Things were a lot different in the next two week. I had found a nice little one bedroom apartment near school. I hadn't seen Drake in about 2 weeks Josh stopped over a lot to see how I was doing. I got a Job at a local restaurant I saw a lot of Drakes old friends they wouldn't act like they remembered me just stuck there nose up at me. I went to class everyday I doubled my work load trying to keep myself busy. I loved Drake I loved him more then life itself, it didn't matter how much I worked or tried to keep busy but nothing worked.
I was sitting down at my little desk in the corner of my apartment finishing up some homework when I heard a knock at the door. I got up to answer it I was in a pair of old jeans and a white tee shirt I had left most of my stuff at Drakes, I wasn't able to bring myself to go back there I was afraid I would stay. I looked through the peep hole it was Josh we were still trying to keep close.
"Hey come in come in. What going on?"
"I don't know I thought maybe me and you can go grab some dinner?"
"I would love to but I have a ton of homework! And I already ordered out like 10 minutes ago."
"Oh okay" Josh answered sounding disappointed.
"Why don't you stay in with me I'll up China Wok and make it a double?"
"That sounds good."
"So how do you like the new place?" I asked
"Its cute it's definitely you."
"Thanks" I said smiling it took me a lot of time to get it the way I wanted.
"Hey what are you doing tomorrow?"
"Nothing… Well I have work in the morning. Why? What's up?"
"I have these concert tickets and Drake hasn't left the house in like 2 weeks. So I thought maybe you and me could go."
His face and mine froze and the sound of Drakes name. I wanted to ask how he was every time I talked to Josh but I was afraid to I was trying my hardest to get over him. But since he opened that can of worms why not fish?
"How is he?" I asked looking down at my fuzzy slippers.
"He's still depressed and Ash I think he's really sorry."
"Josh I'm not doing this to teach him a lesson. I just need time and he hasn't even tried to contact me."
"He's scared of what you'll say."
"I don't know Josh. Let's not talk about this. What concert is it?"
"Some unknown guys."
"Sounds good I can use a night out."
Josh and I sat in just talking about school, movies, music, current events, anything but Jenna and Drake. I knew Josh went back seeing Jenna but on his terms he said. So what that meant was he went over when ever he wanted sex. I didn't dwell on what happened that day. I was always crying and throwing fits alone in the dark my neighbors probably thought I was crazy, but I was sad and lonely and tried to keep it all bottled up until it overflowed in to hysterics.