I ran through the intensive care unit doors. I wasn't thinking about anything I was just completely blank I saw Josh sitting in a chair.

"Josh what's going on? What happened?"

"He was at a red light and someone barreled into him his face is completely messed up he's missing like 6 teeth, he has a neck fracture and his jaw is broken."

"What the frig! Wasn't he wearing his seat belt?"

"Yeah but you know there's no air bags and the seat belts only go around the waist."

"Can we go in and see him?"

"There's someone in there right now maybe we should wait and I'll go in with you. I called his parents there flying in as soon as possible."

"Who's in with him?"

"Ash listen don't get made but its Barbie."

"Who's Barbie? Oh my god, don't even tell me it's that stupid whore from the diner! Forget it it's not worth getting all crazy about it."

"Ash they were on the way home to explain that Drake didn't even know she was coming until the third song in and she was in the car with him."

"I'm not mad I just want to make sure he's okay I'm going to get a soda I'll just go in with you."

"We'll go in after you get your soda and kick her out."

Josh smiled and I walked away still not being able to really think about the situation I was numb my brain was numb. My heart wasn't I felt guilty maybe if he wasn't rushing home, maybe if I would have just stuck around, maybe if he hadn't of kissed her.

I got my soda and returned with tears in my eyes Josh just held out in arms and pulled me if for a hug.

"He's going to be okay Ash. Come on."
Josh took my hand and led me to Drakes room; there was a nurse in white scrubs fixing Drakes IV. Drake tried to sit up the nurse forced him back down he waved his hand for me to come close he looked over at Barbie sitting in the corner on her cell phone. I saw it in his eyes he didn't want her there he wanted me. Josh walked over to Barbie and escorted her out of the room. Drake tried to talk but it all came out mumbled. I pulled a pen out of my purse and a piece of paper.

"Here you go babe."

--I didn't want to kiss her I'm so sorry I love you so much I just wanted to see you I'm so sorry please forgive me. Do you still love me? I didn't want you to see me this way.--

My heart broke reading the little piece of scrap paper.

"Drake I love you okay and I'm sorry I acted like a bitch! Don't worry about all of that. And you're still the most handsome man I have ever seen."

Tears filled my eyes I leaned in carefully to give him a hug I kissed him ever so lightly on his cheek.

"Drake try to get some rest okay baby."

He began writing again.

--Ashlee can you stay with me? Atleast for a little bit I hate hospitals.--

I started laughing through my tears.

"Yeah I'll stay all night if you want me too."

I turned to the nurse to ask her.

"Can I stay with him tonight?"

"Yes one of you can stay but his injuries aren't that bad he'll probably be going home in 2 days."

"Well that's really good to hear thank you very much."

I pulled the chair next to Drake and took his hand being careful not to touch his IV.

"Are you comfortable baby?"

He just nodded his head.

"I'll be right back okay?"

I walked out of the room giving Drake and Josh some time. I called Johnny tell him everything was okay and what had happened. I told him I was going to stay with him until he gets out of the hospital and if he could drop my stuff off with Josh.

I walked back into the room Josh was on the phone with Drake parents giving them and update.

"Yeah he's in good hands his girlfriend is staying over night with him."

He told Drakes parents.

Drake saw me walk in and smiled he waved me towards him, he picked up the pen.

--I'm hungry--

I read the note out loud. Josh and I just looked at each other.

"What they heck are you going to be able to eat?"

Josh asked him in his always upbeat funny voice. I turned to the nurse who was sitting around ease dropping.

"How long will his jaw be wired?"

"About 3 months"

My mouth dropped, Drake growled through the wire.

"Don't worry baby I'll look up all kinds of recipes and make them up for you."

Drake picked up the pen and started scribbling uncontrollably.

--Your supposed to be leaving in 2 days can you please stay a little longer with me like 3 months?--

I read the note and laughed.

"Drake I have school in a week but how about this I'll call and see if I can get a few things emailed to me and if that works out I'll see if I can stay for a few more weeks, if it's okay with Josh."

"Of course its okay, I don't want to take care of him."

Josh said lightheartedly

"Hey dude I'm glad your okay I'm going to go home and get some sleep I'll come by tomorrow morning."

Josh hugged Drake; I fallowed him out of the room.

"Josh listen when you come tomorrow morning I'll go back to the house and start making some of the recipes I look up tonight on my phone and get a shower and stuff because truthfully I don't know how long I'll be able to stay and if I make the meals now and freeze them he would be able to do it himself."

"That's really nice of you Ash."

Josh gave me a hug and left. Josh understood what I was going through school is very important to both of us he was even taking summer classes but Drake hated school he didn't even try college music was his full time job. I walked back into the room Drake was writing again.

--Ash I really am sorry for what happened at the concert and it means so much that you're here for me and that you're going to stay long. I know you really do love me, and it just makes me feel so much better that I have you around to help me.--

"Well when we get home we'll get a TV for your room and blend up some spaghetti O's for you. But baby do you need anything like something to drink or another blanket?"

Drake shook his head.

"Okay which one are you saying yes to?"

Drake pointed to the blanket and pillow.

I stood up and walked to the closet and pulled out another blanket and pillow. I lifted his head up slowly fixing his pillows I took the sheet off that he was tangles up in and laid the thick cloth blanket over of him.

"Drake you know what turns me on, that cute orange gown."

Drake laughed through the wire.

He held his arms out for a hug. I sat next to Drake rubbing his hand until he fell asleep. I couldn't sleep in that little chair so I took out my phone and looked up all kinds of recipes writing every single on of them down no matter how disgusting they sounded. I felt so bad that I would have to go home sooner or later. I felt like I was abandoning him when he needed me. Josh had school and work and there parents had there sister to take care of in San Diego and wouldn't be able to stay long. I made up my mind I was going to change my classes to online and stay as long as he needed me.