I didn't want to upset drake last night so I didn't tell him about the kiss, I wanted to wait till the morning.

"Baby its time to wake up." I said giving his butt a tap.

"10 more minutes!"

"No…no… Come on I want to go out to breakfast!"

"Ash later we'll go to the dinner they serve breakfast all day!" He whined.

"Blah… Blah… Blah… Fine we'll do this the hard way."

I jumped on the bed putting my hands on his bare sides and started to tickle him with no mercy. He wasn't going to put up with it to long. He got a hold of me and threw me under him. I braced my self to be tickled to death but instead I was met with his soft lips on mine, his hand caressing my face. Every touch sent a shiver down my spine. I couldn't remember the last time we just kissed. I felt like I was back in high school. I made myself stop thinking and started to just go with the motion of his body.

"You know I really do love you and I try my best to be a good boyfriend."

"I know. You just really have to try a little harder to show it."

"What are you doing today?"

"I have a few errands and some girl stuff to do." The truth was I was going to look at some DJ's and get some other little things ready for the party." Babe I have something to tell you."

"That scared me a little."

"Jared kissed me last night. I mean not like a real kiss but like a peck and I think I hurt his feelings because I was so surprised I said I didn't know you liked girls!"

"Ashlee… you didn't say that! Wait he kissed you what an asshole! I don't care if he's gay or not that's an asshole move."

"I'm sorry I dint tell you last night you were in a good mood and it was eating at me all night."

"Well at least you told me …I mean if you didn't I wouldn't even know and I know you wouldn't hook up with him anyway."

"Really! why not?"

"Because why go looking for it if you have me at home." He said giggling.
My face just went black I couldn't believe he just said that. What did he think that meant to me? He knew what he said because he went quite quick and put his hand on his head. He was waiting for world war 3 to start. But I didn't know what to do, he probably never could say anything so true again in his life.

"Ash I didn't mean that."

"Yes you did because it's true. You're here and give me everything I could possibly need why would I go looking anywhere else? And if that's it what's so wrong with me? What do the other girls have that I don't?" At this point I was holding back my tears, biting my lip, playing with my hair, looking at the ceiling as to push the tears in back of my head.

"Ash please don't look at it like that. It wasn't you it…"

"Its not you, it's me, please I've said that… and you know what I was always lying because it was there fault. If it wasn't there fault why would I have broken up with them? Why wouldn't they have broken up with me?"

"Look Ashlee it was my entire fault I never felt like anything was good enough for me that's why I went from girl to girl they were never good enough. Girls, my music, friends, even Josh but the truth is your to good for me and I kind of always felt like okay she's going to realized this and leave its going to be over anyway so why not just do what I always did. And the only time I have ever cheated on you was when I was drunk or high, only when I was out of my mind." Drake was now besides himself he looked so nervous, I never seen Drake nervous even when he played these huge gigs.

His explanation was down to a science she was going to get rid of me anyways so why not? I didn't really know what to think of this so I just accepted it. I didn't want to fight I wanted to start getting back on track.

"Drake I'm not mad its okay, I know you didn't mean it like that and it's the truth I do have everything I want right here because you're here."

Drake just took me in his arms, we stayed that way for a while just taking each other in.