Two weeks have passed and things with the party were coming together. Things were actually going great I picked a great DJ, invited all of his friends, and all of this without him even being suspicious. The party was in two days and it was starting to come down to the wire it was starting to get a little hectic, but I liked it I thought how great would it be to do this for a living, setting up parties.

I was sitting in the living room trying to get some homework done; I have been so busy setting up the party and just spending time with Drake. We were actually getting along; he was actually acting like a real boyfriend for once. He was sweet, goofy and fun, like he use to be. We were slowly learning if we fight just get over it!

Drake walked in through the front door, he had been gone all day shooting a music video for another singer. I thought it was great he was having so much fun. I was a little scared because the singer was a beautiful girl who was just getting started.

"Hey baby a lot of homework?" Drake asked kissing me on the cheek.

"A little I just want to get it done so I'm not stuck doing it at midnight."

"Good because I made plans for us." He yelled from the bedroom jumping into him pajama pants it was only 12 in the afternoon.

I hated when he did that I didn't like most of his friends and they never did anything fun anyway.

"Oh great… what?" I said sarcastically.

"Don't say it like that, Bebe the girl's video that I'm doing invited us to dinner at her house." He said flopping on the couch picking up the remote.

"Are you sure she didn't just mean you?"

"Why would she do that? I told her I had a girlfriend."

"But doesn't it sound kind of weird that a girl invited me and you over and no one else is coming over? It would be the first time or the hundredth time some one tried to pick you up knowing you had a girlfriend. I don't think I want to go it's like my only day off and it's a Sunday we have school tomorrow."

"Does that mean I can't go either?" He said like a defiant teenager.

"Drake please don't start. Do what you want!" I didn't want to start a fight I just wanted to enjoy the afternoon and get my homework done.

"Fine Ash I won't go!" He yelled back.

I shut my laptop and walked over to the couch.

"Drake if you want to go then just go. I don't care I'm fine with it. Josh was going to come over anyways. I thought you were going to be gone all day." Drake and Josh still weren't really on talking terms they would just say hi to each other and that was it.

"Why would I go if you don't want me to go? Plus you don't even trust me to go!" He yelled turning away from me.

"Drake I trust you, your with her all day you could cheat on me when ever you want to why would be going to her house any different? I mean if I didn't trust you I would be one of those crazy stage girlfriends that stays glued to your side, but I don't so give me a little more credit then that." I sat down next to him and put my hand on his knee.

"Ash I'm sorry I just think that were in a rut. And I just wanted to try to get things moving."

My stomach sunk, he gave me that feeling a lot. I think he likes the fighting I think that's why he starts petty things with me. I did notice that he was never in the mood for sex any more I just thought maybe he was being nice just wanting to cuddle.

"A rut? That's funny because I was starting to think that we were finally getting along."

"That's what's so different about us Ash. You want to stay home and watch movies and cook dinner. I want to go clubbing and stay out till 3 in the morning but I can't with you because you have work or school." Drake said in a whinny voice mimicking me.

"Drake you know how dumb you sound. Isn't that the reason you originally said you liked me was because I wasn't like all the girls in California? I mean I don't know why your acting like this, did I do something wrong."

I always felt like I did something wrong like I wasn't good enough or dumb enough. I don't know with drake sometimes he wants everything, smart, dumb, clubber, housewife, mother of his children and someone to drink with. Nothing was ever good enough for him I think that's why he has always needed more the one girl he needed others so he could have the perfect relationship.

"You didn't do anything wrong. I'm just telling you how I feel."

"I don't get it. I mean do you want to break up or do you want to break up so you don't feel guilty about sleeping with her tonight?"

"Ash I don't want to break up with you I just got you back."

I ignored his interruption. "I mean this is all starting to feel all too familiar."

"Ash look I didn't mean it that way…"

"What way like I'm not good enough? That I should be who you want me to be not myself. Look Drake I took you back even though I told myself that it would only bring me heartbreak. I wanted to take it slow but no it all has to be at Drake speed! 3 day you ask me to come to California with you, 2 weeks you ask me to move in, 3 months engagement, I mean come on I need to breath every once in a while."

"Ash you know what I gotta leave."

I took him by his arm before he could get off the couch.

"No you need to sit down and talk this out with me."

"Ash this isn't going to work out."

My eyes filled with tears my heart was broken I needed him I wanted him to stay I just wanted to be with him and not right now it at least had to wait till after the party. I knew if I let him go he would come back.

"Drake if you need a minute then go take it, but if we're going to break up then just do it. Don't string me along like this."

"Do you really want to live like this Ash?"

"Drake I thought if we loved each other it would all work out."

I couldn't stop crying my words came out in pieces because I had to catch my breath in between. I was so embarrassed I didn't want him to see me like this but I had done exactly what I told myself not to do. I said I wasn't going to totally devote myself to him but I did again, and I think I will always I said go slow and I jumped in head first.

He put his arms around me and pulled me close. "I'm sorry I just had a bad day and I'm just tired and you know I don't mean it. You say lets just break up all the time I say it once and it's the end of the world. How do you think I feel when you say it then?"

"I don't mean to hurt your feelings but you did it on porous. Look Drake I love you and I want to be together but if you don't want to be here with me then just go."

"Ash were in a tiny apartment there's hardly any room for my stuff your never home you either at school, work and when you not at either your with Josh, I mean I don't even get to spend time with Josh or you. I feel left out. Plus you don't even wear you engagement ring I mean come on that hurts.

I started to hug him back and get myself together.

"I'm sorry I didn't know you felt like this. I'll quite my job and we can move and I'll stop hanging out with Josh. You gave up a lot for me I'll do that same but Drake I want you to know I love you more then I have ever loved anyone. I mean its like apart of me needs you to function."

"Lets not talk about this right now. I love you and I didn't mean for it all to come out like that. I want to stay here with you come on lets just chill."

"No we have to talk about this, look what happens when we don't you hold it all in and we end up fighting. You don't like the apartment and its way to small for the both of us. Let's move! We have the money let's go looking. The ring was actually a surprise I got it sized at the jewelers and engraved I was going to wear it on your birthday. I wasn't doing it intentionally."

"Can we really move?"

"Drake you live here to not everything is my decisions I mean if you want to move just tell me. I just thought this was what normal 21 year olds did we lived in little crappy apartment. I want you to feel comfortable where you live. If you're embarrassed that I work well I'll quite, it was just something to take my mind off of you when you weren't around."

"Let's go now!" he said pulling me off the couch.

"Now? Drake you're in your PJ's and its Sunday! Everything's closed."

"No open houses! Come on I'll get dressed you look in the paper for open houses. He flung the paper at me and raced to the bedroom."

We spent all day looking at big houses, small houses, condo's and lofts. We had fun and then we decided to have a nice dinner at a really fancy restaurant. I remember when he first met me he would take me to these places to show off and I loved it he use to try to hard to make me happy. We finally got home and there were 10messages on the phone some from Bebe and some from Josh. We laughed and walked in the bedroom knowing all that we needed right now was each other. The sex was great but it always was after a fight. I cuddled up to Drake putting my head on his chest he started to hum on of my favorite songs while running his fingers through my hair. It was Dave Mathew's band satellite.

Satellite, headlines read
Someones secrets youve seen
Eyes and ears have been
Satellite dish in my yard
Tell me more, tell me more
Whos the king of your satellite castle?

I listened to him whisper the lyrics softy I concentrated on his touch and his voice until my eyes were so heavy I could no longer keep them open.

"Are you still awake?" Drake whispered rubbing my back.

" What's wrong?" I knew something was wrong his voice was sad.

"I think I was going to cheat on you tonight, you know with Bebe."

"I know, but you didn't that's all that matters."

"You do care about me don't you?"

"Of course I do Drake I love you."

"I just want you to know I haven't cheated since we got back together."

"I know I can tell. Look I love you don't let it get you all riled up it was just a thought as look as you don't act on it, we'll be okay."

I put my head back down on Drakes chest letting my head go up and down with his breathing. I pushed the thought in back of my head and just let myself fall back asleep.