Josh and I went out to the mall and just walked around like normal people no one bombarding me, no cameras, or paparazzi. By the time me and Josh got to the house all I wanted to do was sit on the couch and not move my body wasn't use to carrying around all this weight, especially since it was all in my front my back was killing me from having to fix my posture constantly. Josh fallowed behind me carrying the bags.

"Oh my freaking god! What are you doing? I can't believe this, get up and get dressed your brothers coming in behind me; he's going to be pissed." I screamed at the dimly lit sight that was playing out in front of me.

"Please Ash don't be mad!" The weak voice begged.

"I'm not mad just get dresses." I rushed picking the clothes off the floor.

"Megan!" Josh yelled dropping the bags at the sight of his undressed sister in the arms of and older undressed man. "Oh you are in so much trouble girl."

"Jared get dressed I need to talk to you." I ordered flatly.

"I'm so sorry Ash." Jared sighed trying to put his pants on.

Josh handed Megan the couch throw blanket to cover herself and as soon as she did he took her by the arm and led her in to the kitchen where he began to yell at her. I rushed in I thought he was being way too harsh. When I got to the kitchen Megan was in tears begging him not to send her home.

"Josh she's 18 and out of school. I mean she's a women now." I came to her aide.

"Please Josh I'm sorry but I really like him."

"This is exactly what mom and dad didn't want happening."

"Josh come on I lost my virginity way younger than her, and I bet you did too." I tried to make him understand.

"For your information I didn't!" Josh said folding his arms over his chest.

"Yeah, but not by choice!" Megan took a below the belt jab.

"Thin ice little girl, thin ice!" Josh yelled throwing his hands in the air.

"Honey I'm home." I heard the front door shut Drake was home already it was only 10 o'clock I thanked god I came home before him, he would have killed Jared. I ran out to meet him in the living room he was greeting Jared.

"Hi baby. Your home really early!" I exclaimed in and over the top way. Drake came over and hugged me, while his back was turned I mimed to Jared to get the hell out of here. He caught on and snuck out the front door.

"What's all the yelling about?" He asked walking into the kitchen. Josh had his head in his hands and Megan was sitting on a bar stool with the blanket still wrapped around her.

"Megan please go up stairs and get dressed!" I begged desperately. I could see the wheels turning in Drakes head you could almost smell the effort it was taking him to piece it all together. The gears were a little slower than most but I knew he would catch on.

"What's going on?" He asked innocently. Well maybe he won't get it, I still love him though. Josh threw his head back in defeat.

"Your naked sister, Jared! Come on Drake I know you can get it!" Josh yelled impatiently.

"What the hell. Ash I told you!" Drake turned his frustration towards me. Megan walked up from the basement fully dressed.

"Look it wasn't Ashlee's fault, I really like him and I wanted to do it." Megan said looking down at her rainbow socks.

"You know what Megan just go to your room we'll talk about this later." Drake sent her to her room and she fallowed his command.

"Ashlee I don't want to have to worry about her, you and the baby!" Drake said putting his hand through his hair.

"Drake please she's eighteen I think you all forget that she's not a little girl she's going to college this September, she is all grown up! When did you lose your virginity Drake?"

"When I was 16 but I was a guy!" He sighed putting both his hand in mine trying to make me understand.

"So was I Drake and I loved him I thought he was the greatest thing since hot pockets! She's in love and he's a good guy and cares about her. Did you care about the girl you did it with?" Drake didn't answer he just played with my nails. "That's what I thought, how can we be so hypocritical. You're doing everything you wished you parents didn't do. And let me tell you one thing if we tell her that she can't see him she's still going to see him and if you send her back to your parents she'll be mad at you two and still get to see him in like a month when she comes to live here for school, and then she'll have her own dorm!"

"Oh frig!" Drake said putting his head to the countertop. "Why didn't she do it in her bedroom?"

"Maybe they didn't plan it? Look guys just get over it all we really have to worry about is if she's being smart about it. Condoms the pill, you know all that good stuff." I said patting them both on the back.

"Well good luck Ash." Drake said walking out of the kitchen and into the living room. "The couch is tainted!" He said sitting carefully on the arm rest. All I could do was roll my eyes at him. "Megan can you come up here please?" Drake yelled up the stairs. "Look we over reacted you're a grown women we just want to make sure your smart about it."

"We used a condom."

"Well that's good we'll go and get you a doctor's appointment and make sure you tell Jared to get tested." I said feeling a little embarrassed feeling like I was playing mommy to her I was only a few years older than her.

"Wow I should really be listening to you guys for advice on this."

"Megan don't be such a smart ass." I said feeling insulted.

"Please when was the last time Drakes been tested he's probably a walking VD machine."

"Megan stop why are you acting like this." Drake asked standing up.

"Well you know what Jared doesn't have to get tested why don't we just ask Ashlee!"

"Megan I never slept with Jared." I said flatly it was the truth.

"Yeah right he loved you, he fucking adored you. He talks about you all the time, the only way to get him to shut up about you was to have sex with him. He talks about how you two practically lived together you slept in the same bed for months and never slept together? I doubt it. He's a good kisser aint he Ash?"

"Megan, Drake already knows we kissed I told him that night. Megan I don't know what you're trying to do but I am very truthful with your brother I tell him everything."

"It wasn't just that one time!" Megan screamed hysterically.

"Megan knock it off!" Drake screamed back.

"No she's right it was more than one time when we were broken up I had made out with him one night and I didn't tell you Drake I'm sorry about that was one night and I was upset and I told him I didn't feel right doing it again with him so I never did it again after that."

"Ash its okay we were broken up you didn't even know if we would get back together."

"I knew we would." I smiled softly.

"God I just got a sick taste in my mouth!" Megan yelled. "You act all innocent but I know you're not. I know you want him."

"Megan knock it off I don't want your boyfriend! I love Drake and if I wanted him I could have had him a long time ago okay?"

"He sang a song for you!"

"Yeah so has Drake and Johnny and every other singer I have gone out with."

"He's the perfect guy, he stayed with you when you were carrying another guy's baby and told the baby stories every night. You like have him on the backburner just in case anything happens."

"Megan I swear to God I don't want your boyfriend have I ever done anything to make you think that? I mean I just defended you the whole time down here I introduced you to, I convinced him to ask you out!"

"You convinced him! What did you have to do bribe him?" Megan yelled stomping down the stairs.

"Drake I didn't mean it like that! I just meant I was like why don't you ask her out and he said yeah she's cute I swear that's it."

"Ash I know don't get all crazy over it, she's overreacting, she's probably just trying to put the attention on to someone else."

"Drake I'm going to bed, are you coming up?"

"Yeah." He aid taking my hand following behind me.

We both got to the bedroom I put on my pajamas and just laid on the bed I just needed to get off my feet! I tried to understand why Megan would go off on my like that I was never anything but nice to her. Drake came out of the bathroom in his boxers. He was so cute and at that moment everything else faded away.

"Did you have a fun time out tonight?" I asked patting the spot next to me. He laid down close to me I laid my head on his chest and curled up next to him.

"It was okay we went to this club and had dinner. I only had one drink, but I had to leave there were all these people and they were trying to get close to me. I mean I couldn't even just hang out with my friends. I mean I don't think half of them are really my friends for the right reasons."

"Drake I think it all comes with the territory baby." I said running my finger down the line of his chest.

"You right and I knew that and I thought I wanted that. But now I know I want this and I can't have both."

"Drake I think you can I think it's just all gonna have to be in moderation. Look I love you and I would never ask you to change I just want you to be happy."

"See its things like that, that pisses me off. You say you don't want me to change yet you ask me to not do this and not do that."

"What is it gang up on Ashlee day?"

"Josh you have anything bad to say about me?" I yelled through the walls.

"You did eat the last piece of cheese cake that was in the fridge!" He yelled back. "You bitch!" Then started to laugh.

"Drake I don't know what you want from me I try to be the perfect girlfriend."

"No one's perfect Ash. That's what I want I want you to put your guard down."

I sat up in bed thinking about what he said. "Drake I want to be the best I can be! Every time I put my guard I lose you."

"Ashlee you'll never lose me again!"