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A week later
Lindsay and Danny were back home. They had harassed the doctors so much, that these had let them go home at the condition they wouldn't do too much and that they took care of each other. Sheldon was coming often to see how their wounds were healing and how they were doing, especially Lindsay. Stella hadn't been able to look through her file yet.
Lindsay was able to walk, but she needed crutches whereas Danny still couldn't. He was in a wheelchair, which made him angry. He really hated to feel this dependent and unable to help Lindsay. He hadn't yet followed Flack's advice, he didn't know if he could do that to her.
Lindsay couldn't stand to stay at home. She needed to do something, she needed to feel useful, but most of all she needed to do things or she would have one of these horrible daydreams. She decided to go to the drugstore to buy some painkillers, which wasn't very easy with her crutches.
While she was outside, Danny was at home in bed. He had just woken up and he tried to reach for his meds on the table next to his bed, but he couldn't reach. He tried very hard, because he didn't want to call Lindsay, but when the pain won he called out to her.
"Lindsay" he called, pushing himself on his elbow wincing at the pain that shot through his stomach. He leant himself back on the pillows, hoping she didn't hear that he was in pain.
"Montana" he said his voice quivering with the pain, but he got no answer. He called her again and as he still got no answer Danny became more and more worried. He tried to calm himself as he waited, teeth clenched due to the pain in his stomach.
Fifteen minutes later Lindsay returned back and went to the bedroom, finding her boyfriend sweating on the bed. She didn't have chance to say anything because Danny was already snapping at her.
"Where have you been?" he asked in a tone he regretted immediately.
"Outside, to the drugstore" she said. Her soft voice contrasting with his, he could hear fear in her voice. Then she sat down on the bed, next to him.
"You weren't supposed to go outside" he yelled at her. Then he tried again to catch his painkillers. He raised his hand and Lindsay winced protecting herself with her hands, pleading he wouldn't hurt her.
"Please let me go, don't touch me," she begged.
"What's wrong Lindsay? I'm sorry, I yelled at you," he said reaching out for her, trying to caress her cheek.
"Let me go, Danny" she begged and cried. He let go of her and watched her retreating to the farthest corner of the bedroom. She slipped to the floor, her head down against the wall she had her arms crossed over her chest like she was protecting herself from someone or from the cold, sobbing uncontrollably.
"Lindsay" he called her. His stomach was hurting like hell; he let himself drop back into the pillows. Then he took a deep breath and tried to ignore the pain the best he could. She was just a couple of feet away from him and he would soon be able to hold her and to apologise to her.
He closed his eyes as he tried to get up. The pain was pretty bad and he thought he would lose consciousness any second, but he was way too worried about her to think about his own health. He was worried and slowly he began to understand.
The look on her face as he had tried to reach his med's and raised his hand as if he'd wanted to hit her. He'd never seen this look on her face before. Danny was startled by what he just had discovered. He could and would never hit a woman and Lindsay's reaction was one of a beaten woman.
The realisation made him even angrier and overrode the pain. He held his stomach as he tried to reach the corner of the room where she was still sobbing. The pain almost killed him, but he wanted to get to Lindsay. He had to find out what was going on, he had to prove that he would never hurt her.
"Lindsay," he whispered, pain evident in his voice.
"Lindsay," he asked again.
"Leave me alone" she said hiding her head in her hands
Danny shook his head. "No Linds, I won't leave you alone. I'm not going to hurt you" he said and knelt down, closing his eyes as the pain hit him once more. "I care about you…no…I love you… and I'm way too stubborn to let you go through this alone. I'm here for ya. You hear me?"
He took her hands and tried to let her face him. First she fought it, but then she saw him in his eyes. She calmed down.
"What's haunting you, Lindsay?" He still got no answer. He helped her up, knowing he was going to pull on his stitches but he didn't care and he accompanied her back to the bed. When she was lying on the bed he lay down beside her and tried to confront her. It hurt, but there was no other way. He looked at her, right in her watery eyes.
"Lindsay, did one of your boyfriends hurt you?!" he asked, worried about what the answer could be. He dreaded this answer he knew was coming. Lindsay looked at him and then looked down in shame. It was like he had flipped the switch. She burst into tears again and fell into his arms. He held her tightly and stroked her back. She nodded against him and whispered, "Yes"
He closed his eyes. So it was true. What he had feared the most was true. He sighed.
"Shh, it's okay"
"Lindsay, I know it's hard, but you have to confide in me. You will feel better and I will help you, I will help you to get through this. I will help you," he repeated over and over again, trying to make it clear that he would never let her down. His voice was so soft and quivering, and he was trying to keep his emotions inside. He was so angry a man had touched her in this way, had hurt her.
"I don't know if I can … Danny, that's too hard, I'm afraid … you …" but before she could finish her sentence Danny kissed her lightly and tenderly on her lips.
"Look at me Linds, I will never … you hear me…" he placed a finger under her chin. "…never let you down. I love you so much Lindsay. I promise that I will protect you, no-one will ever touch you like that again. I promise I would rather kill myself before I have even the slightest idea to raise my hand against you"
"I know but I can't help the fear of it happening again, I know you're not like that, I love you Danny, I'm gonna try to tell you but please don't interrupt me."
"Yeah, baby, I promise" he said kissing her forehead, "I love you, linds"
Lindsay took a deep breath, and trying to pull her thoughts together, thinking where she should begin. Then she began to speak, stopping sometimes to catch her breath, control her emotions, or to be reassured by Danny who was holding her tightly.
She plunged herself in the memory of that night when she decided she would leave him, that no-one could treat her like that anymore.
Lindsayarrived home after a long day at work and after she had hung out with her friends and Jayden, her partner. Stayed out with them in an effort to forgot the scene, the murderer, she entered her small Montanan apartment and as soon as she entered it, her boyfriend pushed her against the door.
"James what are you doing. I'm tired and I'm really not in the mood for that." She said trying to push him away but he just continued to pin her against the door and then he hit her in the face knocking her out.
When she awoke she was on her bed and James entered the room
"Oh sweety, you awake, great because I'd prefer to have you awake and screaming for the next part." he looked down at her then began to punch her in the face. "Now I'm going to punish you for being home late and for pushing me away."
He tore her clothes and began to hit her with his belt, she felt dizzy, she couldn't look at him. It hurt like hell. She wanted to hit him to make it stop, to scream at him but couldn't. She tried to get away but he leant all his weight against her.
James continued to beat her alternating between his fist and his belt. Lindsay continued to fight against him but again the unconsciousness that was spreading through her mind
"Stay still, honey. It will hurt more if you move, you deserve this." He said, hitting her again in the stomach. He pressed his body against hers and she knew he wasn't just going to hit her. Lindsay began to really panic now.
Danny stayed silent. While she told him still shaking and sobbing between some single words he couldn't believe what she'd been through.
Finally she looked into his eyes, her eyes were red, her hair was a mess, but he didn't care she was so beautiful to his eyes and he couldn't understand how a man could hurt her.
He couldn't help it when his CSI mind to go in overdrive as she spoke talking. He had visualised what she'd been through and he had been relieved by the breaks she'd taken because he had needed them too.
Danny looked at her and kissed her on forehead, trying to calm her. Soon her sobs eased, comforted by his hug. Danny knew he needed to ask her something but he didn't know how, he didn't want to use those words.
"Baby, I'm sorry, I wish I could have been there to protect you but now I'm here. Linds…" he closed his eyes and sighed "…did he ever…. I mean did he ever forced you to do something … did he ever forced himself on you?"
Lindsay looked down ashamed of what James had done to her, and her silence spoke louder than words. Danny was taken aback but didn't say anything, he knew that he shouldn't get angry because it would frighten Lindsay and right now she needed him, she needed his presence, his comfort and his help. Lindsay's sobs returned and Danny new she was reliving the events of that night and while he rocked her, he couldn't help the single tear from escaping.
After a pause, he tried to bring himself together; he needed to be strong for Lindsay, to be her rock. With what she had suffered in her past and what she had just endured these past few days, she needed his help, she needed everyone's help right now.
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