"What do you mean I save you?"

"Before you I didn't care about anything as much as I care about you I mean I want to get married and have like he 2.5 kids and a dog."

My heart sank, that's what I wanted. I need to talk to someone anyone.

"Drake I'm so excited I just need some air."

"Do you want me to come with you?"

"No…no just stay here I just need a minute to walk and call everyone and brag!"

I said forcing a smile and holding back my tears. I walked out of the room not even taking a second look at Drake sitting on the bed dumbfounded as to why I wasn't jumping for joy. I should have been kissing him and flashing my beautiful ring. But no I ran out the door and flipped up my cell phone to call my nana.

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Nana- Hello

Me- Hi nanny I have some news

Nana- please doesn't tell me your pregnant I'm not sitting down.

Me- No… no Drake just…

I couldn't finish my sentence because I was crying so hard.

Nana- Ashlee whats wrong what did he do?

Me- He proposed

Nana- Jesus Mary and Joseph that's great aww… Ashlee I am so happy for you. This is the best thing that could have happened to you right now.

Me- Why do you say that?

Nana- Ash not to sound old fashion but your living with him and he's taking care of you, paying for your school he sounds like a great guy not like the other losers you were dating.

Me- He sings! I mean he has no real plans for the future.

Nana- Ashlee he's becoming very successful he's a well known name and didn't you just tell me he's trying to start his own record label?

Me- Yeah I know I'm just a little scared I guess. It's a big step, so you think this is for the best?

Nana- I think you should do what you think is right. I love you Ashlee and I just want to see you happy you're an adult now you have to make your own decisions.

Me- I love you nana.

Nana- I love you to Ashlee congratulations.

I walked back to the house slowly giving myself some time to think. I did love him and this is the best thing that could have happened. Drake loves me for me he thinks I'm the greatest thing he treats me like a princess. I walked through the door and spotted drake from across the room. I ran over to him and throw my arms around him.

"I love you so much thank you."

"I love you too baby."

Drakes step-dad stepped up to say a toast.

"Drake has always been wild and we haven't always agreed with his ways but you two being together is the best decision he has ever made."

Drake just pulled me closer and kissed me on the lips overpoweringly.

As time passed by the number of guest started to dwindle down. I was exhausted from just thinking about today. All I wanted to do was go into my room and fall asleep. I slipped into an oversized shirt and fell into bed.

"Ashlee?"

Drake called poping his head into the door.

"Yeah I'm in here."

Drake walked over to the bed and sat on the ledge.

"Whats wrong? Don't you want to get married?"

"I was just surprised that's all."

Drake wouldn't look at me he just stared at the wall.

"Ash don't lie to me. Look me in the eye and let me know
if you gcan't love me that let me go."

"Drake I love you. That's not the problem I was scared."

"Of me?"

"No of being so far away from home I don't have anyone here for me."

"I'm here for you!"

Drake was so angry I have never seen him like this.

"I thought I was doing the right thing…"

Drake walked out of the room slamming the door behind him.

What did I do why did I have to be so dumb why do I have to hold onto Johnny he's having a baby he's moved on. Why cant I? Why do I feel like I should be carrying his baby in a one bedroom apartment living paycheck to paycheck working at wal-mart?

I jumped off the bed and grabbed my phone.

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Me- Johnny Drake proposed.

Johnny- Wow that's great you're gonna steal all the thunder away from the baby news.

Me- I don't love him like I loved you.

Johnny- Ashlee I treated you like shit. As soon as you left the house I would call up some stupid whore and invite her over I didn't even care about you the way I should have. And you still treated me like a king. Don't do that to Drake he takes care of you and treats you the way you deserve to be treated.

Me- Johnny I don't know.

Johnny- Ash don't call me about this stuff.

I hung up the phone not believe he said all those things to me. I knew what he said was true but to actually here him say them I just couldn't take it. I loved him for so long. He was my everything for so long and he did treat me like shit he never even told me he loved me.

Fuck what did I do? I'm driving the only person who truly loves me out of my life. I throw my clothes back on and ran down the stairs trying to find Drake.

He was sitting in the kitchen alone just looking out the window.

"Drake you love me so much I just didn't know how to deal with it. I'm not really use to it. But I just want you to know I love you so much that I would never want to hurt you and I would love to wear this ring but I just need a little more time to figure out if I even want to get married."

I wrapped my arms round Drake I wanted him to put his arms around me I need to feel him I needed to know that everything's going to be okay.