Hi there, this is my third story so please RR. Thank you for reading my other stories. I wrote this a while back.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything you recognize. Everything is owned by Dick Wolf, we shippers have to change this.
Background: This takes place months after "Screwed"; things have not been the same between E/O. This story has nothing to do with season 9.
This is for onetree,SVUbaby19,sn855850 they took the time to read so thank you again.
Fin's cell goes off.
Ring Ring
"Tutuola" he answers.
"Hey, Fin gets your ass up here now! Munch ordered.
Click goes the connection.
"Well, we better get back to the waiting room. You know I only did this for your own good, right?" Fin stated in a calm tone.
"Yeah... I know" Liv responded in a 'you fucked up my plans to haul ass' tone of voice.
Both make their way back towards the large sliding hospital doors, they head for the elevators and proceed to the third floor.
The ride to the third floor was the longest experience of her life, on the other side of that door was her almost future, what could have been life, the life she craved. Who wouldn't want a man who looked like Elliot, strong arms, deep oceanic eyes, and the kind of eyes that you wouldn't mind drowning in. Lord know he's a fertile man, it's a wonder how Olivia never got pregnant, as many times as Elliot has used her toilet. Waking up every morning to his face would put a smile on her face and a song in her heart. Knowing what true love is an experience all on its own, but when your true love is trapped in a shitty marriage, no one is happy, especially her.
They step out of the elevator while she blows out a breath of frustration, and heartache. She sees Munch, and Cragen outside of Kathy's birthing room, her guts drop three floors and breathing starts to become a problem.
"Liv!" Fin shouts, both Cragen and Munch see Olivia start to hyperventilate. "I …I can't breathe!" she's starting to turn pale.
"Hey! We need a doctor! Ordered Munch.
A clearly overworked nurse rushes over.
"Please clear a path, ma'am can you walk?"
Olivia nods yes. "I'm going to need you to leave the elevator area, and have a seat in this chair" pointing to a chair from the third floor waiting area. Olivia slowly gets up and gasps for air in the process.
"I'll be right back ok ma'am?" The nurse turns to the nurse's station to retrieve a brown paper bag the size that can hold a lunch, she quickly returns." Please breathe slow and deeply into the bag, I think you're having a panic, and anxiety attack, have you been under any kind of stress lately?" Olivia nods yes once more. Lady you have no idea. Her breathing has returned to normal, and the beautiful olive tone has returned.
Meanwhile Elliot is busy with his children and Kathy.
"How do you feel now?" asked the nurse that periodically came over and checked on Olivia.
"I'm much better now, thank you" the tired detective answered.
"Ok, if you need me I will be at the nurse's station". Then quickly walks away.
"Olivia, I want you to talk to Huang ok?" The captain, always looking out for his detectives, asked in the nicest way possible, of course we all know Olivia she will never talk to a psychiatrist willingly.
Cragen knows exactly why Olivia is behaving the way she is, but because Cragen cares about everyone, he is constantly turning blind eye to everything under his command.
"Ok, I will call Huang and make an appointment". Olivia said defeated.
Physically she's fine, but emotionally she's going nuts.
Elliot finally comes out of Kathy's room no baby yet. "What the hell is going on out here? Liv, I thought you left? Elliot asked in an 'I'm so glad you came back, and never leave me alone again' tone.
"Um...Elliot can I talk to you? Liv asked while getting up to make her way towards Elliot.
"Yeah, ok?" trying not to sound to glad that she didn't leave tone. "What did you want to talk to me about? Elliot asked in his clueless guy way.
"Well, I decided to come back because you're my best friend, and you need my support". All the while biting her lower lip, this drives Elliot wild, only at appropriate times of course.
"Thank you" staring into her eyes, they embrace into a hug, Elliot whispers into Olivia's ear, "Liv, you don't know how much I care that you came back. I'm so conflicted about everything, as of right now in my life, my kids, the baby, US ( he didn't say partnership or friendship) I honestly don't know what to do, but the one thing that I do know is that you are and have been the best thing in my life for the past 9 years. He turns to face her, she's flattered and shocked.
"Since were being truthful, you and this job are all that I have in life, and in the past 9 years I've felt loved and part of a real family, and you are all that I have in my life. You're all that I think about, and now you're having a baby, I felt like I've been run over by a truck that day at the courthouse when you told that Kathy was pregnant, and now I don't know where to get from here."
"Liv, I don't know what to say or do that won't hurt you." Elliot genuinely stuck in the shit he caused 9 months ago.
"I know El, and that's what makes you a good guy. I know your kids are everything to you and I know you'll make the right decision and stay with Kathy and the baby". She places a hand on his cheek, and stares into his watery blue eyes, while her eyes start to water as well, they bring their foreheads together never braking eye contact. Olivia breaks the trance that captured them in that moment to turn and walk towards the familiar group of detectives.
Kathy hasn't had the baby yet.
"You ok Liv?" a concerned Fin asked.
"Um...yeah, I'll be right back, call me if something happens." she says pulling her cell phone out.
"Ok" Fin obliges.
Olivia walks past the group, and calls Casey.
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