Chapter 2: Feeling it, Missing her, Hating this.

(AN: This is my first actually posted Fan Fiction if you review please be nice and comments to help me make the story better would also be appreciated.)

Sousuke had returned to his cabin. For this reassignment meeting he had boarded the 'Tuatha de Danaan'. He opened the door to the cabin. It was just the way he left it, blank.
The walls were pale grey as was the door. The cot was made neatly because Sousuke never slept in it. Underneath the cot there was a pillow and a blanket, this is where he slept. He placed his briefcase down and sat down in the chair that was by his desk. He
had a feeling of emptiness. Maybe if she hadn't kissed him he would have felt different at this point. He doubted it; he knew he had become a best friend to Chidori over the year he had been there with her. He leaned back in his chair thinking. He noticed a note on the steel desk. He blinked picking it up and unfolding it slowly. He began to read.

"Welcome home Mr. Sagara,
We have missed you here. Especially me, Even though you are being sent back.
It's good to have you back for the short time you will be. I didn't think you would
"fit in" But you did a wonderful job at keeping Miss. Chidori safe. You are a good man
Sousuke Sagara.

Sincerely,
Captain Teletha Testarossa"

Sousuke blinked as he folded it up and placed it back on the desk, it was good to receive a compliment from the Captain. He knew he had done everything for his mission correctly. He knew from the countless times he had been smacked by the fan that something had been wrong with his perspective of the world, and he knew this time he had to change it. He had to see the world the way everyone else did. Even though he felt a bit happy about the compliment from the Captain he couldn't get his mind off Chidori.
He realized now, he missed her…now he was alone and the only person he could talk to was Mao, his relationship with her had grown weaker while he was in Japan. He was lost in thought when his Cabin door burst open. He jumped almost falling out of the chair and blinked. It was Mao she smiled as she walked over to him and sat down on the desk looking at him.

"So? Give me the juicy details about your time with Kaname…" She said looking at him. Sousuke blinked and sighed as he looked at her.

"I did my job, which was to protect her and its done now. I realized my stupidity and I'm working on fixing it. If you must know…." He got up and opened up his briefcase pulling out a journal with a black cover on it that Mao had given him, he handed it to her.
"You can read…" She smiles and takes it opening it half way and closing it; she jumped up off the desk and pocketed it.
"You should get some sleep Sousuke you look tired…" She nodded to him and left his cabin. Sousuke sighed as he watched her. Sleep wasn't what he needed. He needed to get rid of the empty feeling that was consuming his body and mind. He missed Chidori he admitted it he didn't think it would be this overwhelming to leave. But now he realized he would be in view of her and not allowed to talk to her. He hated MITHRIL now; he despised Mardukas and wished they could have just left him there. With those thoughts he crawled under his cot pulling the blanket over and closing his eyes. He drifted off into a light sleep.