Aishiteruze Baby
Mature
Knives, Tears, and Trashcans
Chapter Four: In the Shower
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Note: I do not own the characters from Baby, I am just a fan. This fan fiction is based only on the manga, sorry for all of you who watched the anime. I love to hear what you have to say, but please do not be too harsh. This fan fiction is for mature audiences only, it contains, self-inflicted pain, and sexual themes.
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Sometime after Kokoro had fallen asleep, Yuzuyu and Kippei's sister had left, and Kippei had moved har under the blankets.
Kippei did not sleep at all that night, he sat in the bedroom window seat thinking about what Sis had said, her words echoed through his head.
"She could be placed in the hospital again or worse."
Kippei sighed. He knew that his sister was right.
"Kippei, she is slowly killing herself."
Kippei felt terrible, he had been living with her, he should be taking better care of her. He turned and watched over Kokoro as she slept, but soon she began to throw a fit in her sleep. After being in the fit for a few minutes she woke up quickly and sat up in the process.
She turned to face Kippei. "Kippei, what's wrong?"
"Sorry, I couldn't sleep."
The two sat in an awkward silence until the alarm clock went off about ten minutes later. Kippei let it ring for a moment before getting up and walking over to the nightstand, turning off the alarm.
"Kokoro…"
"…" Kokoro turned and faced him.
"Lets go out and do something today."
"But what about class."
"We can skip…"
"…"
"…"
"Okay." Kokoro said quietly. Before she began to climb out of bed. "I guess I will go get ready."
"Kokoro…" Kippei reached out and grabbed her wrist.
"…"
"Please…"
"Kippei…"
"Please…"
"…"
"Please do not just walk away like nothing is wrong."
"Kippei, what do you mean?"
"You know damn well what I am talking about." Kippei was trying to keep his temper down, but he could not any longer.
"Kippei…"
Kippei pushed Kokoro down on the bed and climbed on the bed, so that he was on top of her, supporting his weight with his knees and hands.
"Why do you do this to yourself?" Kippei looked hurt.
"Kippei, I do not understand."
Kippei pulled Kokoro's button up school shirt open. He stared down at her, and her pale skin, below her light pink bra, her rib cage was now sticking out quiet a bit. Kippei let his hands trace over her ribs. He then quickly pulled himself off of Kokoro and quickly left the room, leaving her lying on the bed.
A moment later, Kokoro sat up and swung her legs over the edge of the bed. She gently stood up and headed for the bathroom, which was connected to the bedroom.
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Kippei stood in the kitchen leaning against the island cursing to himself, as he heard the water turning on in the bathroom. He was not sure whether he should stay angry with Kokoro or whether he should go apologize.
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Kokoro stood in the tub letting the water from the showerhead hit her gently in the back. She was upset, upset with herself; she was upset for hurting Kippei. Kokoro began to look around the tub; her eyes fell on her disposable razor that was sitting on a small ledge.
'That's it I must punish myself.' Kokoro thought as she picked it up. Using her long nails she broke the pink casing away leaving two silver razor blades in her hand.
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After a few minutes Kippei decided to go talk to Kokoro, he pushed himself away from the island, and headed off towards the bedroom.
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Kokoro held the small blade between her index finger and her thumb. She stared down at the bland for a moment, after taking a deep breath Kokoro moved the blade, to her wrist quickly.
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Kippei took a deep breath and opened the bathroom door.
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Kokoro gave out a gasp as the blade glided through her flesh. It took a second for the blood to come, but when it came, Kokoro could not resist, she replaced the blade to her wrist again.
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Kippei stepped in the bathroom, shutting the door behind him so all the warm air would not escape. Once inside Kippei turned to face the tub, through the white shower curtain he could see Kokoro moving the blade through the thin skin on her wrist.
Hoping that what he was seeing was untrue, Kippei quickly pulled back the shower curtain, staring at Kokoro in disbelief.
"Its not what you think." Kokoro said quickly.
"No, no, it is exactly what I think…"
"Kippei…"
"Why? How could you? I don't believe this…" Kippei was at a loss of words, he did not what to say to her. He really just wanted what he was seeing, not to be true.
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Kippei simply left the bathroom; Kokoro shut the water off, after rinsing the blood away. She grabbed her towel and wrapped it around her body, before she left the bathroom in search of Kippei.
She found him sitting on the window seat in the bedroom. He did not turn to acknowledge her when she approached him; he just stared out the window.
"Kippei…" Kokoro said slightly unsure of herself as she reached out and placed her hand gently on this shoulder.
Kippei turned without saying anything, and stared at her new wounds, they were beginning to bleed again.
"You're bleeding again…" Kippei said as he got up fro the window seat. He disappeared into the bathroom, only to return a moment later with white gauze, medical tape, and a towel.
He sat Kokoro down on the window seat as he took her wrist in the hand. He gently wiped away the blood with the towel, before he wrapped her wrist with the white gauze and secured it with the medical tape.
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End Chapter Four
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Au Revoir,
Olivia, Much Like Falling