I couldn't believe this he wanted this, he thought this was the best thing in the world. We went home and never talked about the girl in the studio or the kiss I had shared with Josh I felt like it was an even trade.

"Ash how did this happen?"

Drake asked petting my hand.

"The doctor said nothing is a hundred percent."

Drake just pulled me into his hollow chest and rested his chin on my head getting comfortable making me feel like we could stay like this for hours and we did. We didn't move or talk we just stayed in the bedroom holding each other.

"We have to call a doctor and get everything checked out."

I told him as I pulled back and kissed his cheek.

"Well let's find one right now."

"Okay."

We looked through phone books and the internet Drake called his insurance company and put me on under him. He was so excited like the day he asked me to marry him. His smile could light up a room and make everyone else smile. I loved it, I loved him. Maybe this wasn't a mistake maybe it was just a really good surprise.

There was an underlining problem with all of this that I was forcing myself to see past. Drake was getting skinner and skinner, his eyes were sunk in and always red, he would be completely hyped up one minute and then just fall asleep. I didn't know what was going on but I really didn't want to know. I seen some of the guys go through this especially Gavin when he was using drugs. I didn't think Drake was that kind of guy he hardly drank never smoked it didn't make sense and I wasn't going to accuse him of something I knew nothing about.

We finally found a doctor and went late in the evening because Drake had begged for an appointment today because he was so excited. I set in the all white, cold room in a paper gown not sure what was going to happen next. A tall handsome doctor walked in which made things worse I didn't want to get checked out by some cute doctor I wanted a girl doctor if they had to exploring down there. Drake pulled the chair up next to me as the doctor started. Drake held my hand and smiled at me the whole time.

"Well Mrs. Parker it seems your about two months pregnant. Would you guys like to see your baby?"

"Are you kidding?" Drake asked on the edge of his seat.

I put my clothes back on and walked into a different room. I lied on the table and lifted up my shirt exposing my belly. I didn't remember much of the cold gels or Drake and the doctor making small talk but all I could think of was that I didn't look pregnant I still had my flat stomach and no stretch marks. I stopped thinking about that kind of stuff when I heard a small rhythmic beat.

"Okay guys now that's the heart I'm recording that for you guys now to keep."

A tear rolled down Drakes cheek. I turned my head toward Drake and smiled at him he squeezed my hand in reassurance. We both sat and looked at pictures of the baby growing inside of me.

"Well guys there looks like there's a little bit of a problem there seems to be a tear in the placenta your going to have to take it easy no stress no lifting and no driving."

"Okay, we can do that." Drake announced like he was carrying this all by himself.

I just sat there listening to instruction my body was there but not my mind it was everywhere and anywhere else.

We walked out to the car Drake opened the door for me and help me in.

"Drake I don't think we should tell anyone about this right now I mean they say its bad luck if you say anything before the third month."

"Okay if that's what you want."

The rest of the car ride was silent the rest of the week was silent I went in and out of the day in a complete zombie like state. Drake left early in the morning and came home later and later every night. His eyes became even redder and blood shot his speech slurred. I kept my mouth shut because I couldn't think of him I had to think for 2 people right now. I had to stay calm and relaxed. He sent me flowers every other day saying home much he loved but all I could think was how many other girls were getting these. It came with the territory I knew that I've been here before I knew how to deal with it. I kept quite and waited for him to refocus on me he was a rock star now he liked the idea of having me and home pregnant with his child while he was out every night with a new girl, I was cute and quite I could clean and cook. This was his fantasy not the 2.5 kids with the white picket fence and a dog we all just lived and played by the rules of Drake Parker.