Title: Touch Me There

Rating: PG-13

Genre: Anguish/Drama

Disclaimer: If you think I own Sailor Moon we need to have a serious talk and evaluate your intelligence.

Author's Notes:
Drumroll please! Here is the next installment of the famous TMT. This is a short chapter filled with nothing but… anguish… everyone finds out everything now all secrets are out…. Well sort of… read on and after this chapter we'll only have gasp… FOUR days left till the competition! (In the story anyway not in real life. Four days may actually take a month to get out… who knows)

Technical Note: Apologies for the last chapter updated on Friends with Secrets… total formatting nightmare. formatting has been a butt lately and does not let me use my normal scene breakers so I may have to use something less professional. Talk about a big bummer. Thanks for your patience.

Placid. She stared at the pacing man before her with no visible emotion. A hand patted at her arm as if in to comfort her but at this moment she felt like she couldn't be comforted… she couldn't even feel the pain anymore. She felt numb… like she really had no idea what was going on so no rational reaction would serve a prudent purpose… or something like that.

"Don't worry baby… we'll have this all worked out." Her mother whispered with reassurance in her ear. Her father's booming voice was still belting with relentless mercy into the phone receiver. She hadn't the heart to tell them that Ami had already overlooked the contract… that their was no way in hell she could get out of it… she also didn't have the heart to tell them to not worry… that she had been trained for the last few days by one of Juuban's most eligible and sexy college bachelor's…. A sigh left her lips and her mother squeezed her shoulders once more and stared into her daughter's dull blue eyes.

Panic had long left Ikuko Tsukino and worry now convulsed through her system. Her poor baby girl…. Her poor darling…

Three strong knocks rapt at their door and Shingo stood from the chair he had been occupying. All of them had sat near the telephone as Kenji Tsukino spent the last hour making his voice known at Tokyo Station. He has of yet not gotten through to Mr. Omoto or Mr. Kimo.

"Good Evening… Is Usagi-chan here?" The voice hit her ears and Usagi immediately stood. She had never in her life remembered being so excited to hear Rei's voice… maybe a few times she could remember but right now she needed Rei… needed…. Her eyes widened further when she saw another smiling face next to the Priestess as they entered her house and than another.

"Friends!" The solitary word left her lips before she stumbled forward and dove into the sea of open arms that enveloped her, violet, blue and green eyes looking at each other knowingly as they supported her light frame. Ikuko rose and watched her child dive into the three girl's arms and she knew her time to comfort her daughter had passed. With a disappointed sigh she nodded her head towards the stairs giving the girls their cue to escape from the havoc that was happening in the living room.

With very little effort the three girls made it with Usagi in tow to the blonde's pink bedroom.

"I see you're parents found out." Rei commented as Makoto gently helped seat Usagi on her bed and sit beside her. The priestess let out a breath as she approached the blonde before her. She looked beat up… dragged behind a train and thrown off of a cliff where then a ten-pound bolder smashed onto her. All she was missing were the cuts and bruises.

"Do you want to tell us what happened today?" Ami's soft voice broke into Rei's thoughts and she immediately trained her vision on the blonde. They all had settled around her, their voices soft as they felt the sour mood emit from their Princess.

"My parents found out." The response was flat, almost as if Usagi was not even alive. Something jumped into Ami's throat and she lurched forward unconsciously, her hand reaching out and gripping hold of Usagi's before her that were planted on her knees. It was like they had been in this situation before… her mind went nuts on that thought. Of course they had not been in this situation before… "He used me." The three words stopped Ami's heart and Rei's eyes widened as a look of horror fell across her face.

"Oh Usagi-chan… you do love him…" The words left her lips before she allowed them to talk to her brain. Rei's hands covered her mouth in vain as if it would have stopped the words. Usagi didn't move for a few moments. Makoto sat still and gulped. The goddess of lightning was the first one to feel it under her fingertips. It began near Usagi's back and traveled to her shoulders as a silent sob tore through her. Suddenly the Princess's back straightened and she lifted her head high. She sucked in a painful breath and the two warriors situated before her on the floor looked up at her with worry.

"I'm ok… I've been through worse." Usagi's voice was stronger than she looked and Rei's face softened and a small smile tugged on her lips.

"Yes you have. You're so brave Usagi-chan…" Usagi's form slightly deflated as Rei's words hit her ears. Slowly Ami cast eyes to the priestess. Usagi's shoulders slumped as a look of perplexity crossed her delicate features. Her eyes focused downward to the smile of the raven goddess who looked up at her.

"We've all lost our minds haven't we?" Usagi asked and Makoto wrapped her arm around Usagi's shoulders, a breath leaving her lungs.

"Yep and it's only about to get worse." Makoto said and Usagi's eyebrows rose and glanced towards her.

"Worse? How could this day get any worse?" Usagi's voice asked in disbelief and Ami's shoulders shrugged slightly as guilt spread across her features.

"We've actually… been lying to you Usagi-chan…" The calm soft voice made Usagi's head still. Slowly her eyes widened as her neck turned to face the blue brain of their operation. Her mouth hung ajar as Rei sucked in a guilty breath. The small inkling of betrayal began to enter her system and she tried to violently reject it. These were her friends, her companions… they would never hurt or abandon her… had they really lied to her? If so… about what?

"We've found out more about your past… we're sorry we kept it from you but we had to know first." Rei began and Usagi's eyebrow rose questioningly. What the hell did this have to do with anything?

"My past? What past?" Usagi said, her pitch going higher as her nerves began to shoot down her system. She needed ice cream… and not just any ice cream… triple chocolate fudge with sprinkles, the bunny shaped kind.

His eyes stared into the glowing blue screen as the words tried to jump out at him. One sentence. He had been staring at that one sentence for over twenty minutes. Logically all writers would tell you that once you are past that first sentence the rest of the paper would flow yet the problem was getting past that first sentence. With an exasperated breath he leaned back, his head hurting. He missed her. He missed her voice… her warmth… Quickly he pushed thoughts of her out of her head. He had to get a grip… He rubbed his nose under the bridge of his black-rimmed glasses and he whistled out a defeated breath. It had been a horrible day. A chill whipped by him and his eyebrows furrowed curiously as his head turned to the right towards his balcony doors. He instantly sat up and moved to stand when the figure standing before him held up a hand calmly.

Mamoru's lower jaw dropped as his computer laptop on his coffee table was suddenly ignored. He lived on the eighteenth floor of a luxury apartment complex and a woman was standing in his living room that had entered through his six foot by four foot balcony that was a straight shot down over two hundred feet. Blonde strings of perfect hair floated around her shoulders as if a waterfall of elegance as a white and orange mask covered the upper half of her facial structure. A hand rested on her hip as her lips pressed together in no readable expression except tolerance. She was a stranger in his home and looked at him like she was tolerating him. Holy mother of fudpuckers… she looked like them. He tried to rack his brain for memories but he had never forgotten them… the five warriors of the solar system that had faught to protect this planet… it seemed like years ago. What the hell was she doing in his apartment?

"Venus…" His frame stood slowly with apprehension before her as recognition flooded his brain. Her vibrant azure eyes glanced down at the hardwood floor and than fluttered back to him. They were outlined in black making them a defining feature through her mask as her lips shimmered a somewhat orange glittery color. Orange was her color after all… his brain began to turn circles as the circumference of Venus and the many gasses it was made up of began jumping into his thoughts. His random incoherent thoughts.

"Well your memory isn't as bad as mine… I would have never thought you were Tuxedo Kamen Chiba." Her voice almost startled him and his jaw dropped open. Immediately his defenses woke up and he glanced around his apartment for the nearest weapon cautiously to not draw her attention. Suddenly she took steps towards him and before he could move she had grabbed his shoulder and stood before him. Her presence was overwhelming and her eyes bore into his so powerfully he felt his feet plant to the floor against his own will. "I'm not going to kill you Highness yet you will listen to me." Her voice was strong and confident… where the hell had she been for the last year and a half!

"What are you talking about?" He asked and she shoved her hand forward and he stumbled backwards onto the couch and she stood before him, her orange skirt ruffling from the wind's entrance at the open balcony door.

"Prince Endymion." It was the first time he had ever heard the name out loud in reality other than in his dreams. His eyes widened and he began to question his sanity. No way… how did she know? Did that mean it was true? What the hell… couldn't he be normal, fall in love with that stupid meatball head and be a doctor? Oh shit… he didn't think that… His eyes closed tightly to try and clear his head, to get some kind of hold on the spinning world around him. Sailor Venus studied his features with concealed wonder. He looked confused, befuddled even as if he was battling his own thoughts. Maybe he was insane... "You didn't know that you were the ruler of this world?" The question was softer than her statement before and he slowly looked up at her.

"Ruler of this world…" He repeated and Venus's eyebrows rose. "I am." The two words came out more as a confirmation and Mamoru's eyes left the Senshi to stare unconsciously at inanimate objects. Something jolted in his heart. He was the Prince of this world… earth? A sense of loyalty shot through his system as images and places filled his mind… who he was… none of this was making sense but he knew it in his heart to be true… He was the Prince of Earth but not during this time… during another… that didn't make sense… he groaned and placed a hand to his pounding head. He was logical… yet his life lacked any form of logical boundaries or pattern… could he really be the re-incarnation of the monarch of Earth or was he just re-born as who he was only changed by the circumstances around him, the culture in which he now lived? If he was… it made sense why he was Tuxedo Kamen, why he had those powers… why he felt the earth in every step he took… but why? Why was he reborn? His cobalt eyes drifted up towards the azure that were studying him. She must have been staring at him for awhile as his mind rattled on. Of all the millions of questions he wanted to ask her only one popped out of his mouth. "Who is she? The one in my dreams… who is she? Why is she after me?"

For a moment she was caught off guard than she remembered her encounter with Motoki. Mamoru suffered from dreams of Serenity… yet that made no sense at all. She was suddenly starting to realize that he really made no sense…

"You're future wife… Serenity of the Silver Millennium… she is the Princess of the Moon." Her voice hit him like a ton of bricks and he felt dread pour into his system. Wife? His? His hand ran up past his forehead and aimlessly into his black locks as his body slumped. A look of panic spread across his features.

"Wife? Do I not get a choice?" He mumbled out and Venus bent down, her eyes coming level with his own as he sat on his sofa. She suddenly saw it… he was unaware of all of this… his life was slamming into a brick wall and she had provided the extra layer of bricks. He looked tormented… stricken… hopeless… shocked.

"You choose her…" Venus whispered and his eyes shakily turned to look at her. Anger wanted to rush through his system. "Centuries ago the two of you had an affair… it was so forbidden it brought destruction to our galaxy… but your love was so pure you couldn't deny it… you sacrificed your entire being for her… this is your second chance to be with the one you love as both of you now are earthlings… nothing can keep you apart." She felt as if her words were falling on deaf ears and he leaned forward towards her. Their was silence for about two minutes.

"Are you out of your mind?" The words slipped out of his mouth and her eyes widened. "I don't love her… she is a figment of my imagination who is haunting me and threatening harm to those I do love!" His voice rose on that last statement and she felt the power he possessed. It stunned her for a moment. How had she not felt this before?

"She is real. She is Sailor Moon and she is your destiny." Venus said strongly and her eyes widened when his body jerked forward. She had every intention of hurting him when he grabbed her arm roughly and forced her along the wood floor. She did honestly… yet the shock that he had overpowered her and was forcefully dragging her across his apartment to her port of entry froze every part of her.

"I choose my own destiny… want me to rule the planet… fine… I pick my own Queen or reserve the right to not have one at all!" His words were full of anger. Finally her feet planted on the floor and she stopped them suddenly, she swung at him and he ducked and shoved her towards the open balcony doors. She hit the railings and stared at him shocked. He had lost his bloody mind!

"Why are you doing this?" It was stupid. She realized after she said it that it was… but the Minako in her had overpowered the Venus and asked why a friend of hers had finally had the last straw.

"Don't you mean why is this happening to me? This is my life… I choose what

want and who I want to love… go back and tell Sailor Moon that she can go straight to hell cause I damn well won't be falling in her arms." His breath was deep and his eyes ablaze with anger. She looked up at him with a mixture of shock and surprise.. Who would have ever thought Mamoru had such passion in him such… In an instant the balcony door slammed and she let out a squeal of alarm and her frame toppled over the railings.

"Crap!" She gasped sharply and than leaned forward making her feet touch another balcony railing half way down the building until she jumped off and landed with a delicate thud upon her feet on the cement walkway. She felt pain radiate into her ankles and knees. "Ow.." She whined and forced herself to stand up. Her eyes glanced towards the looming building. "Cranky Royalty…" She snorted and began to walk quietly away, her walk slightly crooked.

He stared at the closed balcony door and his heart beat in his ears. He had just thrown someone off of his balcony… He gasped and threw open the door and ran to the railings. His eyes searched the cement below and let out a breath not seeing anything… no orange and certainly no red liquid.

Sailor Moon… Her image registered upon him and he slowly turned to walk back into his apartment… of all the cruel ironies of the world… he had actually had a crush on that little snot three years ago. Now if he ever saw her again he'd really give her a piece of his mind…

A hand pressed against his chest. Why was he so angry? Because a psyco princess had been haunting his dreams? No… he could have dealt with the possessiveness… some of the best all consuming passions start that way… it was when she had threatened Usagi… His head rose and a sickening feeling came over him. Tears tried to well in his eyes but failed. His lips parted and a horrified breath snaked out. A jealous lover would do anything… he could protect her. Damn this stupid destiny! He wanted her… wanted to really find out if there was more than just attraction and lust… he wanted his heart to beat normal again, wanted to see her face everyday… screw Sailor Moon.

A gasp of surprise left her lips as she stumbled backwards. Arms wrapped around her frame and worried orbs of green, blue and violet ran over her petite form. A deep sad sigh left the small black form that sat gently in front of her Princess.

"Usagi-chan?" Ami's soft voice was the first to speak as Usagi leaned helplessly in her arms. Suddenly Usagi sprang up and her hands rushed to the sides of her head. She started scraping against her flesh with her fingertips as if in an attempt to throw out all of the information that had just been shoved in there. Rei stared at her and tears filled her eyes when she discovered what her best friend was doing. Makoto gasped and Ami moved forward and tried to grab Usagi's arms.

"Usagi-chan stop!" Ami commanded and finally after wrestling her she pinned Usagi's arms to her sides with Usagi's back pressed up against her.

"I'm so sorry… we didn't mean to tell you like this." Luna whispered and Rei's hands went to cover her mouth in horror.

Usagi's eyes were wide and in shock as the images danced once more before her head. Princess of the Moon. Prince of Earth. Forbidden affair. Love. Completion. Death. Mortality. Mother. War. Mamoru. Tuxedo Kamen. Mamoru. Emotions bubbled within her with such ferocity she felt like she was on fire. She struggled aimlessly against Ami's restraints as sobs started to build in her chest. Finally they erupted in a painful scream.

"NO!"

Makoto jumped forward and covered her Princess's mouth in an attempt to muffle the horrifying sound that emitted from her. Ami hugged her tighter and Makoto felt streams of tears interact with the flesh of her hand. Usagi was self-destructing.

"Usagi-chan! Usagi-chan!" Rei cried rushing to her and she grabbed her Princess's head and made her eyes focus on hers. "It's ok… we're right here with you… we will never leave you…" Rei said sturdily, tears filling her eyes and Makoto slid her hand off of Usagi's mouth and Rei felt her heartbreak at the saddened tear stained expression of her goddess.

"He doesn't love me…" The words were uttered in a muffle and Ami gasped feeling Usagi's frame collapse forward bring her with her as they toppled into Rei's open arms. "I killed everyone… it's all my fault." She horsed out in an agonized cry and Rei squeezed her. Luna treaded forward.

"No Usagi-chan… darkness needs light… you two had to be together it was destiny… you get a second chance now… You caused nothing. The only crime you would have committed was if you hadn't followed your heart." Luna pleaded emotions tearing through her system and she gently placed her paw on Usagi's leg in an attempt at comfort. Usagi buried her head into Rei's shoulder and let out another agonized scream. Rei held her tightly letting the scream be muffled into her shirt and Ami's arms refused to let go of their Princess's arms. Makoto rose and wrapped her arms around all three of them and began to rock back and forth trying to give as much comfort as she could.

Usagi needed to accept this. It was part of her duty. Part of her destiny. Now she knew why she loved Mamoru. Why she had always been drawn to him… why she had hated him… now he would never love her for who she was. He would only love her for the Princess she use to be… never for Usagi. Usagi let out a painful wail. She loved him for him, not because he was Tuxedo Kamen or some stupid Prince she had fallen for centuries ago… she loved him, Mamoru Chiba… if only he would love her.. Usagi Tsukino. Her body heaved with sobs. She wanted this day to be over. Over right now.

Well now that that chapter is out of the way we can hopefully get moving along eh?

Even though I've just destroyed Usagi and pushed Mamoru to the point of murder... everything will be ok by tomororw!

Maybe... actually I don't know... haven't written it yet but wow won't it be great when Sailor Moon appears to Mamoru and he reacts to that! GASP! So big hint of what's too come... buku sorry!

Toodles!
I look forward to your thoughts.

Good Night and God bless,

Marronett