Many more sleepless nights had fallowed it had almost been 2 months since the party and I have only had minimal contact with Drake I just wanted to get over him. I was different and I'm not talking about personality wise but I was constantly sick to my stomach and had migraines that made me want to throw myself in front of a bus. I haven't had health insurance since Drake and I broke up but it was getting to the point that I had to go to the hospital.

I hated hospitals I sat in the cold uncomfortable hard plastic waiting chairs for hours. When I was finally called back I waited in another little room for a few more hours. Nurses came in and out taking my blood pressure and blood work.

"Mrs. Green, well I'm glad to tell you it's nothing serious."

"Thank God! So what's wrong with me can it be treated?"

"Well when's the last time you had your period?"

"A few months ago but I think it's because I've been so sick and putting on weight my bodies all out of wack."

"No Mrs. Green it's because you're pregnant. I thought you knew."

"No… I can't be pregnant. I don't even have a boyfriend."

"Well you don't need a boyfriend to get pregnant sweetheart it only takes on time." She smirked and handed me a paper. "Now I want you to get a prenatal check up just call this number they help people get insurance."

I sat there not knowing what to do or say. I mean it's completely possible I was pregnant me and Drake never used condoms. I was actually starting to worry that I wouldn't be able to have a baby after the miscarriage. Well I guess I know the answer now. I lifted my self off the hospital bed and walked to my car. What should I do now? The only thing I knew for sure was that I was going to get everything checked out before I brought Drake back into my life.

A couple weeks had past and baby belly was starting to protrude through my tee shirts and I feared the day were I would have to put elastic on my jeans. I hid it well in school with flowy shirt and hoodies. The only person that knew was Jared and he was wonderful he would sit on the couch with me and rub my belly and tell it crazy stories. I was so afraid to get attached to him but I needed someone, I kept telling myself that I was strong and brave but in the back of my head I was screaming for my mommy.

Jared didn't try to escalate our relationship he was just there for me. He had almost moved in he never slept at his own house he would just cuddle in bed with me rubbing my back and stroking my hair.

"Ash don't you think its time to tell people? I mean your 5 months now and as much as I hate to say I think Drake has a right to know."

"I know but I just can't right now I mean I can't even tell my family. I ended up there worst night mare, pregnant, alone, not out of college."

"Ashlee your gonna finish and I'll help you."

"You're too good to be true. You wanna go with me to the mall tomorrow I have finally broken down and decided its time to get some mommy gear."

"Sure" He answered with a yawn and we fell asleep.

The next morning I woke up and literally rolled my self out of bed my belly was getting so big and in the way. I had only a few things that fit over it anymore, but today I was going lazy with a pair of fitted sweats and a white tee. As I walked down the hallway I did tried my best not to waddle like a penguin.

"Jared you ready." I called down the hall.

"Yeah come on. Wow you look pretty."

"Shut up!" But I knew I was still pretty even though I couldn't wear all my nice cloths I still did my hair nice and my make up to the T, it made me feel better about myself.

I slid into the passenger seat of Jared's car.

"I was thinking about what you said last night and I am going to start telling people, I mean I can't hide it anymore." I said rubbing my belly.

"I think that's a good idea." He winked

We got to the over crowded mall, me and Jared had all day to waste since we were on summer vacation. We got cinnamon buns and hot chocolate, we weaved in and out of store until we finally came to mother hood maternity. I almost turned around and ran but I held my breath and walked in. I was surprised when I walked out with four full bags.

"Ashlee?" My heart jumped my stomach sank.

"Josh, hi how are you?" I hadn't talked to Josh in months I know things between him and Jenna didn't work out because she ended up sleeping with someone in Drake band while they were on tour.

"Ashlee!" He said in a somber voice. "You're pregnant, really pregnant."

"Yeah I know?"

"Congratulation Jared." I almost peed myself when I saw the look on Jared's face.

"It's not Jared's."

"It's Drakes isn't it?"

I didn't answer I just nodded my head in shame.

"Don't you think he has the right to know?"

"Yeah Josh he did so great last time. I'm going to tell him I'm just getting up the courage."

"Josh come on Bro lets go." I heard Drake distinct voice calling Josh from inside Spencer's.

Drake walked out of the store laughing with a girl under his arm.

"Ashlee? How are…. Whoa Ashlee." He actually stumbled backward.

"Hi Drake." I stood there not knowing what to do not knowing what to say I just wanted to run and hide pretend none of this was really happening.

"You're pregnant. Really pregnant."

"That's what I said." Josh butted in.

"Ashlee why didn't you tell me? That's really messed up." He was so angry I never seen him so pissed off.

"Look guys she's had a hard time doing this by herself and I don't think this is the place to do this." Jared said coming to my rescue like always.

"No I want to talk about this now!" Drake said grabbing my arms and pulling me to the side.

"Why?"

"Why, what Drake?"

"Why keep it?"

"What are you kidding? You don't have to be in the picture, I have been doing fine with out you."

"Obviously you haven't been doing that great with out me look at you, you're a mess." I held back my tears that were trying to escape.

"Drake!" Josh yelled.

"Drake what the hell dude. Come on Ash lets go home."

"So what you guys are together now? That's right Jared your gay aren't you? Nice job on picking up my sloppy seconds."

"You're an asshole Drake. You always have been. I don't want you in this babies life, I don't want you in my life." I flipped him off and walked away. I think he was waiting for me to beg for him back. To ask him so money or to move in, I wasn't going to do that I didn't need him.