I woke up with my heartbeat in my head I reached the other side of the bed that was not slept in. Cold sheets again it reminded me of what he did. We definitely needed to take a break for a while it's been so long since I smiled. Drake leaves messages and I just ignore them because I don't wanna listen now I'm just trying to live what he did down. I heard a knock on the bedroom door and I finally peeled myself out of bed. It has only been 2 days but it felt like eternity every day passed by slower then the next.

"Ashlee I have the baby if you want to sleep a little more it's okay I'm gonna go down to the student union I'll just take him with me." Jared yelled through closed door.

"No it's okay I need to get out. Come on in, I'm dress." Jared slid the door open slowly. He sat on the edge of the bed cradling the baby in his arms. "I just want to tell you how much I appreciate you letting us stay here until I find a place. I'm gonna look for a job asap I promise."

"Ash take as much time as you need I was looking for roommates anyway. I can't think of people I would want living here more then you two."

"You're too nice Jared. But thank you." I said leaning my head on his shoulder.

"Okay well let's get dressed!" He aid patting me on the back, he walked out of the room with the baby in tow. He was so good with him why couldn't I love him like I love Drake. It's all Drakes fault he ruined me for everyone else I was damaged goods.

I looked in the bags that I haven't unpacked yet and pulled out jeans and a tank top, brushed my hair into a pony tail and put on some make up. I didn't want to look as bad as I felt. I slipped on my flats and ran down the stairs.

"Now you look nice. Doesn't you mommy look pretty?" He cooed to the baby.

"Okay lets go." I smiled, it actually hurt to smile.

"Now there's a smile. Now there's the Ashlee we all love!"

He put his arm around my shoulders and escorted me to the car. We drove in silence to the student union.

"What are we doing here anyways?"

"I don't know I thought it would be nice to take a walk on campus."

The campus was beautiful it was surrounded by parks and the ocean I mean it was a beautiful day out this is exactly what I needed.

"Thanks." I said taking his hand and squeezing it. We both jumped out of the car, Jared went for the stroller and I got the baby out.

We walked for about an hour around campus, we had to stop like every five minutes Jared knew everyone! People came over to coo at the baby asking if it was his. He just laughed and said he was the Godfather. We were about to go in the dining hall when I heard someone call out for me. I turned around to see that it was Josh. We stopped and waited for him to catch up.

"Hey little man, hey Ashlee. How are things going how are the two of you?"

"Were okay, I wanted Drake to call me I wanted to see if he would take the baby for a day so that I could go job hunting."

"Ash he's not ready for that."

"What do you mean this is his kid! He needs to help out too."

"No I mean he's been in a drunken or drug stupor for the past 2 days. I don't know what he's on. But I'll take him if you want."

"No I don't want him at to see his dad like that."

"Yeah he's really bad I told him I was going to call an ambulance the other day but he told me well… I don't want to worry you about it. The only reason I even stayed was to make sure he didn't drink himself into a coma."

I looked at Jared with worried eyes, and he understood it all. "Ash why don't me and Josh stay here with the baby for awhile go get lunch and you go make sure he's okay he'll listen to you." Jared said kissing me on my cheek and giving me a hug.

"I think your right." I said trying to build up my courage to face him again.

"Here Ash take my keys I'll just get a ride home later." Josh said handing them over.

I took the keys and sped to what once use to be my home. I rushed through the unlocked door. I ran upstairs in fear that he could already be too far gone. Drake was laying on the bed completely passed out and a girl shooting up on the floor.

"Get out. You get out now."

"Who the hell are you?" she slurred back.

"If you leave now I won't call the cops." I girl gathered up her things I kneeled on the bed by Drakes side. "Drake wake up! Drake baby please wake up!" I checked for a pulse he was breathing fine. I checked his arms for needle marks but there was nothing I knew he would never do anything that stupid! "Drake please wake up its Ashlee."

"Ashlee? What are you doing here?"

"What are you doing Drake? Look at yourself!"

"Please come back to me?"

"Drake you need help. Please let's just find somewhere for you to go."

"Ash I just wanted you guys to have the best life I could possible give to you."

"Drake the best life your son could have is with you in it. What good are you to us like this."

"I know… I'm dumb and everything else that sucks…"

"Drake I'm not going to feel sorry for you I'm here to just help you."

"Let me help you guys what do you need? Money?"

"No Drake we need you?"

"You guys have super Jared now!"

"But he's not you."

"You still love me don't you. I haven't lost you yet."

"Drake you need help and you need it now just let me call the doctor's office and see what he recommends. Just stay here."

"You didn't say no."

I left the room to call on the house phone I rummaged through draws to find the doctors number. Finally I found it tacked up on one of the bulletin boards.

--------------------Phone Call----------------

Me- Dr. Faltina Drake is in trouble he needs help.

Dr.Faltina- Ashlee?

Me-Yes… I'm calling for my fiancé Drake Parker. I'm sorry I rushed.

Dr.Faltina- Well what kinda trouble is he in?

Me- He needs to be put in a detox center for alcohol today!

Dr.Faltina- Has this been going on for a long time.

Me- Over a year. Maybe before I met him I don't know. Look he's agreeing now so we need to move quick!

Dr.Faltina- Okay well we can set him up with the one in the hills.

Me- No I want him in a real one were he's not treated any different where he's not shopping and taking days off to party.

Dr.Faltina- Okay well there's another one called Mercy it's not as nice as the Hills but it's not completely terrible. That sounds good can you set it up I'll get him packed and drive him there now.

I walked back upstairs Drake was sleeping once again on the bed. "Ashlee please come lay with me." I heard the sorrow and destitution in his voice. I crawled in bed with him and laid my head on his chest.

"Drake we need to get you packed and go."

"Ash I don't want to go I just want to stay like this forever."

"We can't we have Colton and real lives."

"I still don't want to go."

"Drake let me put it this way if you don't go you lose us forever. I know you don't want that so come on we have to leave now before the press gets any part of this."

"I'm I going to the Hill's I was there once it didn't work."

"What I didn't know you went there? And no you're going to Mercy."

"I went before I even met you. I tried Ashlee I really did you know I love you more then I love myself?" I kissed him softly on his forehead and started packing clothes in random bags.

"Is there anything specific you want to bring?"

"My cell phone so I can call you guys, shit I broke it!" he said slamming his fist against the bed.

"We'll buy you a prepaid on the way there. We'll stop at wall mart get you underwear's and socks things like that."

"I want the picture of you and little man."

"Okay come on get out of bed and get dressed." He tried to get to his feet and just fell backwards, he was such a mess, and he was so far gone. Finally he got to his feet and I had to help him get dressed.

"How do I look?" He asked after putting his over sized sun glasses on.

"You look good." I said patting his back like an attention seeking child.

I walked him out of the house and into Josh's car.

"Ashlee where are you two going? We haven't seen you around here is it because of the pictures that were published?" a man jumped almost out of the freakin bush's with a camcorder in my face another one flashing pictures of Drake slumped over in the passenger seat.

"Were going shopping so he can make it up to me. Bye" I jumped in the car and sped off I knew they would call other paparazzi to fallow us.

"Ash I don't feel good. Can we stop for a minute?"

"Please Drake just old it in I need to stop at the wall mart anyway to get you a phone and stuff so just sit tight and close your eyes. I need a card or something." Drake went into his back pocket and pulled out is gold card.

"I want you to keep this just in case you and the baby need anything." I said kissing my cheek.

I ran into Wal-Mart trying to be as fast as I could I got back to the car to see Drakes head sticking out of the side of the car puking all over the parking lot. I rushed over rubbing his back.

"It's okay Drake just let it all out. Here a napkin."

Drake finally put his head back in the car and we were of once again to Mercy. We sat in silence for a few minutes outside the old building.

"Will you come in with me?" He asked putting his hands to his face.

"Of course!"