A/N nope, don't own the turtles...
ok, now, this chapter definitly isn't up to scratch, chances are, I'll re-write it later on. The problem is, my mind is currently on my stupid friend who's now not speaking to me... bleh! so I tried to get my mind off of it by writing up the next chapter, unfortuntely, my attention was divided.
Also, I've slept about 2 hours in- nearly 2 days... so, I'm either gonna go crazy, like snap or something... or fall asleep at the laptop...
warning; there will be a few typos, probably more than usual, same goes for spelling. because, well, it's really cold in the living room and my hands are jumping all over the place... lol.
So, the reason I've said what happened to Leo now is because, duh duh duh- i don't know what's gonna happen to leo and the others next in present time.
hopefully, some sleep will rejuvinate me! (can't spell... ahhh!)
So, good luck- and I hope you're still enjoying it...
Chapter 6 - Breaking Leo
"No! Don- it's me... Please- Donny!" Leo screamed. "Donny-!"
His cries of protest and disbeleif were cut off when Donnatello, using both his fist and the tip of his bo staff, punched Leo in the plastron- knocing all the breath from him. "Don-" Leo gasped. "Donny... please- its-"
"I know it's you Fearless!" Donnatello snarled, kicking Leo- heel of his foot catching Leo's cheek.
Leo's knees gave- hours, and hours- of physical torture... and he wanted to die. But- the physical pain was nothing... not compared to what... what his brothers were saying.
"Why are you doing this?!" Leo gasped, head spinning, fighting the desire to either vomit or pass out. Last time he passed out... his awakening... had not been pleasant.
"Why?" Donnatello laughed wildly. Voice full of venom and anger. "Because I hate you."
Leo's face twisted. "No... you don't, Donny... please... don't say that... you... you don't hate me."
"Really? And what would you know of it, Fearless?" Donnatello spat, every word hitting Leo like a physical blow. "You're too wrapped up in training and meditating to know! You failed us Leo! You ignored me- you didn't save me!"
"Donny please!" Leo begged painfully. God, he wanted to cry.
"You're so pathetic, you make me sick." Donnatello snarled, jerking the tails of Leo's bandana back roughly- Leo felt something in his neck give in pain- and he knew, if Donnatello had pulled any sharper or any harder- that would have been it. His neck would have snapped.
"I hate you. I always have. You think you're so perfect, so amazing- so brilliant! Look at you now- you're pathetic! Weak- useless." Donnatello continued angrily.
Leo closed his eyes helpessly, letting the physical pain over whelm him- at least then... he couldn't hear his younger brothers words.
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Leo ran- he ran and ran and ran- and his legs were going to give and his lungs where about to explode and his head was spinning and he couldn't focus- but he couldn't stop- he had to keep running had to-
"LEO!"
Mikey. Leo stopped suddenly, and his legs caved under him. He fell into a weak, tired and cold heap on the ground, landing badly on his cracked- not broken, he wouldn't have been able to run if they were broken - ribs. Leo swallowed hard.
It's a trap. It's gotta be a trap. Leo repeated over and over- too weak, too scared to move anymore.
But... I... I killed... I killed Donny... what... I can't.. I can't let M-
"LEO! HE-" Michaelangelo's scream was cut off an instant later.
Leo buried his head in his hands. Oh god. I killed Donny. I killed Donny- what the shell is wrong with me? What... what kind of monster am I?!
"LEO-" Michaelangelo screamed again, this time, desperate, thick with tears.
"Oh, god." Leo forced himself to his feet, almost too exhausted to breathe, let alone move.
One foot infront of the other. Just like that. Come on. One foot in front of the other. You can do it- you have to!
Leo stumbled blindly into the clearing, he fell again, sight blurred with tears. He looked up, spotting Michaelangelo huddled in the centre.
"M-mikey?" Leo whispered, voice breaking.
"Leo?!" Michaelangelo cried, and tried to move to him, but cried out in pain. "Leo- Help me!"
Leo could barely walk- he made it over to his youngest brother at a half crawl- half lurching walk. He fell beside his brother.
"Mikey... what... what happened to you?" Leo whispered, almost too tired to speak now. He noticed dully that there was no one in the clearing but himself and Michaelangelo. The next thing he noticed, with a horrible, sinking feeling- was that slowly, bit by bit, his vision was going darker, he was finding it harder and harder to hold onto reality.
Am... am I... dying?
"Leo?!" Michaelangelo cried fearfully. "No! Don't leave me Leo! Please- I need you!" Michaelangelo begged.
"M..." Leo began, voice slurred, barely audiable.
He heard, rather than saw- footsteps approaching on the grass. coming closer.
Michaelangelo screamed in fear, and Leo tried to force his numb, useless limbs into action- but his body refused to obey him.
Donny was right... I am... a failure...
"Mikey... I-I'm... sss..." Leo trailed off. "...sor..." He tried again- failed.
Oh god... it's all my fault.
I killed Donny... and now... I'm gonna let 'em kill Mikey too...
Failure. A voice mocked from somewhere in the shadows.
"Mikey!" Leo cried out, reaching for his brother- even as- who?... someone- laughed and grabbed his bandana tails, pulling him up like a puppet on strings.
"Say goodbye to your brother." A voice laughed, different to the other one- but his words cut deep, painful scars into Leo all the same.
"LEO!" Michaelangelo screamed. "You failed me- how could you...? how... how could you?"
Michaelangelo's dying body was dropped beside Leo.
Leo tried to move away- something, anything- he could feel Mikey's warm blood pouring...
Leo shuddered, a silent scream running through his body- but not a sound escaped him.
He was choking on his own pain.
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Leo jerked awake- he could feel Mikey...
"Oh god- Mikey!" Leo screamed.
Mikey's blood had dried all down his right side and arm. Leo forced his aching eyes open. He was back where he had first woken up... where- where... where he had... killed... Donnatello.
Silent tears began to fall down Leo's bloody and brusied face.
"Well, well, Fearless. Ain't you a pathetic sight?!" Raphael growled, striding over. Leo forced his eyes to focus on his hot-headed younger brother.
"...Raph?" Leo whispered, pain- it hurt to speak... his voice was raw, hoarse. As if he had been screaming a lot.
"You... you let him die, Leo! You failed him- how could you?! How could you fail Mikey?! How could you let him die?!" Raphael bellowed, dropping an orange bandanna mask on the ground, just at Leo's feet. "I hope you're happy, Leo. You've completely destroyed this family!"
"R...raph-" Leo began weakly, all the fight left his body, and he hung limpy by his arms, his eyes never left the orange bandanna. He closed his eyes against the tears.
"And to top thigns off- Donny?! How could you- how could you killDonny?! He was your brother! Would you kill me?!"
Leo shook his head, more in denial than in answer to Raphael's question. Suddenly, a purple bandanna joined the orange one at his feet.
"You're... I can't even bare to look at you anymore Leo- you... you disgust me." Raphael snarled.
A dry, angry, helpless sob escaped Leo as he stared at the bandanna's at his feet.
It's... it's all my fault... I... failed them...
"Well, thanks a lot, Leo. You've finally done it now. You've totally destroyed this family! Are you happy now?! Or do I have to die too?!"
"No... Raph- please--!" Leo choked out between sobs.
Oh god-- come back... please- come back! I'm sorry- what do I have to do- I'll do anything- just please... please come back! Don't- don't leave me alone...
"You weren't strong enough. You failed them, you failed me. You failed Master Splinter. You defiled his memory. You don't deserve to die." Raphael said very slowly, very carefully, voice full of barely controlled hatred and disgust and rage.
I can't... I can't hold on... please... just... kill me- hit me- knock me out- anything! Please-... someone...
Raphael growled in rage. "I hate you!" He screamed, slamming his fist into Leo's face, putting all his weight behind it. Leo's head snapped back, arms pulling on the ropes- fresh blood started to pour from the rope blisters around his wrists.
Blood welled up in Leo's mouth- but he only had a second to realise it, before the world went dark.
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Raphael reached for Leo- who cried out and tried to twist away- pulling even tighter on the ropes, a groan of pain escaped him at the movement, and after a second, he hung still.
"Easy bro. I've got you." Raphael said quietly, then, Leo began to cry, soft, silent, tears of pain.
Just... let it end... please...
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OK, so, the last paragraph is from the first paragraph of the story- woot, aren't I clever?
anyway, I know it's not nearly bad enough to destroy Leo the way it obviously did... but, yep! There SHOULD be more to come... if I can think of anything. I'm not really... I don't know, I just can't think of stuff like that. I mean, this isn't my best effort, but how many times can you say basicaly the same thing? ah, well. movin on!
I do hope you'll forgive me for this chapter... it's pretty horrendous... I know... (hanging my head in shame- or at least, I would be- but my neck musces have locked up) bleh...
he hehee... so, I'm gonna go and sleep, then I'm gonna murder my friend and hide their body somewhere... sadly, we don't have a basement... and our freezer is tiny... I know! Behind the couch! ok.so, after I've had some sleep, killed my friend, hidden the body behind the couch, removed all the evidence- I shall be back!
hopefully, wide eyed and bushy tailed. well, I'm kinda botha those right now. Boy, am I wired. see, it's so hard to write angst when you're bouncing off the walls with energy. hopefully the next chapater... (chapater?) ahem... what I meant was; chapter. Yes. Hopefully, the next CHAPTER will be up sometime this afternoon! I hope you enjoyed it!
oh- and please- Review! they make my day!