I sat back stage listening to the sound checks Drake sounded great I loved his music it made you want to get up. Terror 24 was first up then another band that I didn't catch the name and then Drake.Johnny was sitting down next to me going over the schedule.
"So did you ask Drake about going out with us tonight?"
Johnny said putting his arm over my shoulder.
"Oh no I didn't I completely forgot but it should be cool. Where did you want to go?"
"Well I thought maybe Drake could recommend a good place I don't know anything around here."
"You know what there's this great diner close to here you guys would love and if Drake doesn't want to go out he can just go home its close to his house."
I got a little uncomfortable having Johnny's arm over my shoulder when Drake started to walk towards me.
"That was a good set Drake."
Johnny's said getting out of his seat letting Drake have it. I was so surprised he was being so cool about this is actually made me think there was something else going on. I let it roll off my shoulder and enjoyed the peace. Drake sat down next to me taking Johnny's place figuratively and literally.
"Hey baby it really was a good set. I like the song about the periscope is adorable."
"Thanks Ash. So what did he have to say?"
"No he just wanted to see if you wanted to come out with and get some diner?"
"Ash truthfully I don't want to go and I had plans with one of my friends anyway tonight. I'm sorry baby."
Drake draped his arm over me and pulling me closer.
"That works out perfectly you go out with your friends and I'll hang out with the guys."
"Wait…wait…wait… your going to hang out with them anyway?"
"Yeah what did you think I was going to sit around the house and wait for you to come home and let me out? I don't think so Drake!"
"Fine Ash, do what you want. Why don't you just stay at the hotel tonight too?"
"Drake if that how you want it then fine! But don't call me a hundred times tonight begging to come over."
"Ash come on we don't mean this."
Drake tried to grab my hand I shooed it away and walked away from him. I was so mad, I can't believe he would act like this two days in a row I mean did I give him the 3rd degree about who he was going to hang out with? No because I trust him! I walked back to the band.
"Guys you have about 10 minutes and you go on are you ready!"
I tried to get them pumped up!
"Are we ready? Of course we are!"
A roar of hooting echoed through the halls.
Drake stood in the doorway looking over at me. I ignored him being here with the band was my job and more importantly they were my family.
The band circled around me chest bumping and moshing knocking me on my butt. Gavin reached down and throw me over his shoulder jumping up and down I couldn't help my start laughing hysterically I was laughing so hard I couldn't breath!
"Gavin put me down I'm gonna pee myself!"
I yelled out!
Everyone stopped in there track and started to laugh at me. Gavin put me down and I stumbled into Johnny's arms.
"You okay Ash?"
Johnny asked trying to steady me.
"Yeah just dizzy."
"Okay guys no more playing around you gotta get on stage."
I ushered the guys to the stage and they ran out in all there glory. I usually went into the crowd I hated sitting in the back with the groupies and weirdoes, but I was beat I just wanted to sit down and relax. As soon as I found a seat close enough to hear the band and far enough away from the weirdo Drake came walking up in his red velvet blazer and his guitar stung around his neck.
"Can I talk to you Ash."
"You know what Drake I don't think you can I think you need a time out."
"Fine what ever if that how you feel then I guess I can't change your mind."
"First of all Drake I actually do love you I guess that was just something you said to get me away from Johnny."
"Well I guess it didn't work huh ash."
"You a real jerk Drake."
I could believe the way he was acting what did he want me to do beg him to stay home with me tell him I would drop everything just for him? I just shrugged my shoulders and went out into the crowd I guess be out there was better then being next to him at the moment.
I made my way to the front Johnny saw me and gave me a wink I smiled back. I didn't want to be here I just want to go home and sit in my bedroom with a pint of Ben and Jerry's chubby hubby ice cream watching nick at night reruns.The boys finished there set I went back stage to congratulate them on the first successful California show. When I reached the waiting room I was to late Drake and Johnny were in each others face.
Drake- Why can't you just back off dude!
Johnny- You know as soon as she comes back home this whole little fling you guys have going on will be over and shell back to me like she always does.
Drake- That's not true she actually loves me!
Johnnys- yeah well she loves me to. You a fucking moron you know? You really think she would pick you over me you're a fucking loser.
Drake threw a punch I ran in flipping out.
"You're both fucking morons. Johnny were over I don't know how many times I have to tell you and when we get home you're going to be lucky if I even talk to you."
"Ash listen…"
Drake said blocking the exit.
"No you know what Drake this all started because of you. You couldn't just trust me? You know what I really did mean the things I said to you but it turns out your no better then Johnny. Guy's bottom line don't be douche bags Drake, Johnny and the guys are my friends and Johnny, Drake is my boyfriend so get over it. Now can we just move on."
"Ash can I talk to you then?"
"Yeah sure."
"Well can you walk me to the stage."
I started to walk out of the room.
"I'm sorry Ash"
"I know you are Drake, but you really need to chill out I mean it's not worth you getting all crazy about it."
Drake turned to me and kissed my lips softly.
"No, your worth so much more."
The butterflies were back, he's good I can never be mad at him but one day that charm is going wear off and he's going to be in trouble.
"Ash I want you to come out and hang out with my friends tonight. I mean after you go out to dinner with the guys."
"That's sounds great."
Drake made his way on stage and I went back to the waiting room to work things out with Johnny.
"Now have you calmed down yet?"
I asked Johnny like I was a teacher that just put him in the corner.
"Yeah I'm cool."
"Well let's go get something to eat okay?"
"Whoa Drakes letting you get something to eat with us?"
Gavin said butting in.
"No I told him I was going."
"You know what Ash I think we're just going back o the hotel."
"Oh… Okay, well I guess I'll see you guys tomorrow."
"Bye"
The group said as the walked out the door. I was a little confused and a little upset. I felt betrayed like since I left the group to find love I was outcasted like some crazy Mormon town. I walked out into the crowd it was nuts the girls were screaming and so were there mothers for Drake Parker I couldn't believe people loved him that much. It made my love for him look like an ant on the world.
"I have someone very special here to help me out with this song."
My jaw dropped when the beautiful blonde from the diner came out in a baby doll dress and 9 inch heels.
"Hollywood Girl"
[Girl:
Are
you putting in your songs?
[Drake:
No,
I'm not when you ask
Nope
Kind of I guess
Hollywood
girl
Is lost again
All of her hopes left her stranded
Seasoned
dreams
Are just pretend
She can't stand it
Why'd it have
to happen to me
Why'd it have to hurt so bad
Cause in this
town
Can't find up but I found down
In the city life
Can't
turn around
Can't give up I feel too proud
Under the city
lights
She doesn't believe
In believing
Miracles have
died in her mind
She knows the world
Is deceiving
Everything
is wastin' her time
Why'd it have to happen to me
Why'd it
have to hurt so bad
Cause in this town
Can't find up but I
found down
In the city life
Can't turn around
Can't give up
I feel too proud
Under the city lights
Get in line and hold
your head high
Pretty face will help you get by
Step inside
I'll make your tears dry
So put on your smile
Ha
Cause
in this town
Can't find up but I found down
In the city
life
Can't turn around
I can't give up I feel too proud
Under
the city lights
[Girl:
One
of the drivers has to pick you up at the airport
and bring you to
my photo shoot so I can see you
I'm so sorry, I tried to get it
changed
I'm so sorry baby
Don't be mad
They finished up the song she kissed him on the lips and hugged him He just smiled and kissed her back. I felt like I was watching my heart being stomped on by everyone. A tear drop slithered down my face I was so upset I couldn't breath I felt like I was being suffocated by the embarrassment.
I walked out of the concert hall and called a cab I don't want to deal with this not after I said them three stupid words. Fuck how could I do this to myself again. I told the cab driver to take me to Drake house. I was going to get all my things and go to the hotel I just wanted to take next flight home. I walked through the front doors and Josh was walking down the stairs.
"Hey Ash how was the concert."
I just started crying I could help it, I didn't want his sympathy I just wanted to get out of there.
"Ash what wring sits down and tell me."
"Drake…gulp kissed the girl…gulp from the diner."
"Ash I told you it was before he met you why are you so upset?"
"He did it on stage!"
I yelled with all my anger.
"What the hell, why?"
"She did a song with him and she kissed him on the lips and he kissed her back and then they hugged and Drake couldn't look happier."
Wow it felt so good to get it off my chest.
"I just want to get my stuff and leave Josh."
"No Ashlee come on you guys can work this out he loves you."
"If he loved me he would have at least have told me she was going to be there."
Josh pulled his ringing phone out of his pocket.
"Ash see its Drake."
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"Drake what the hell happened man?"
"Yeah shes here crying because you kissed that diner chick on stage."
Fuck ( I heard Drake yell over the phone)
"Okay I'll tell her."
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"Ash Drake wants you to stay here. He's leaving the concert now.