#1 "My dearest Emerald,
Last night was the first night in many months we slept apart. I never knew a bed could be so huge! I missed you so much, my darling! Lying by your side, holding you close…..just thinking about it is enough to send me flying back to you. But I can't- yet! I haven't told my Father everything. He knows that you exist though. Just not who you are.

Oh god! I can't write anymore. Just writing to you makes me yearn for you…if I saw you this instant I'd kiss every inch of you I could. Especially those several inches below your waist…..

Oh god! Now I miss you AND I'm really turned on.
Attach yourself to the return owl!!
Dying for you,
Dra."

#2 "My own, darling Dra,
I know. I couldn't sleep the first night. When I did fall asleep the next night I had a nightmare that you would never come back. It's so strange to wake up and not see your hair glinting- my own personal sun. To not watch as you open those gray eyes and look into mine and then lean back to be kissed.

I miss our games…I miss kissing you….watching you sleep. You look so beautiful my love!

Tell him. tell him as soon as you can- but only as soon as safely possible! Don't risk yourself! I can't afford losing you forever!!
Missing you,
Your own,
Emerald"

#3 "Emerald,
I just woke up from a nightmare and can't go back to sleep. Do you remember that night before Christmas when I woke up screaming? I woke up in your arms. Tonight I woke up alone. It was like waking up from one nightmare into another- a world without you. I can't stand this. He's been out a lot, so I never had enough time. I hope against hope I can tell him this week. And yet- I'm so nervous too.

I looked out of my window right now- it's a full moon night. I looked towards the house you're staying at and imagined you asleep. Or looking out back at me. For a strange moment I had the strongest impression I could actually see your eyes.

Oh Merlin! I miss everything about us. I was undressing before I slept. Thinking of you. Of that completely wicked smile that comes over your face as I strip before you. The way you run your eyes over me, claiming me to be yours and yours alone .And the way your skin feels as I undress you...

I jumped straight into bed and pretended you were there. But it didn't work and I went to sleep still hard, and unsatisfied. Perhaps THAT caused the nightmare.

Oh no! I can hear the carriage. Father's back. It's no use talking to him now. He and mother must be halfway there in their storm of passion. I used to get so embarrassed earlier. I've seen them in the carriage sometimes you know, when they thought I was asleep. I think it turns both of them on to be so cool and reserved in public and so passionate in private. It used to embarrass me. But now- I'm filled with a wild envy every time I imagine it. Envy because they can touch each other, kiss, make love, whenever they want to. Whereas I- I AM STUCK 50 BLOODY MILES FROM YOU WITH NO OTHER MEANS OF REACHING YOU THAN AN EFFING OWL!! And I have these cold, intense moments of pain when I think that I shall never see you again.
I'm terrified those moments will turn out to be prophetic. I don't think I'm ready to even imagine life without you.

The need to tell him is stronger than anything I've felt before. If I had the courage I'd walk down right now and tell him. But I keep waiting for the perfect opportunity.
What if it's passed me by? What if it never comes? What if I'm doomed to stay in this manor alone and grieving for the rest of my life.

The nightmare must have had a stronger grip on me that I knew.

Oh! Please reply soon. If it wasn't for these letters I don't know how I'd survive. I…don't laugh, but I slept with one in my pants yesterday because you had touched them.
I kiss every one you've sent me, imagining they are your hands.
Do you feel this way or am I the only desperate one? I feel like a fool. A feeling only you and my father can induce in me. He cannot remove it. But you can. The question is will you?

Wild, despairing and past any belief in love,
Dra."

#4 (written in wild, spiky, hurried writing)
"My dearest, most precious Dra,
I wish I had been there. It nearly drove me mad- that I couldn't come to you and sit with you, kiss you calm... And your question cut me deeper than anything else- Dra…you know I love you. What I feel for you goes deeper than anything else I have ever felt before. I just can't express myself too well on paper. Perhaps you'll realize what I feel when I say that I have been having nightmares too. Nothing the 'couple' I'm with can do anything to help me. By day I walk around with a dull ache at the thought of your absence. By night, it turns into a sharp panic and yearning for you. For that smile you flash at me as I'm falling asleep. For the love in your eyes as we meet after a long day. Even that sulky pout of yours that I can never resist…everything I see reminds me of you Dra. But I didn't want to spill it out because I thought it would rush you into telling him and I don't want our already slim chances to vanish altogether.

Desperate? You're restrained compared to me! And I sleep with your letters too…I smiled as I read that confession of yours! I touch your letters- even talk to them when I think I'm going to go mad. Your owl must be convinced of my insanity because I grabbed the last letter from it, while it was still tied on! It came zooming into me and I have a nasty scratch near my eye. Didn't do me much good because I imagine you here, kissing it.

Undressing? I undress in a hurry to try and avoid the memories. And even then I slow down. Imagining its you pulling off my shirt and kissing me. Kneeling before me to take off my pants. I love the way you look up after you've done that and wait for my kiss of approval before rising...

Is there any way we can meet Dra? Think hard…where I'm staying is safe enough.

Reply soon my Dra…
With all of my love and lust,
Emerald."