A Page From The Diary of Tsunade
Chapter: 5? Thoughts
Disclaimer:
Naruto is created by Masashi Kishimoto.
I am merely a fan fiction
writer that likes Yuri.
Warning: This contains Tsunade's thoughts upon Shizune.
Of course this
is Yuri based. If that bothers you..
why not look for something
more your style.
Author's Note:
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The
dreams are relentlessly increasing..
Since the last entry quite
some time has passed.
I find myself laying alone in this empty
bed..
Thinking about her all night..
Is this some kind of
obsession?
Isn't this kind of wrong?
I have shared beds
with her in the past..
She was younger then.. so it was
different..
I wasn't thinking that way then..
Dammit, what
is wrong with me?
Shizune.. it's as though I need you..
I have
you in my office through the day..
When night comes.. I am all
alone again..
I miss hearing your voice..
Your smile, laughter,
sighing and temper..
In the night, I miss everything about
you..
My eyes hurt from shedding so many tears..
I don't know
what to do anymore..
I am not supposed to be this weak..
I
am Tsunade, The Godaime Hokage..
From the Hidden Leaf..
My
grandfather was the Shodaime..
My great uncle was the
Nidaime..
and my sensei was the Sandaime..
I am the female
Sannin..
I am famed for my great strength..
also for my
heritage..
I cannot be weak! No, I can't!
It's just.. I
DON'T FUCKING KNOW!
I
feel like ripping my hair out..
I am so frustrated with
myself..
I find myself worrying about losing her.
It's
not like I ever had her in the first place!
What
would Shizune think about all of this!?
Could she really accept
such feelings?
If she did, would she even want to be with me?
I
mean.. we are of the same sex..
It would be easier to approach
her..
If the two of us, were not female..
I want to say
something but at the same time..
I just can't make myself do
this..
I wouldn't be able to tell her..
I really want to
but the fear...
Nobody wishes to be rejected..
over matters
concerning love..