Touch me There Chapter 13: Finding the truth about Nightmares, a sailor moon fanfic

Title: Touch Me There

Rating: T

Genre: Romance, Angst, Humor

Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon but I do own most of my clothes and will soon own my car! Ok that's a lie… the hubby will own the car. And he owns me.

Author's Notes:

ducks any flying food So… how have you guys been? Ok so here is the next installment of the long awaited TMT… sucks that it has been so long because now you probably have to read the whole friggen thing over again… I did in order to write this chapter and that was annoying… Gomen.

Anyway hope this chapter does things justice… I'm writing more at the moment, looks like there are only about two chapters left… THANK GOODNESS!!!

Now I know you guys read it so… review ok? It's rude to just read and not say "Hey this sucked" Although…. That is kind of rude too… ah nevermind.

I didn't have time to spellcheck because I have to run to school. Sorry it shouldn't be too bad though.

Have fun and enjoy… I hope my writing hasn't gone sour over the years.

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"I can kill him." Haruka said as she caught up with the five girls that walked quickly up the steps to Rei's temple. Usagi shot her a look than continued on.

"We can't kill him… we have to beat him…" She sputtered and suddenly her frame slammed into a very firm and tall chest. She gasped and stepped back, an apology already on her lips when she heard Minako curse again.

"Stalker. Hello!" Makoto cried and Seiya rolled his eyes and helped Usagi to her feet. He grabbed her hand gently and pulled her along.

"I have to talk to you." He said urgently and Usagi yanked her hand from his grasp. His touch burned her to her soul.

"You have to get away… my boyfriend is going to think I'm in love with you!" Usagi cried and than growled. "I can't take any more emotional crap today!"

"I feel that but Usagi you have to know why I'm here." He said and Usagi let out a breath and wanted to put as much distance between him and her as possible. I love Mamo-chan. I love Mamo-chan. A smile skittered to her lips at that.

"We know… publicity… fame… got it." Makoto mumbled walking past him and Haruka and Michiru glared at the fellow idol before them. Sieya let out a breath and closed his eyes praying for a moment all of them would just shut up and listen.

"Odango… I'm in love with you." He said suddenly and Usagi felt a cold chill pass over her as her feet suddenly took a lurchful stop. "I couldn't live without you." He said and Rei's eyes widened as Ami put a hand to her forehead. Could this day get any worse? "I left it all Usa… I want to be with you… to fight with you for this planet." He said and Usagi stared at the ground with confusion. This could not be happening.

"You know… you try to protect someone and than everything emotional that could ever happen to them happens in the span of three days! She's going to be a damn vegetable!" Minako spat angrily and Haruka huffed out a breath. Usagi steeled herself and turned around and for the first time… faced her past as Usagi Tsukino. She had loved Seiya Kou. She had admired and adored him from afar and through some fluke had become his friend… he had given her her first kiss… had been her first love. Sailor Moon had tore them apart too. They were from different worlds… literally.

"Someone already does that. I'm sorry." She whispered and Seiya stilled yet his eyes ceased to bear into her own conveying all of his love and admiration for her.

"Was that him?" He asked almost quietly and Makoto held her breath. Usagi's head fell and she let out almost a defeated sigh.

"Yes… but it's very complicated… please you have to stay away from him, he can't find out about me." She cried and Seiya blinked and took a step towards her.

"Can't find out about you?" He inquired and Usagi looked up at him and tears were glistening in her cobalt orbs and he saw pain… heart-wrenching pain and immediately his fists clenched.

"He doesn't know. He doesn't know it's me…" She whispered pointing to herself and Seiya looked at his goddess than the six women around her and their faces all conveyed the same truth his odango was now confessing.

"Odango… you are who you are… how can he love only part of you?" He asked and Minako put a hand over her mouth and Ami turned away, her face white. "If you are with him and he doesn't know… is not your love than a lie?" He asked and studied her features for answers.

There it had finally been said.

Silence. Only the wind howling between them disturbed what had been left by Seiya's words. She may not want a war but he was not going to go down without a fight.

Usagi felt all of the air leave her lungs and a new torrent of tears slid down her cheeks silently. Sieya had the guts to tell her what they all had been thinking.

"I love him." She whispered and Seiya stepped up to her and gripped her shoulders gently, their eyes bearing into one another's.

"But my love… he does not love all of you." He whispered and Usagi tore away from him and a scream was torn from her lips that held anguish and heartbreaking frustration.

"You don't understand… you couldn't understand what its like to have to re-live a past you had so horridly ruined before." She screamed as her body racked with sobs.

"Beginning a lie with the same past will not change your future! You must tell him!" Seiya yelled and Usagi shook her head as another sob tore through her.

"She can't." Minako finally spat and Seiya turned evilly to the famed Senshi, warriors and protectors of the galaxy. "He hates Serenity."
"He's a very confused man." Michiru whispered and Seiya glared at them all as if they had lost their minds. Immediately he turned and rushed to Usagi and gripped her shoulders, her frame falling into his arms as his lips touched her ear.

"Usagi… I have loved you and will love every part of you till my dying days… You do not have to live a life once dictated for you… he obviously does not. When you tell him he will leave you… you must do your duty to protect your people, protect what you have stood your whole life for… I will love you always… please…" He whispered and Usagi's body could not cease its trembles. This was a dream. It had to be a dream.

"Stop it." Minako hissed as she began to walk towards him.

"He doesn't deserve you!" Seiya cried and Usagi let out a small cry and tried to tear out of his arms. "You can't go to war with him!" He yelled and Minako and Haruka reached out and yanked the alien from their Princess sending her stumbling forward. "A man who runs from his destiny is not a man at all but a coward who regrets his life's choices. Usagi I will not allow you to stay and be with him and be his regret!" Seiya yelled and Usagi's eyes widened at that thought as a fear slammed into her heart with such a sucker punch it knocked the wind out of her.

"Stop it!" Minako screamed and her fist landed across the perfectly chiseled form of Seiya Kou to send him reeling into Haruka's arms. In alarm he stared at the head of his goddess' senshi as she glared at him with daggers of hatred. "I am the Goddess of Love… yet I am about to renounce everything I know to be true about it because of you two bumbling idiots as you pine for her love by attempting to destroy it! Get out! Get out!" Minako screamed pushing at him and Haruka hastily removed him from the property.

Usagi fell to a sitting position on the ground and Rei and Ami rushed to her side.

"That's it… we're locking you in the bathroom. Come on." Rei said lifting her to her feet as Ami did the same and the remaining Senshi quickly drug her into the temple, locking and shutting doors behind them.

"What if…" Usagi began as the senshi began to undress her to her undergarments, Rei running a hot bath behind her as they securely closed the door to the temple's private healing place. Usagi stuttered as she was pushed into the warm water and steam filled the room as the girls lined the walls and took a seat before her. "What if… he was right." Usagi mumbled and Rei shook her head.

"You're not going to think about it. For the next six hours we are going to do nothing, think nothing and just be here in this moment right now…" Rei said sternly and Usagi glanced at her senshi. She knew what they were doing. They were fearing for her sanity and were trying to shut everything down to give her peace… peace… something she had always wanted.. along with love. Yet her love had cost her peace. Even now the wheels of emotion turned against her and she sunk further into the warm depths of water surrounding her.

It had started out as a stupid TV show. Just a dumb TV show that had duped her into signing a contract… she thought she may have lost her reputation and two weeks of her time… she never thought it would cost her heart… She was faced with a choice. Tell Mamoru the truth and hope his love really was as strong as she thought it was… or choose duty and determine to never let a catastrophe happen again like it had happened to her people. She sunk into the water and her tears mingled among it. Her people… she was living among his for none of hers had survived… all because of her. She sunk into the depths and her head submerged.

It was cleansing. Suffocating… running… A hand crashed into the water and yanked her upwards and violently her lungs intook a breath.

"We're not leaving you." Rei whispered and Usagi blinked, droplets of water running off her lashes as her heart pounded in the water. "This is just another thing we have to get over Usagi-chan… another thing Sailor Moon has to defeat. You have to let the past go, use it but don't let it fight you down." She said softly and the petite blonde glanced at her friend and her bottom lip trembled.

"Either way I win… I'm going to lose my dream." She whispered and Rei shook her head with a reassuring smile.

"No, Usagi-chan… you're dream will never die. We won't let it. You just have to be sure this is your dream. That he is what you were really re-born for." Rei whispered and Ami moved to contradict her but Minako put a hand on her arm. A sob tore through Usagi's body and she leaned her forehead against the miko and Rei sighed gently stroking her soaked locks. "It will be ok sweet Princess… it will be ok." She soothed.

Rei was a great liar.

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Haruka tapped her foot on the ground as she stared at the back of the feline's frame.

"I think it would be wise for you to fill us in now." Michiru said softly as she leaned against the locked door to the healing waters of the Hikawa shrine. The senshi had been in there for over two hours and the outers had finally managed to get Luna, Artemis and Minako outside of the room.

The blonde looked defeated. Her hair had gone extremely flat do to the healing steam and her eyes looked a bit dead.

"What is wrong with the Prince? Why in the hell does he hate Serenity?" Haruka said sternly and Minako sighed sitting on a bench near the door.

"He has nightmares about her…. She comes to him in his dreams demanding him. Apparently Serenity was very possessive. So possessive she actually threatens anyone who could pose a threat to her. Mamoru took that to mean Usagi-chan…" Minako mumbled and Luna turned her ear towards Minako than glanced her way with confusion.

"Threaten?" She repeated and Haruka glanced at Minako.

"I don't remember Serenity being possessive…" She mumbled and Michiru shook her head.

"Or really violent… just a tease mostly who fell head over heels for the Prince. She was only passionate about peace… and displayed force in that arena, Endymion was her escape." She mumbled and Luna turned and walked slowly towards the leader of the senshi.

"Wait a second… how can Mamoru-san be having dreams about the Princess? She exists inside Usagi… Usagi would have to be sending these dreams and I can assure you my charge does not know how to do that." Luna hissed and Minako looked up at her and she was now equally confused.

"Where would he get the dreams from then?" She whispered and Artemis hissed and Minako suddenly stood as the three senshi's locked eyes.

"Are you thinking what I am thinking?" Artemis hissed and Luna nodded as she began to pace.

"I must go find out… you all stay here with Usagi. I'm going to Mamoru-san's apartment." Luna said resolutely and Minako shook her head stepping forward.

"I'll go with you. I'll be the only way you can get in." She said and Luna nodded and Minako turned to the other senshi. "In charge in my absense." She ordered and Haurka and Michiru bowed, their arms over their heart in an old ancient Senshi tradition. Minako nodded and she and Luna rushed off.

"This plot gets deeper by the minute…" Michiru mumbled and Haruka nodded gently turning back to glance at the locked door. It did indeed…

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Mamoru-san's Apartment

2:03am

Two days before the Show

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Motoki had to hand it to himself. He could be an international spy yet. Although once Mamoru woke up and realized he had been drugged through expertly planted crushed sleeping pills throughout the curry Motoki had shoved down his face… yeah he would not be so happy. But Motoki had done what he needed to do. Mamoru needed sleep. He needed sleep before he went charging after Usagi-chan… before he pummeled that celebrity. Mamoru wasn't going to sleep with the distress of the day's events and Motoki feared if his eyes never shut to rest his body would shut down on him. With a sad sigh Motoki had shut the door and locked it leaving his best friend to rest…

Mamoru felt the wind blow on his face when suddenly the room turned white. He glanced down at his hands and then heard her voice once more.

"Endymion!" She cried and Mamoru shook his head and backed away, his frame garbed in armor he didn't even know existed. It was shimmering black with a hint of silver, a thick black cape flowing from his protected shoulders. He felt the weight of the armor and instead of burdening him it gave him an odd sense of comfort… like he had worn it for years.

"Get away from me!" He yelled back and suddenly his back ran into something and arms wrapped around him. The creamy white of her skin was a drastic contrast to the armor that held him.

"I will never leave you… you must stay with me forever." She whispered into his ear and he watched her perfect fingers wrap around his arms. He felt a cold chill come over him at her touch. Her silver locks flowed around him and he suddenly felt sick. How could he have ever loved someone like this? Had she forced him to love her then…? It felt wrong to love her… to be with her.

He pulled away from her and felt pain shoot through his head. He couldn't remember… he couldn't remember anything about her. What if she was lying… he rationalized she couldn't be because Venus had confirmed it. She stood before him but her face was a bit hazy… not as clear as if use to be… as clear as Usagi's face. Usagi…

"No! Stay away from her!" He suddenly screamed and he saw the Princess's fingers curl into a fist.

"She is trying to take you from me! I won't let her!" She screamed and Mamoru felt confusion wash over him. How could this Princess be so stubborn? He'd never heard her voice get so angry before… wasn't she Sailor Moon? Sailor Moon never yelled unless she was in pain or afraid… She rushed towards him and he felt the chill sweep over him and he couldn't move. It was like she had trapped him within her embrace yet his body was not responding… he felt cold all over and his breathing was getting shallow. Maybe if she just possessed him once it would all be over… No! His brain screamed yet his will was wavering…

"You are mine and mine alone for Eternity Endymion… I won't let her come between us again." She hissed into his ear and Mamoru balked at that statement. Again?

"No… Usagi… Usagi…" He whispered in a cry and her embrace tightened and he couldn't even muster the strength to fight her… It was over.

"Excuse me." A soft voice whispered when suddenly he felt a jolt and the Princess fell away from his body and slammed into the floor. He watched her hit the ground and her gown fall around her as her hair fell in waves. Mamoru slinked to the ground, his eyes glancing up towards another woman before him… someone he had never seen before.

"Your highness." She whispered in a bow, her dark onxy locks curling down her back as a small yellow dress clung to her perfect features… a yellow cresant moon shone on her forehead.

"What's happening?" He coughed out and the woman dropped the stick she held and Mamoru watched it evaporate. He blinked.

"I am Lunar… the personal guardian to Sailor Moon and Princess Serenity." She said gracefully with a bow, her deep red eyes shinning. Mamoru felt warmth radiating from her as she spoke to him. He took in a deep breath.

"That's a lie!" Serenity's voice cried out and Lunar stood back up and faced the form of Serenity before her and walked quickly. Mamoru watched in confusion, his mind felt befuddeled. What was happening? Slowly he felt his fingers move… his strength was returning…

"This is not Serenity." Lunar said and her perfect digits wrapped around Serenity's throat and lifted her up. "It is a micro-chip." She hissed and without warning the beautiful frame shifted into a small jagged piece of glowing green stone. "You have been lied to your highness… all these dreams were a fabrication of this chip… you need to wake up now."

"What?" Mamoru asked, his brain only catching a bit of what she was saying.

"Mamoru-san… you need to wake up!" A voice yelled in his ears and it echoed around him. "Wake up!"

Cold water splashed into his face and Mamoru sat up with a start as he sucked in a deep breath. He supported himself easily but his arms felt tired.

"Mamoru-san." A voice said beside him and he turned and glanced at the blonde and he blinked. "Are you all right?"

"No." He mumbled out and she nodded and Mamoru felt something on his stomach and glanced down to see a black cat perched there.

"Good Morning Mamoru-san." She said politely bowing her head and Mamoru fell back to land on his elbows.

"Good Morning." He mumbled in return and Sailor Venus glanced at him. His vitals had dropped… his deep sleep had been the final step into the overtake orchestrated in his system…if they hadn't come to him he would have been killed in his sleep and lost to the real Serenity forever.

"I am Luna… Sailor Moon's cat if you can remember." Luna said softly and Mamoru nodded vagely and glanced at Sailor Venus with a little bit of apprehension. "I've recently discovered your dreams… and they disturbed me." Luna mumbled and Mamoru nodded.

"They disturb me too." He replied and his voice was raspy.

"They disturb me for two reasons Mamoru-san… one… because the Serenity described in your dreams sounds nothing like my charge... I happen to remember her quite vividly and I can assure you she would release you before she took you… that is how her love was. And two… because it distresses my charge now as you have believed these lies." Luna filled in and Venus stood quietly beside the bed, monitering Mamoru's heart rate and blood pressure. "So I obviously sought to investigate the matter… when my warrior and I found you like this. You were on your deathbed Mamoru-san."

"What?" Mamoru asked and Luna nodded.

"Inside your head was a small piece of baryl…" She whispered and Mamoru's mind shot back to three years ago when they faught a Queen Baryl.

"She was in my head?" He asked and finally had enough strength to pull himself up and lean against the headboard.

"No… Baryl was destroyed but the stone substance of baryl was indeed inside your head. She must have implanted it there when you were in her captivity." Luna explained and Venus could only shake her head. That bitch seriously caused some issues…

"But why would it only start now…" He asked putting a hand to his head… it throbbed, like he hadn't used it in days.

"Probably because something in you triggered it. My guess was it happened when you started falling in love with Usagi-chan." Luna mumbled and Mamoru's head jerked up.

"Usako… I love her. I won't stop." He said resolutely and Venus shook her head.

"Well that is good… considering that she is Sailor Moon and Princess Serenity." Luna stated somewhat annoyed and Mamoru's jaw dropped a centimeter.

"What?" He asked and Luna nodded and glanced at Sailor Venus who with an annoyed sigh touched her broach and Mamoru watched in horror as her fuku melted away to reveal Aino, Minako.

"You threw me off a balcony… I am still so pissed at you." Minako hissed crossing her arms across her chest. Mamoru's eyes widened in shocked terror.

"Oh my gosh…" He whispered and Luna sighed looking at him.

"Mamoru-san… would you like to remember your past?" She asked and Mamoru felt the world stop around him. Anticipation filled him as the thing that he had been searching for his whole life… finally… his mouth opened but the words couldn't come out. "I'll take that as a yes." She whispered and without warning a small beam of light shot from her cresent moon into Mamoru's forehead.

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So… what did you think? Let me know if my writing sucks since I've not done it in so long. Hope this explains a lot… when I re-read it I found this plot bunny and I was like… "OH yeah!" it was better than my previous idea cause dang did Serenity seem psycotic in those dreams or what? Anyway… review please!

Thanks.

Marronett