Chapter 2: carnival
I woke up in the middle of the after noon and found that Charlie was gone to work and Edward was not around. I didn't have much variety last night in my dreams; I kept having the same dream repeatedly. The dream was weird, something I would never do. I left everyone. I moved to Florida to live with Renee without saying good-bye to the Cullens. I left Edward alone and acted like I didn't want to see him ever again. I wanted to wake up from my dream, but I couldn't as if it was actually happening in real life. I couldn't believe it I would never do that, I love Edward.
I kept wondering what my dream meant while making myself breakfast waiting for Edward to call or show up, to talk to him about it.
When I about was half way done cleaning up, I heard the doorbell. Knowing it would be Edward, I was happy I could finally talk to him about my dream. When I answered the door, Edward didn't look so good.
"Hey," he said with an edge to his voice.
I looked up to his face and said, "Hey," back, but I wasn't pleased with what I said. I wanted to say what is wrong, but I didn't have the courage to know what happened and ask.
I thought to myself, while walking to the couch in the living room, what if the whole discussion yesterday with Edward and Alice was about my dream, about me leaving? Maybe my dream was going to happen and that is why Edward looks so messed up.
We sat on the couch in silence for a long time before Edward asked, "What do you want to do today?"
"I don't know," I responded.
"Oh, well…" Edward stopped lost in a thought.
I couldn't hold it in I had to ask what was wrong, "What happened you look like you just wrestled a bear?" even though a bear would not be a competition for Edward and he would bring it down in a fraction of a second.
Edward just sat there starring off in the distance, ignoring my question. He inhaled and exhaled slowly, "Nothing."
From his response it seemed like he was keeping something from me and it really scared me. From Edward's response and the silence made me feel uncomfortable. It felt like my dream was going to happen more and more every minute in the silence. How could I leave? I can't do that. I shook my head trying, failingly, to get the thought out of my head.
I couldn't hold it any longer. The dream started to burn me and I felt like if I held it in any longer I would die, and Edwards silence didn't help.
I got the courage to let it all out. My lip started to quiver, "I had a dream last night." Edwards head lifted from his hands looking like he was interested.
"What was it about?"
The weight seemed to be lifting from breaking the silence. I looked right into Edward's eyes and I inhaled, "it is weird…" I paused, "I well, I was starting to get mad at you and I did something… I -"
Edward cut me off and said, "Oh," and then he paused with hesitation, "so are you going to do it or are you going to stick around with the things the way they are now?"
I was speechless, my face along with my jaw dropped. So I really was going to leave. I wanted to change the subject.
Ignoring Edward's question I said with enthusiasm, "Lets do something fun today, lets go to the carnival!" I really did want to go to the carnival. I was proud of myself I dodge the question and changed the subject well. And it seemed to work. Edward was more enthusiastic and said while pulling his lips back to show off his teeth, which reflected the light of the ceiling lights, "That sounds good, lets go see if anyone else wants to go, too."
Edward and I left to go to his house to see if everyone wanted to go. On the way there I was silent, and so was Edward. It must be hard for him, knowing that at any second I could leave him; I am surprised he is taking it so well, compared to what I would do. We finally reached the house and everyone thought it would be a good idea to go to the carnival.
The first ride we all decided to go on was the swinging swings but Rosalie, who I would guess was trying not to get her beautiful golden hair messed up. When on the swings waiting for the ride to start behind me I heard Jasper and Emmett talking. I was hoping they weren't talking about the decision I was soon to make about leaving.
I started to eavesdrop and I found out they weren't talking about me. It made me giggle; they were discussing something totally different.
"Hey, Jasper," Emmett said, "lets jump out of the swings at the highest point of the ride and see who can jump the farthest."
"That sounds good," Jasper said with a little sarcasm to his voice looking back to Alice to see if she overheard. Alice looked up and gave Jasper a look that would scare Jacob and his pack of wolves to run all the way to Switzerland.
Alice was mad and said in a low whisper, to make sure no one would hear, "If you do that and land perfectly safe it would give away our secret and the Voturi would come and kill everyone including you!"
"Relax Alice," Emmett said with a dirty smirk, "we were just kidding. Then turned to Jasper with a sarcastic look like he was really going to jump and then said, "We should buy one of these things and then jump off of it at home." Jasper nodded and smiled.
The ride didn't ended fast enough for Alice, who was not enjoying the whole ride, keeping a close eye on Jasper to make sure he doesn't do something stupid or dangerous. I am glad I thought of the carnival because it helped me forget the dream and the future.