I didn't sleep much last night mostly tossed and turned. Finally the sun came up and I wiggled out of Drakes arms he had held me tight all night, he was afraid to lose me. I walked in to the bathroom and let the tub fill I need a bath I needed something to make me relax. As soon as I was getting undressed I heard the front door open, I checked the clock and the bed Drake was still sleeping and it was only 5 am. I threw my robe on and raced down the stairs.

"Where's Drake?" Josh said barging past me not even waiting for my answer. I chased after him pulling at his arm.

"What's wrong?"

"Drake came over after I left last night!"

"I know, he told me."

"That's what I'm talking about Ash. Its not like it just happens he goes looking for it."

"Josh leave him alone, he's a good guy and he said he didn't kiss her she tried to kiss him." I said trying to make myself believe. I started crying this was all so messed up I wanted everything perfect I wanted to spend as much time with Drake as possible but right now I don't even want him to touch me.

"Ash I'm sorry but you know what he's like why should we believe him he's cheated on you a ton of times and Jenna has never cheated on me until last night. How can you be sure?"

"He's never lied about cheating why should he start now?"

"Because he knows you don't love him like you use to. You would leave, wouldn't you?"

"Josh stop talking about things you know nothing about. You had a girlfriend for what 5 weeks and 3 of them you were gone? Look I love him, that's it." I heard footsteps coming down the stairs I looked up and saw Drake walking towards us half asleep still in his boxers.

"Josh, just go don't try to start stuff here today. Ashlee and I were fine before you brought her here."

"You guys were never fine. She just put up with your shit. Does she know how many girls it really was?"

"Shut up Josh!" Drake yelled.

"Come on she says you never lied tell her how many! Then tell her what you did last night and why Jenna has hickies all over her neck and body. It wasn't just kissing this time was it? Was it ever just kissing?"

"Josh get the fuck out of here." Drake yelled.

"No stay. What is he talking about Drake what did you do? You wouldn't sleep with her she's not even pretty."

"Ash it was an accident I was Drunk. I'm so sorry."

I felt like I was being kicked in the stomach, I couldn't think, breath or move. I didn't know what to do.

"Drake you're an idiot you will never find anyone like me that will put up with your bull shit and care for you the way I did. I just wasted a year with you."

"I know, I know I am. Please baby, please don't do this." He said trying to put his arms around me. I pushed him away hitting him as hard as I can to get him off of me.

"We're done Drake, its over." I said so calmly it scared me.

"Josh I thought we were brothers? Why would you do this to me?"

"You did this to yourself."

I didn't want to stay around to hear there fight I packed my stuff up as quickly as I could. I walked down the stairs Josh was gone Drake was sitting on the couch with his head in his hands.

"I have no where to go!" I said quietly not knowing what to do with myself I didn't want to go back to Jersey and I didn't want to stay here.

"Ashlee please just stay here. I'll stay in the guest room."

"Drake it's obvious you don't love me the way you should. You wouldn't be sleeping with other girls you would just want to be with me all the time. Like I do with you. Don't you remover when you told me I was the one for you the only one? If I'm the one then what were these other girls just in line at the deli?"

"I'm sorry."

"For what? It's my fault I thought you would change your ways. Everyone told me from the start that you couldn't just be with one girl."

"You're the only girl I ever loved."

"Love isn't supposed to hurt or be complicated if it's right then it should just come easy. I thought when we first met it was love but I think it was just convenient."

I picked my bags off the floor and walked out the door and into my car. I had nothing no money, no home, nothing. I didn't know what to do I looked in my rearview mirror and Josh was still here sitting in his car. I got out and walked over to his car and slid into the passenger seat. We didn't have to say anything we just sat there. Josh pulled me in close for a hug and he didn't let go we sat there forever it felt like just holding each other.

"I don't know what to do Ash I left Jenna and I can't be around Drake right now."

"How do you think I feel? I don't have anything and I cant leave I have school. I'm just going to try to rent a hotel room for now maybe try to her a campus house until the end of the year and then go home."

"So you and Drake are completely done."

"I don't know. I don't think we'll ever truly be done. I think you should try to work things out with your brother nothing should come between family. He didn't mean to hurt any of us it just happened."

"I don't know how you can still not hate him after all he did. I don't know either all I know is I love him. I'm going to go check into a hotel. I love you Josh I'm sorry for everything."

"Please keep in touch Ash I love you. Call me when you find a hotel room I don't like the thought of you being alone in this city."

I nodded in compliance and Josh hugged me goodbye I went back to my car and drove around until I could find a half decent hotel room I could afford. My cell phone was ringing off the hook I didn't want to talk to him right now I just wanted to think things out. I laid on the hard hotel bed trying to think straight. I kept telling myself I'll get over this I'll get over him I thought I would never get over Johnny and that just faded away. I decided to just stay in and get my stuff situated for I paid for the week trying to give myself time to get a job and maybe an apartment. I loved California it was like Jersey except you can go swimming all year long.

Drakes not totally out of the picture but he will be on hiatus for a few chapters. R&R