Thank you for the reviews.. You're all too kind :) Ok, well i thought i should update now coz i wont be able to for a few weeks because i am going away... so.. yeah sorry if it seems out of character and stuff but i tried my best and thats all i could do, right?

I'll Be Here

I walked out of the bathroom and seated myself at my desk. I could feel Scotty's eyes watching me,
but i ignored him, in the hope that he would eventually look away and accept the fact that i was not about to jump at any chances to talk about anything i had just said.

"Lil.." he said hovering above me.
"What?" I looked up at him.
"Are you ok?" He looked concerned.
"I'm fine," I said quickly.
"Dont worry about before, we dont have to talk about anything if you dont want to"
"Good," I answered not wanting to say much else.
"Its just.. who hurt you, Lil." He rested his hand on my shoulder.
"What?" I answered sharply, jerking his hand off me. He just looked at me, not saying a word.The look in his eyes said enough. I knew he cared and only wanted to help me but even if i wanted to tell him anything it was all just to complicated to explain. I knew he wasn't trying to get me upset or mad all he wanted was to be there for me like i wanted to be there for him .. but i don't need anyone trying to care for me even the slightest bit, what's the point?

"Scotty, no one hurt me. I'm fine.. i promise." Well, i dont know if this lie was even some what convincing.
He nodded. "Ok." He stood there doing nothing for a few seconds until i heard him let out a sigh,
"You need a ride home tonight?" I really didn't want to accept his offer, god only knows what he might try to ask me again but its freezing and a lift home did sound alot more appealing then a cold walk to the train station.
"Yes please, if its ok." "Sure, meet you later, ok"
"Ok." I watched him walk away from me, sit at his desk and start to fill out some paperwork.
I don't think i had ever wanted to know what someone else was thinking so badly in my life. Was it obvious that i had put up with so much from so many different people and couldn't take it anymore? Did he realise that I just couldn't allow myself to open up to anyone and tell them how much i needed them? Was everything i did and said coming off as pathetic? "How did i get myself into all this?" I asked myself as i rested my head in my palms.

"You ready to go?" Scotty asked me some hours later.
I gave him a small smile, "Yeah, i just finished up." I placed the paperwork i had been finishing in a folder which i then put into a drawer in my desk.
We walked out of the building, my body almost instantly becoming stiff as the cold wind hit my body.
I shivered putting my hands in my pockets.
"You ok?" Scotty asked.
"I'm fine, where is your car?" I replied.
"Just there," he said walking quicker. I hurried to keep up, with the wind hitting my face, i was sure my nose and cheeks would have by now turned an unwanted shade of pink. I sighed as i walked quicker to the car.

Scotty reached it first, opening and holding the door for me.
"Thanks Scotty," I said getting into the car. I was relieved when Scotty turned on the heat, warming up my freezing hands.
We sat there not speaking for a few blocks.
"You know what you said earlier about trying to pretend nothing happened?" Scotty said breaking the silence.
"Yeah," I answered so quietly it was almost a whisper.
"Your right"
I had no idea what to say. "But the thing i dont get is, How do you expect me to want your help when you dont even trust me"
he asked looking ahead at the road. "I do trust you Scotty." I answered truthfully.
"Then why won't you let me help you?" "Because there is nothing to help me with!" I said loudly.
"You expect me to believe everything you said back there was about nothing? You think I'm that stupid Rush?" His reply louder then mine. I just sat there, not moving or saying anything at all. I felt my eyes fill with tears but unlike normal i let them roll down my cheeks. Scotty looked at me. "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you like that," he said pulling up out the front of my house.
I opened the door quickly and got out, not wanting to answer. I made my way up the stairs and opened the front door, without looking back.

I stood on the inside of the door, resting my head against the cold wood. I could feel my salty tears hitting my lips. As i heard Scotty's car drive away, i let my legs give in and my body slide down the door. I wiped away my tears, shutting my eyes wondering how i always seemed to get my self into these complications.

Please review :) And tell me if you would rather this fic just be about the friendship between Lilly and Scotty or Romance? Coz i cant decide, Thanks!