I sat in the small room next to Drake staring at the man in the long white coat. I just kept thinking this all has to be a dream there is no way that out lives had come to this, lying and cheating. We must have been in there for over an hour. Drake just went on and on about his childhood and parents. I just wanted to scream get over it you have your own family now! But I didn't I just sat back on the leather chair trying to listen and pay attention it just wasn't working. My head's been in another world lately.

"Mrs. Green…. Mrs. Green…" Dr. Fawn tried to get me out of my inner thoughts.

"What were you just thinking about?"

"Ummm…. No I'm just here for Drake. You don't have to do that thing with me."

"What thing?"

"You know where you analyze me. There's nothing wrong with me."

"Do you truly believe that? I mean how long have you and Drake been together?"

"Umm… jeeze I've lost count almost 2 years on and off."

"Why on and off?"

"Well because …." I looked over at Drake taking in every word I said like he was taking mental notes. "Drake cheated and lied a lot."

"So you didn't do anything wrong in this relationship."

"Dr. Fawn she really is a great girlfriend. I mean she takes care of me and keeps me grounded." Drake said coming to my rescues he could see how uncomfortable I was at that moment.

"You guys are total opposites why are you trying so hard to make something work that obviously brings the worse out of the two of you." At that moment the bells and whistles were going off in my head. That was the same question I have been asking myself for two years now. Everyone always acted like it was a privilege to be with Drake. I wouldn't end up in a one room apartment with a guy working on the docks.

"We love each other?" Drake said squeezing my hand tightly. He looked over at me waiting for me to repeat him.

"I don't know… I mean I thought he was the one. He use to treat me so good, I mean like I was the only person on this earth and then he became so transparent. He cheated and lie, I could see right though him he didn't even have to tell me I just always knew. He then he started pushing me away and making me feel like I wasn't good enough. I was the reason he cheated there was something wrong with me, I was lacking. But the truth is I like I'm a smart and pretty girl. I don't think the way I use to."

"Ashlee… what are you trying to say?" Drake said looking like I had just put a stake through his heart.

"I don't know, things are just a little crazy and you guys are making me choose." I blurted out and then prayed to god he wouldn't question it. Fuck what did I just do!

"Who's making you choose? Jared? Why would he make… you… choose?" He saw the shame on my face it wouldn't be more obvious if I wrote it on my forehead with marker. "You slept with him didn't you? When before all of this? Before we broke up?" I shook my head no.

"Drake I have never cheated on you."

"Then when Ashlee?"

"Drake I have never asked you to disclose any details. Please don't make me tell you."

"Ashlee!"

"Last night I was upset and he made me feel good. I just needed someone."

"You drop me off here, promise me everything's going to be okay and then go Fuck Jared! Your nuts you know that."

"I'm nuts Drake look I'm sorry I never ever meant to hurt you. I do love you but I don't know if it's the right kind of love."

"What other kind of love is there. I love you more then I love myself. Why do you think I'm like this?"

"Don't blame this on me Drake. I didn't do this to you, you did this to yourself."

"I'm not staying here, the only reason I was staying here was to get my family back." Drake jumped off the leather seat waving his hands in the air as if it would help him prove his craziness.

"Mr. Parker I don't think I heard Ashlee say that there was no chance for your family to reunite. Did you Mrs. Green?" He said patiently taping his fingers on the clipboard.

"No Drake I do love you and I want to be a family I just can't be with the person you are right now." I put my hand out for him and pulled him back down to the couch.

Drake and I sat there in silence for a moment not looking at each other just stewing in our own shame.

"Drake were twenty-one years old we have a baby and responsibilities. I'm scared and now I'm even more scared that I'm doing this alone!" I screamed through my hands that where covering my face to hide my fears and tears. "I'm sorry I mean before I met you I lived in a little crappy apartment that my nana paid half for and I had a full scholarship to school. Now I have to worry about how to pay for formula I mean you rush everything you rush me and this baby and everything!"

What do you mean rushed?" The doctor asked the both of us.

"I met Ashlee when she was with someone kinda, and I didn't want to lose the chance to get to know her so I kinda made her go back to California with me. I mean I would have been scared too, she told me she had never been away from her family or even that far from where she lived. She tried to leave after the 2 weeks and I got in a car accident she stayed with me to take care of me. I was afraid she would leave after I healed so I asked her to marry me in front of everyone. I knew she wasn't comfortable with it and I just kept pushing it. But she still said yes and she still stayed and never did she once try to make plans for a wedding that was her lack of commitment to me. And then we were apart for almost 4 months and I ran into her at the mall with my brother and she was 5 months pregnant."

"She didn't tell you she was pregnant?"

"Why would I? I didn't want him to screw up this baby's life like he was screwing up mine and everyone who gets close to him. Everyone that loves him gets hurt! I am no the bad guy so don't even try to turn it around. You want to know why I broke up with him! Because I threw a huge 21st birthday for him after just getting back together because he cheated on me with his brothers girlfriend and then he decided to cheat on me there with a girl he had been seeing the whole time! In front of his family and friends I was humiliated."

"I know I messed up but you will never have to worry about money, I will always take care of you and the baby."

"I don't want your money Drake I want you! Me and the baby want you back in our lives we want you to just be a good dad and a husband. Look I messed up too we both did we jumped in head first without thinking about ourselves and now the baby. You finish this out we date for a few weeks we see how things go from there we will start all over again! If we can truly do this with out you cheating we'll move on."

"I don't want you cheating either Ashlee."

"Drake I have to tell you right now, I don't regret what I did all it made me realize is that I just want you and no one else I felt no passion no fireworks with Jared I mean he's a great guy who loves me and the baby but I don't love him. I love you Drake and I realize that more now then I ever have."

"I love you Ashlee, I always have that's why I pushed so hard to keep you around to keep you close enough that maybe I would be able to change. I don't know how to explain it."

"Its alright I know what you mean." We smiled at each other; these were sincere smiles not the kind that we usually flashed to make each other feel better. Drake wrapped his arms around me burying his face in my shoulder

"See now that we have all that worked out we can start on the other things like infidelity and the substance abuse. Are you up to that now Drake?"

Drake shook his head in agreement.

"Okay well then we'll start that tomorrow." Dr. Fawn smiled at us like he knew we would be one of his success stories.

Drake took me by the hand and walked me out of the office and into his little dorm room. I sat on the bed unsure of what the next move was going to be.

"We can do this Drake I mean I know its going to be hard but we can do this just clean the slate and start all over again! As soon as you get out we'll go on a date."

"That would be great. Listen Ashlee I don't know if this is the right time to bring this up or not but I won't be able to sleep knowing you're with him so close."

"I understand but you have to understand something too. I thought we were done I was going to try to move on. Jared is my best friend and if he doesn't see it just as that then I'll just forget about him no one is more important then my family right now."

"Do you think you'll stay at the house?"

"No I'm sorry I just think that was some of the problem all our problems were amplified by everyone else I mean it was hard enough to deal with the public always being around we never had a moment alone. Don't get me wrong I love your family it's just that we need to grow up. We can't lean on everyone anymore."

"Ash I understand look just take the check book and rent a house for as long as you need I mean I want the baby and you to have your own place."

"Visiting hours are over! Visitors can you please say your goodbye and sign out at the front desk." The announcement shook my insides I wanted to stay with him I wanted to lay beside him as we slept.

"I guess its time for me to go?" I said shyly.

"Can I give you a kiss goodbye?"

I didn't answer him I just put my lips on his. Drake wrapped his arms around my shoulders holding me tight like he would never see me again.

"Will you come visit me tomorrow? With the baby?" He never let go he just whispered everything into my ear.

"I don't know your mom and Walter are coming up. You know how we all are together maybe they'll pick up the baby and bring him with them and I promise I'll visit next weekend. Plus if you want me to move out of Jared's I could look for a good place to stay tomorrow and it will be easier if I don't have the baby."

"Yeah that sounds good baby. I love you so much. I'm gonna call before lights out."

"Okay. I love you too."

I kissed him one last time and walked to my car.

"Ashlee! Ash!" Drake called from the side walk waving his arms. "Bring my guitar to me please!"

I nodded my head and blew him a kiss as I sped out of the parking lot.