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"Is that your mother?" Ren asked not even backing away from me an inch. I would have pushed away from him myself but today was so stressful, and he was just so warm. It was getting dark out and it looked like it was going to snow.
"Yeah that's her; I guess you can see where my temper comes from." I said trying, but failing, to lighten the mood. I had made up my mind. I was going home.
Mother, honked the horn of the car impatiently. She was going to lecture me the whole way home. I could hear her now. 'Kyouko what was going through your head' 'Kyouko what have you done to your hair' 'Kyouko you're such a disappointment.' I had heard then all before, nothing had changed between me and my mother, she still treated me like a puppet and I treated her with respect she didn't deserve. Not fair at all right? "Kyouko hurry up and get in the car!"
Ren tightened his grip around me, not willing to let me go. I was the one who finally eased out of his embrace, and was immediately sorry for it. The look of hurt on Ren's face almost ripped me in half.
"Kyouko you can't leave, what will we do without you?" His eyes were searching mine, trying to figure out the reason I was going, but they finally quit. Ren lowered his gaze and wouldn't meet my eyes again. "Give me one good reason you're going back?"
I had to think for awhile, but I knew that the answer I would give him was stupid and unfair. "I want to make her happy, and I can't do that here. Please say good bye to everyone for me." I turned away from him and practically ran to the awaiting car and mother. I couldn't bear to see him staring at me like I had betrayed everyone.
"Who was that man you were hugging for so long?" Mother asked once I had gotten into the car and she had pulled away from the curb. She didn't sound very happy not that she ever did.
I sighed and wiped the tears from my cheeks, not wanting her to think I was that weak. "He's just a very good friend and mentor. I'm going to miss him the most I think." She left it at that, and didn't ask me any other questions until we got to the airport. We got on the plain and went home.
I cracked the door, it was late and we had just gotten home. It was dark inside and, like always, a little creepy. I lived in the pool house, out back next to the pool. I had moved in when mother started going on trips that lasted for months at a time. It was lonely in the house and I felt more comfortable in the small two bedroom mini house. I sighed and went to the bed.
The alarm clock on the shoulder table next to my bed read three O clock a.m. I was so tired, yet I knew I wasn't going to get any sleep tonight.
I would have to go to school tomorrow, I would have to go back to disappointing grades and scornful looks. I would have to go back to being alone, just so that I could make her happiness, no it wasn't happiness it was power. That's what she wanted, she wanted to control me, and I was letting her.
Bring Bring Bring! The phone rang from the entry room; I got up slowly, not wanting to fall over anything. "Yes who is it?" I asked into the receiver, I was tired and sad and didn't feel like chatting to anyone.
"Kyouko it's me, Ren."
I felt my throat close immediately, why was he calling me? "Hello,"
"Kyouko every one of us wants you to come back to Tokyo. Why would you just give up on all of us like this, you deserve to be an actress." He sounded tired and mad.
I started to cry again, and he must have heard it. "I'm sorry Ren really I am, but she's my mom, and I just want her to be happy with me just once. She's all I have, and I hate her with every piece of my heart, except one."
"What piece doesn't hate her?" He asked the confusion eminent in his voice.
"The pieces looking for the love of a parent, the one wanting to remember what it was like to have her mother hug her or kiss her on the cheek." I took a deep breathe, "I have always wished for a happy family life, like the ones on TV, but really my mother hates me. She blames me for what happened between her and my father, and I'm convinced that it was my fault that he left."
"Kyouko stop talking like that." Ren ordered, and even over the phone I could see him getting that hateful sneer on his face. "You weren't the cause of anything, and just because you mother is a low life nobody, doesn't mean that you have to make her happy. Please come back?"
"Good bye Ren"