep watching fast forwards and I decided to sorta make one of my own!
Brooke laid in bed and looked up at the ceiling, thinking about Nathan and Lucas. They were both guys that meant to the world to her, and it brought tears to her eyes that they were both getting hurt because of their feelings for her. She didn't want anyone to hurt. She wanted everyone happy but she couldn't force people to be happy, she didn't have that kind of power. She was laying in bed next to her friend Izzie. She turned and faced her. Izzie looked so peaceful and she had head phones in her ears, that was the thing about Izzie, she had to go to sleep with music or she would be tossing and turning all night long.
Brooke looked back at the window, and was thinking about Nathan and Lucas. She loved them both with her whole heart. She could see herself with either of them forever.
She closed her eyes and began to dream, she began to dream of a life with Lucas, the one that she dreamt about back when they were together.
"Hey, Pretty girl" Lucas said. He looked older, about ten years older but he aged well. His hair was shorter now, it wasn't blonde like he had for some of his senior year. He had lines on his face that showed his age but he still looked great. He was coming home to see the love of his life.
"Lucas" Brooke said coming into the door. She had a huge smile on her face, she wrapped her arms around him and held him close, "I've missed you" she whispered in his ear. She missed her husband more than anything. She loved him so much, but she didn't get to see him a lot. With her going around with her fashion and he was out promoting his second book they didn't have time to start the family they both wanted so much.
"I've missed you too," Lucas said holding her close. "but we both are just so busy…I'm surprised we ever had time to get married" he said with a small laugh then he kissed his wife. He thought it was all a joke truthfully, the fact they were never together. Brooke hated it though, it made her cry every night they were apart. She gave Lucas her heart, she had told him she was willing to give up being a fashion designer for him. But Lucas would let her, he told her to go live her dream and he will live his and they will still be together. She didn't understand how they could be together but apart at the same time. "How was Europe?" Lucas asked moving a piece of her hair out of her face, "You must be so tired. Let's get you to bed" he said softly taking her bag from her.
Brooke had been in Paris talking over with other designers about bringing her fashion line over to Europe. She looked at Lucas, she didn't want to go to bed. She wanted to stay up with Lucas and be loved by him. They didn't need to have sex she just wanted him to show her he loved her. She felt a pain in her heart at the thought of going to sleep. They didn't have forever together like they thought they would. They only had a short time. All in all they only had three full months a year together. She couldn't handle that. She wanted to break down and cry.
"Don't you want to just spend time together?" Brooke asked in a small voice. She looked at her husband, he was still as handsome as ever. He was the same guy she fell in love with. He was the first guy she ever loved, he wasn't the only guy but she wanted him to be the last. She wanted to be with him forever, but he was distant.
Lucas looked down at Brooke, and he still had a smile on his face. "Of course, but lets lay in bed. You cant tell me you aren't the least bit tired." He still had a smile on his face when he scoped her up into his arms. He brought her into the bed room and laid his wife on the bed. He laid down next to her and gently kissed her forehead.
"So how is everything," Brooke asked, looked at her husband. She was feeling tired, the time change always killed her but she wanted to know what had been going on with everyone. She never talked to their old friends, except Rachel and Mouth because Rachel was a model for her clothing line.
"I got a call from Haley, she is doing a concert close by soon," Lucas said looking at Brooke, he knew that they weren't friends anymore after what Haley did to Nathan but Lucas was still close with her. "She wants us both to go to the concert" he said nervously.
"Well you can have fun," Brooke said looking annoyed.
"Brooke…" Lucas said in a pleading voice.
"Lucas, do you hear your self?" Brooke sat up looking annoyed. "This is Haley! Haley who broke your brothers heart in half!" she was starting to yell.
"Haley has been my best friend forever Brooke! Nathan and I just started getting to know each other in high school!" Lucas said looking at her also sitting up. He hated this fight with Brooke, though they had it all the time.
"So? You have known me as long as Nathan would you choose Haley over me!?" She yelled angry. She always wondered if it came down to it, who would he choose, her or Haley. Brooke was always scared of the answer.
"I would choose, you my wife. But I know that Haley…or you would never make me choose," Lucas looked into her eyes. He loved her, but he didn't want to have to give up the world to be with her. He wanted to still have his dreams, just like he wanted Brooke to have hers.
"She hurt Nathan Lucas! I don't understand why you don't care about your brother anymore!" Brooke yelled, she wasn't backing down. Brooke had invited Nathan over so many times for dinner but he always said he couldn't. Brooke figured that it was because of Lucas. When ever there was a holiday like Christmas or Easter, they all went to Tree Hill. Deb and Karen would make a huge feast for everyone. Lucas and Nathan would barely look at each other the whole time. Karen would invite Haley, hoping that she could fix the ex couple. It never worked, Haley was happy with someone new, she brought him the last Thanksgiving. Nathan didn't look too upset. At some points it looked like he was trying to make himself upset. Peyton asked him about it and he laughed and said "I'm just happy that it's not Chris Keller."
Brooke didn't understand how Nathan could be so happy for Haley, she broke his heart. But she was glad he was happy. He didn't date though, which worried Brooke. He hadn't had a date since Haley. Brooke guessed he had it one night stands but that was it.
"So tell me, Lucas! Tell me why you ignore your brother!" she pleaded, she wanted to understand this.
"Because he tried to steal you from me!" Lucas yelled. He hated that he yelled at Brooke but he needed her to get it. "I have seen the way he still looks at you, Brooke! He wants you still! He isn't over you! And I don't want him to have you! Call me selfish! Say I'm covenanting my own wife! But it's all because I love you!"
Brooke looked at him and then closed her eyes, "But you don't trust me. Good night Lucas" she rested her head on the pillow.
Then the dream changed.
"Mommy! Mommy!" Brooke woke up to the sound of a child in the room. She sat up and saw a little girl her hair in a messy bad pony tail. "Daddy tried to do my hair and its horrible!" she whined. She was no more than 5 and extremely cute. She had big brown eye and a little button nose. She climbed up onto the bed. "I know I was suppose to let you sleep but I cant go to school like this."
Brooke looked at her daughter, she was the cutest thing she had ever seen, "No I don't think you can, Kendra." She took the hair tie out of her daughter's hair and got a brush. She began to brush her daughter's hair.
Then she saw someone stick their head in the door, Nathan Scott. "Now I just did your hair young lady, why is your mommy doing your hair," Nathan walked over to Kendra, raising an eye brow.
"Because…." She said innocently. She looked up at him with her big brown eyes and he smiled.
"You are so lucky you are cute," Nathan said laughing.
"I know I am, Daddy" she smiled. "But you can't do a pony tail very well," she informed him.
"Oh I can't?" Nathan raised an eye brow. "Well didn't I tell you not to wake up your mommy?" he said looking at Brooke smiling. "She has a big fashion show we are all going to tomorrow. Me, you and Teddy," he smiled. "By the way…where is Teddy?"
"I don't know" Riley said in an innocent voice that said she did know.
"Kendra Peyton Scott" Brooke said looking down at her daughter, "where is Teddy?"
"Teddy, is out side playing basketball," Kendra said pointing at the window. Nathan went over to the window to find his 7 year old son play basketball. Nathan sighed.
"He isn't even dressed yet," he said shaking his head laughing.
"Oh no, are you serious?" Brooke sighed, "that boy plays too much basketball. We need to get him a nice book…or even a video game! Anything to get him away from that sport!" she sighed.
"Are you crazy, he is amazing. He will be great for the team someday!" he said proudly.
"What makes you so sure he will want to play for your high school?" Brooke asked looking at him.
"Because his dad is the basketball coach there," Nathan smiled. He went over to Brooke and kissed her tenderly on the lips, "Did I mention how beautiful you look this morning?" he smiled.
"No I don't think you did," Brooke smiled and kissed him back, forgetting her daughter was on her lap.
"EWWWW GROSS!" Kendra said wrinkling her nose. She pushed her dad away, and turned to her mom, "Finish my hair, PLEASE."
"She is a little you," Nathan laughed and went down stairs to get Teddy. Brooke smiled and watched him leave.
She finished up Kendra's hair as Nathan came back in holding Teddy, in his pajamas, over his shoulder. Brooke and Kendra start to laugh and Nathan turns around so Teddy is facing them. "It's not funny mom! I was practicing!" Teddy whined.
"Sweety, you need to get dressed before you can go play," she reminded him. She put Kendra down and went over and took Teddy from Nathan. "you are getting big" she said smiling.
"Thank you," Teddy smiled, hugging his mom. He looked a lot like Nathan, he had dark hair and a huge smile.
Brooke smiled and put him down. Nathan came over and put his arm around Brook and kissed her cheek. She put her arms around him hugging him. Kendra came over and hugged her dad's leg and Teddy hugged his mom's leg.
"I love you," Nathan whispered in her ear.
"I love you too" Brooke smiled.
They both said good bye to their kids as they left on the school bus, they both went back inside for breakfast.
"I have to eat fast, one of the freshmen want to talk to me," Nathan said sipping some coffee.
"Nathan, do you ever wish that you had gone to the NBA? If I hadn't gotten pregnant then you would be playing right now," Brooke said looking at him. He had been asked to play but because Brooke was pregnant he didn't do it.
Nathan looked at her, "Would I rather be an NBA player than at a school coaching kids? Well…yes. But would I of left you? Never," Nathan said. "You get to have your dreams and I get you. It's fair," Nathan said smiling. He gave Brooke the world. He wanted to give her everything she ever asked for.
Brooke felt so guilty about making him give up his dreams. Nathan wanted to be in the NBA. She would of let him have his dreams if they hadn't had a baby. She loved Teddy with her whole heart but she couldn't help but think how much better Nathan's life would have been without her in it. She was able to have her own fashion line still but he was stuck coaching a high school basketball team that doesn't even care about basketball. She would catch him talking to Jake Jagelski on the phone about how he wished that he was making a difference, but these kids don't care at all about basketball. He wished he was playing in the NBA. He wished that he would of at least gotten a good coaching job at a college or at least a high school that cares about sports.
Brooke woke up quickly to the sound of the door closing. She looked around and everyone else in the room was gone, Rachel, Peyton and Izzie. She sighed and stretched her arms as she yawn. Her dreams were so strange and so real. She was in love with Lucas and Nathan. Her life with Nathan was amazing but he wasn't happy. Her life with Lucas was her dream but she wasn't happy.
She laid her head back on the bed, the best dream though was the one where she was with Nathan. He acted like he was happy and on some level he was she was sure of that but he wasn't truly happy. She knew that. She couldn't ruin his life but she couldn't be with Lucas. She wasn't happy. She loved him, but it wasn't right. They both went after their dreams. But part of her dream was to have a family, like Teddy and Kendra. They were everything she wanted.
She knew she had too choose, and make a big decision. Would she be in love with Lucas forever but still feel alone. Or would she love Nathan the father of her children but have him not live his dream?
She laid their and prayed for sign, something that would help her choose.
Just then there was a knock on the door, it wasn't one of the girls, it was either Lucas or Nathan.
A/N who is at the door? Nathan? Or Lucas? Who will she choose? Will she be happy with her choice? What will happen at prom….
Remember there is no Derek, no we wont focuse on Dan going to jail, and Nathan never shaves off points!
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