Jared looked at me with questioning eyes. He didn't know what the shrug had meant but truthfully neither did I. I stepped off the couch leaving him completely exposed. I leaned over and kissed his lips softly. I grabbed my clothes off the floor and shimmied into my shirt. I took the Colton out of his playpen and brought him up stairs. He was still sleeping so I decided to put him in his crib and take a bath. I grabbed the monitor and walked into the bathroom. I turned on the shower letting the steam consume me. I stepped in not wanting to stand anymore I sat with my back against the shower; I curled my knees up to my chest and rested my head. I tried not to think about what just happened or about Drake all alone in a weird place. I concentrated on the water beating on my back until I heard my cell phone ring through the monitor and then the baby start crying. I jumped out of the shower quickly turning it off then throwing a towel around my body.

When I reached my bedroom Jared had already grabbed the baby shushing him in his arms. I grabbed my phone a small smile escaped when I saw it was Drake.

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Me- hey…

Drake-Hey baby how are you guys doing?

Me- We're okay… I was just taking a shower… How are you?

Drake- Should I call back later?

Me- No… No… it's okay. (I looked over at Jared who was hanging on to my every word. I gave him a small smile. I don't know how Drake could juggle all those girls.)

Drake- I'm okay its nothing like what you see on TV. I mean its nice, are you and the baby coming up tomorrow?

Me- Are you going to be up for that? I mean you just got there.

Drake-Yeah… I mean I just want to see Colton.

Me- I know you want to see him. I'll bring him no problem. Do you need me to bring you anything?

Drake- No I'm okay. Okay well I have to go to a meeting. But I love you.

Me- Okay… I know…

Drake- Okay… well I guess I'll see you tomorrow.

"You're going to see him tomorrow?" He said with disappointment.

"Jared I don't know what we have, I don't know what me and Drake have but we do have Colton. And I don't know what I'm trying to say but I'm just very confused. He misses him he hasn't seen him in over a week."

"What are you so confused about? I love you!" He said putting one hand around my waist, he held Colton close to his chest.

"Drake loves me too! I know it doesn't seem like it but…"

"But what Ash? He only loves you when it's convenient. I mean can you really afford to stay on the roller coaster that is yours and Drakes love life? Do you really want that kind of life for Colton?"

"Jared you're right Drake can be a total asshole and a complete Jerk but he does love me and the baby. He just has a very hard time showing it."

"Why do you feel so sorry for him?"

"I don't know it's like he needs me."

"No I need you Ashlee."

"Jared you could have any girl, you're smart, handsome, ambitious."

"Then why am I so wrong for you."

"Jared I'm not saying I don't like you, I'm just saying I don't know what to do! Do I leave the guy I have a baby with that sometimes treats me like I'm the best thing in this world? Or do I stay with the guy who's sweet and loving all the time to me and my son?" I walked over to him slowly and kissed him on the cheek he had gotten the baby to go back to sleep. I took the baby out of his arms and put him in his crib and cover him up. I thanked god he was so young, he didn't know what was going on. I looked at his beautiful face and all I could see how much he looked like Drake.

Jared put his arms around my waist, I turned to face him. My lips on his lips felt so good yet it felt so wrong. Jared laid me on the bed. I laid down next to him just putting my head on his chest. I feel asleep that night with a war going on in my head.

My cell phone went off and it was a text message from Drake.

There having a BBQ for the families so make sure you pack the sunscreen for the baby… I love you3

I rolled out of bed trying not to wake up Jared who was still sleeping in my bed. He was so sweet looking; he was the total opposite of what I usually go for. He was nice and clean cut, I don't know but then there was something in the way he looked at me and touched me. I threw on a pink tube top and a pair of kaki shorts, I wanted to look really good for drake so I took the time to straighten my hair and do my make up just right. I picked out the cutes little blue outfit with a little blue sun hat. When we were all ready I tapped sleeping Jared on his butt.

"Hey were going to go. I'll see you later?"

"You want me to drive?"

"No it's alright I'm just going to take my car."

"That car is not baby safe."

"Its all right I'll be careful." Jared sat up and puckered his lips. I thought for a moment about what to do, about who I was going to see. I gave in anyways and placed my lips on his taking it all in. He kissed Colton on the fore head and told us to have fun.