Drake and I spent the day in the house watching movies and eating pop corn we had some really great talks about how we wanted things to be and how we could make it work. I held back my real feelings most of the time and made them come out a way that wouldn't scare him off I wanted this to work. We talked about getting him help with the drug use and he promised to go see someone before he went away. He promised no more girls or drugs. He begged me to come on the road with him, but I had to say no I had to finish up the semester but I told him I would come and see him for Christmas and I would try to catch up with him every other weekend.

I didn't even think of how much I was going to miss him when he left. We laid in bed dreading the morning he had to leave at six to make the plan on time. Things were going good for the past week Drake and Josh made up and it was as if nothing had happened, Drake started to see a doctor and received a legal anti stress prescription we also started seeing a counselor about or problems and to talk about the lose of the baby. I just wanted it to stay this way forever I didn't want him to leave me we were both scared. I was scared to be alone and he was scared he would go back to his old ways if I wasn't with him. I just wanted the last two weeks of school to be over and I would fly where ever he was. I laid on the bed squeezing my arms tighter around his waist.

"Drake are you awake baby?" I asked looking up at him.

"Yeah… baby what's wrong? You should really get some sleep."

"I'm really sad. I know it sounds dumb but I'm going to miss you so much!"

Drake sat up pulling me towards him.

"I'm going to miss you too baby but its only two weeks and I made my peace with that your going to be so busy with finals and all of that and by the time your going to fly out where going to be in Philadelphia and we can see your family."

"Drake I don't think this is a good time."

"Baby we both have some skeletons in our closet and I want to met them I want to met your brothers and sister I know you miss them."

"I really do miss them. Drake I don't think I can say this enough before you go but I really do love you and I can't wait to marry you."

"I know how you feel baby. But I really wanted to talk to you about something I thought maybe when all of this is over and the CD comes out and the tour ends we could try for another baby?"

I didn't answer him because I didn't know how I felt I just kissed him on his lips and took him in. We stayed in bed as long as we could but I knew he had to get packed so I went down the stairs and made him a huge breakfast to celebrate his success. I packed him a lunch knowing he was going to be on the plane for a long time.

Josh and I drove him to the airport we hugged and kissed until the last minute I stood outside the car until I couldn't see him anymore. I went in the car and began to cry Josh started driving home but my phone stared ringing.

Me- hello (I sobbed)

Drake- Baby don't cry I just wanted to tell you I still miss you.

Me- I love you too.

Drake- I love you too I call you as soon as I land.

I felt a little better about all of this I felt better about each other. I loved him and he loved me.