I wasn't going to lie to Johnny about the phone call I told him it was Drake and he wanted to see me after the show tonight. The look he gave me broke my heart but on the other hand it felt so natural sitting on the bed with Johnny just talking but I know he's not ready for what I wanted, and this thing with Drake it's just a fling he lives clear across the country. I could see him when I go to California with the band next month but I don't want to jump into it with someone I don't even know. I mean he's a great guy and the chemistry… GOD… is so good I can't even explain it in words I can just feel it in my bones.
"If that's what you want to do Ash I'm cool with it."
Johnny said interrupting my thoughts, he just smiled and put his lips to my cheek and kissed me softly.
"I'll be here for you if you ever need me."
He said with this sincere look in his eyes.
"Thank you Johnny."
I just turned around and hugged him like I would never see him again and walked out the door.
I showed up to the concert like I always would I a tank top, jeans and sweat jacket, even though it was still the summer the air off the ocean was frigid making it feel like winter. This time wasn't the same I didn't want to go pass the door I didn't feel like I belonged there, so I sat outside for a while letting the sunset and the cold air hit my chest just thinking. I don't even know how long I was out there for; it must have been the whole concert because I didn't wake up from my daze until I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"What are you doing out here? You're not trying to skip out on our date? You gotta be cold."
I didn't even answer him, he just unbuttoned his black pea coat and threw it over my shoulders standing in front of me he slinked his arms around my hips and held me close so we were both under his jacket and I was under his spell. I was still uneasy about the situation earlier I kept my head down trying to hard to not let him know that I was unhappy. He picked my chin up in his hands and placed my lips on his and everything just sparked the battles in my mind had dissolved into fireworks in my heart.
"Are you okay something seems off?" He said stroking my cheek.
"I'm better now"
"So Ash you wanna go get some dinner maybe somewhere warm?"
"No."
"Well what do you wanna do?"
"Lets just got o my house order take out and just relax I had kinda crazy day and I just wanna chill. Is that okay with you?"
The smile on his face gave me the answer before he could even open his mouth.
"Sure well end the day where we started it."
I laughed and he took my hand as he escorted me to his car.