I took the stairs so I had time to think about what Drake had said, "I love you." I wasn't use to hearing that. I'm actually scared I don't want to be hurt, when are we going to see each other we live across the country? The stairs seem to end so quickly I walked out the door to see Drake sitting in his '66 mustang with Dave Mathews Band CD blearing from the speakers. I walked up to the car I gave him a little smile and opened the door.

"Hey baby…"

"Hey Ash…"

I sat down leaning it for a kiss. This wasn't an ordinary kiss this was a kiss that sent shock waves through my body. The kisses multiplied until I was sitting on his lap running my hands through his hair. He had my hand on the back of my neck and running the other up and down my back. We came to an abrupt stop when we heard a knocking on the car window.

I jumped off of Drakes lap and into the passenger seat and rolled down the window.

"Hey Johnny…"

I said fixing my make-out hair.

"You forgot your purse."

Johnny said holding it up as evidence.

"Aww… thanks Johnny."

"Hey Drake this is a really nice car."

Johnny said leaning into the window.

"Hi Johnny thanks"

"Okay Ash I just wanted to run this down to you. I'll see you tomorrow before the show."

"Bye Johnny."

I turned my cheek so he could kiss me good bye like he always did but my cheek was met by the warm summer air. Johnny walked back to the hotel and disappeared through the doors.

I turned to Drake and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Drake just started up the car and began driving.

"Are you okay?"

I asked looking down at my thumbs; he was making me feel like I had done something wrong.

"Ash why don't you just do what you really want to do?"

"Oh… I'm sorry Drake I forgot you could read my mind. If I didn't want to be here with you why am I here then?"

My question was returned with silence. Drake inhaled deeply and just looked straight ahead like he was dealing with an annoying five year old. I just folded my arms across my chest and ignored him. A couple of minutes past filled with silence and the music of DMB. We stopped at a red light Drake turned to me.

"Why did you have to wear that?"

He said sounding disappointed

"Wear what?"

"That outfit."

"I knew you were upset about me seeing Johnny and I knew I was going to see you so I thought you would really like it. I wore it on your first date."

I said as tears filled my eyes. I felt so stupid I felt like this was the exact opposite of what I wanted out of our relationship. I didn't want to feel like I was constantly doing something wrong, I just wanted to be happy. Drake ignored my tears and kept driving.

"Drake can you take me back to the hotel please."

"No come on Ash lets just go back to my house."

"Drake I'm serious I want to go to the hotel."

"Are you serious Ash, your making a big deal out of nothing."

"My feelings aren't nothing! Fine you don't want to take me home then just leave me here I'll get a cab."

"Fine Ash I'll take you back."

Drake screeched on the breaks and made a U-turn. The rest of the ride was silent. We came to the hotel I got out of the car and slammed the door. Drake turned off the motor and fallowed me to the door.

"No Drake I don't want to see you right now."

"Ash stop this, I'm sorry."

Drake grabbed my arm in an attempt to stop me.

"Drake you're acting like a jerk! You're acting like a spoiled brat and I'm your toy or something! I'm better them that. I think you need a night to cool off."

Drake loosened his grip on my arm and let me walk through the door. One part of me wanted him to run after me and make me believe he was sorry and the other part of me wished that none of this ever happened I had never stayed late at he club that night.

I walked up to the hotel room that I had reserved but never use. I wasn't going to run to Johnny, I would just hear an "I told you so".

I walked into the room and sat on the bed and cried. I didn't know what to do so I decided I was going to enjoy the time I had alone. I picked up the phone and dialed Chris's room number.

"Hey Chris its Ashlee, I'm staying at the hotel for the night but I don't want anyone to know, but I don't have any clothes can I borrow a tee shirt and a pair of shorts?"

Chris agreed. Chris was a good guy he had been with the same girl for 4 years they were engaged and in love, he had everything I wanted.

I heard a knock on the door. I ran over and looked through the peek hole it was Chris.

"Hey, thank you so much. I just needed some time for myself."

"No problem Ash if you need anything just call."

"Bye Chris"

"Bye Ash."

I slipped into the over sized shirt and stayed in my underwear's because the shorts kept falling around my feet.

I sprawled on the bed and turned on the TV. My phone rang only about a hundred times since I started to relax; I flipped up the top and gave in to temptation.

--------------------------------phone convo------------------

Me- Drake stop calling!

Drake- Ash please just listen to me for one second.

Me- What Drake?

Drake- I'm so sorry I was just scared and I was pushing you again, I'm so sorry.

Me- Okay fine

Drake- Can I come pick you up then?

Me- No drake I just need some time to myself.

Drake- Is Johnny there?

Me- Oh my god Drake your not sorry! What am I some kind of slut? I don't just jump from guy to guy! Get over yourself Drake.

Drake- No No No that's not what I meant I don't know what I meant. I'm sorry Ashlee I just don't want to lose you.

Me- Drake look I don't know who were kidding here it wasn't meant to work out that's why I didn't want to get so serious with you sooner or later you were going to lose me.

Drake- But that's not how I feel Ashlee I want this to work I want us to work I don't care if I have to fly down every weekend your not like other girls I never felt this way. I didn't want to say these things over the phone I wanted to say them to your face. I'm coming down there Ash and you don't have to let me in your room but this is stuff that shouldn't be said over the phone.

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