Invisible
Chapter 2-Without You
Authors Notes: So in the end, this got a better response than Lullaby, so I will do a full story with this one. The teaser chapter will be "chapter 1" just for the sake of convenience.
SPOILER WARNING-From reports I've gotten of the ending of season 6, theres a bit of a spoiler warning on something with Alex, but my story line doesn't follow anything involving Emma in season 6. So to explain if your confused, when I say "Alex did " that is the only spoiler. The rest of my story isn't real in the story lines of s6. Kay?
So the setting of my story, I'd put Jay and Emma and others around 20-21, following the respected age differences.
Also, this story features a few mentions of PALEX, but no details about it. They're mentioned as a couple, but I don't describe it. But I suppose if the majority wants a little palex romance as a b plot I'll think about it.
He sighed , realizing he'd let her walk out on him for the millionth time. Glancing into the window from The Dot, from the outside dining area he sighed. Spinner gazed back at him, eyebrows raised. Feeling frustrated, Jay grabbed the bill and headed up to pay.
The Dot had really changed. They'd gotten more...formal, kind of. They'd gotten waitresses and waiters and what not, but the main customers were still teenagers. Jay fumbled with the wallet inside his pocket, leaning slightly at the cash register. He hated change. Why everything couldn't stay the same forever, he had no idea.
Then again maybe thats why everything was changing. He was still the same Jay Hogart as he had always been. Just a little older. He paid the bill, taking his keys from his pocket and heading to the parking lot.
Passing Alex on his way out he mumbled an awkward hello. She said nothing though, and continued to do her job waitressing. Her anger had been growing these past few years. No matter what he did she still seemed to hate him. Maybe everyone hated him.
He climbed into his car, twisting the keys into the ignition. Spinner and Sean wouldn't even fucking talk to him now. He slammed his arms onto the steering wheel, without a single sound coming from the horn as expected. Damn car wouldn't start again. He groaned, wrenching his seat backwards and climbing out.
Kicking the car, he brought a hand to his forehead. Just once. Just once, why couldn't something go right? He swung the door back, letting it click shut. He glanced around him, settling on walking the short six blocks to his apartment.
It wasn't exactly home sweet home. It was actually more like a rundown apartment complex where rent was only around four hundred a month..for a one bedroom anyway. Entering the apartment, he glanced down at his answering machine, receiving the usual answer. Nothing.
He actually quite liked nothing at first, he thought to himself, kicking back onto the couch. He glanced at the small TV across from him reluctantly. His cable had been cut off two weeks ago.
He had a habit of quitting his jobs without a backup plan. Lighting a cigarette, he let himself slump into the battered blue couch.
Actually, considering todays events, maybe he just had a habit of quitting when it got tough. That's why Emma left him after all, wasn't it?
Emma. His mind seemed to linger on her. Taking a long drag, he held the smoke before letting it escape in a single breath.
She'd actually been quite annoying at first, and awkward looking. Until that duckling became a swan, the environment was the hot topic with her. These days though, she wouldn't even talk to him, so maybe the environment was back to being the hot topic.
There probably wasn't going to be any hope for reconciliation. He'd already used his get out of jail free card. He gave Emma an STD and she forgave him, after a few long months, some begging, and some tossing around from that bastard Sean.
Sean. Jay snorted, finishing his cigarette. He crushed it into the dirty ashtray that set atop the table beside the couch. What a waste of breath these days. Actually, Sean was how he won Emma over in the first place.
He'd tried to get back with Alex, seeing how Emma just let Sean back into her life as quick as he could ring the doorbell. Alex. Let's just say at least Alex got out of that hell hole. Stripping wasn't a way of life. Sean certainly thought it was though, and cheated on Emma with Alex.
Alex still couldn't choose between girls and boys though, Jay smirked. He remembered how Alex had dumped Sean and gone running back to Paige.
He jumped when she was down. Which probably wasn't right, but oh well. He and Emma actually had a pretty good relationship. If Sean hadn't of cheated on her, Jay and Emma would have never gotten together.
So maybe he owed Sean something. Maybe a good punch in the face for hurting her. Jay laughed quietly tilting his head back and letting it rest on the hard arm of the couch.
This. This is exactly why he couldn't sleep at night. He groaned. It wasn't supposed to end like this. Emma was never supposed to get pregnant, freak out and dump him. He had given her a good reason to freak out though, he debated with himself.
Right before she had Lindsey she'd let him in a little bit. Just to slam the door in his face and tell him to get the fuck away from her leave her alone.
He got to see Lindsey when she was born, that was it. Three long months. He and Emma had gone out to dinner twice in three months, went for ice cream once, and then to The Dot today. He'd seen Emma four times in three months. Hey, at least he could average just over once a month. He asked her to bring Lindsey, the first time.
She refused though, having Spike watch her. He wasn't sure why Emma wouldn't bring her around. It's not like he was going to break her, or lose her or something like that.
Hell, he could barely remember what the kid looked like. He tried to give Emma money once, for Lindsey. She threw it back at him and told him she didn't want any dirty bribes. He didn't do it again after that. He wasn't trying to pay Emma to let him see Lindsey.
He just wanted to help her out.
His thinking lulled him to sleep, his hand drifting off the couch and dangling towards the floor.