I sat in the hotel room by myself I felt so lonely without Colton. I mean he brightens my day when I need to smile I just look at him and everything's okay. I know everything's going to work out or at least I know I'll try my hardest to make him the best life I possibly can.

I decided to wait out front of the hotel for Audrey and Walter they pulled up shortly in there little SUV.

"Hi… Hey little man did you have fun." The baby smiled and cooed at the sight of me.

"How was class?" Audrey asked.

"It was good a little boring but I'm almost done I just want to get out of there. So where are we going for dinner?"

"We had reservations at the Ivey for weeks now we thought you would like to come with us."

My stomach twisted and sunk. I didn't want to go back there that's what set off everything last time. I didn't know what to do they were being so nice to me I just wanted to stay in the good graces so I just shut my mouth and went along with it.

"Listen guys if there are paparazzi just say nothing okay."

"Okay." Walter agreed and Audrey shook her head.

Walter left the car with a valet we walked around the corner to the front of the Ivey and there were a swarm of paparazzi I was just hoping they had would have no clue who I was without Drake. I put my head down as I came closer but there was no luck.

"Why is Drake in rehab?"

"Is this the baby?"

"Are you guys broken up for good?"

"Who's getting custody of Colton."

"Look I'm going to make this short because I'm out with my son and family. Drake is in rehab he's getting better. Were not broken up were going to try to work things out and for now Colton is living with me. Please leave us alone. "

"Can we have a picture of the baby?"

"No!" I tightened my grip on the carrier looking down once again to make sure that the cover was over top of it so no one could sneak a picture.

"Are you guys waiting out on the money?"

"No… I don't know what you're talking about?"

"In touch offer Drake 5 million for a family shoots of you guys and the baby."

"Look we just want him to be as normal as possible."

I didn't say anything else I waited for Walter to make a hole for me and the baby to walk through without being stomped on. We walked in and were immediately seated.

"This is where we fist came when we found out about little Colton here." She said stroking the baby's soft face.

I smiled at her awkwardly.

"So how is the place where he's at?" Walter asked.

"Its okay it kind of looks like a dormitory. Small room, white walls, that kind of thing. But I wanted him to go somewhere that would help him."

"Ashlee we know you don't have to explain yourself." Walter said putting his menu down.

"Audrey I need to get this off my chest and I think you should know. Drakes dad came to see me today at the hotel like a half hour after you guys left."

"What did he want?" She said more concerned then mad.

"He wanted to know if he could see Drake but I told him no. I didn't think this was the right time, but I got his number and I'm going to see what Drake says because the last thing I want is this blowing up in my face which is what always happens."

"I understand and it is his choice."

The rest of the dinner was pleasant it was like they were my parents for the night I was so relieved they weren't mad about Drake being in rehab or us still being together. I ran past the paparazzi with the baby covered up in his carrier. When I got to the hotel it had felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I heard my phone ring I flipped the top and walked over to the crib next to my bed and peeked in making sure it didn't stir him.

---------------------------Phone Conversation------

Me- hey baby

Drake- Hey…. You sound like you're in a good mood.

Me- I actually really am. I went out to dinner with your parents and we actually had a great time.

Drake- Wow… that's different. How's Colton?

Me- He misses you we both do. I show him picture of you all the time and play your CD when he's falling asleep.

Drake- Thank you, that means so much to me.

Me- How are you doing?

Drake- Good I think they said the worst of the withdraw is over and there going to put me on some sort of medicine that makes you severely sick if I drink.

Me- Okay well I just wanted to talk to you about something pretty serious.

Drake- What is it?

Me- Your dad came by my hotel room today.

Drake- What did he want?

Me- He wanted to have permission to see you.

Drake- What else did he say? What did you say?

Me- I said I would talk to you.

Drake- Why did you just tell him NO!

Me- Drake please don't yell at me I didn't want to make a decision for you. He's your father I wanted to see what you said first.

Drake- You know what I can't talk to you right now sometimes you make me so mad.

Me- I didn't do anything why are you so mad at me?

Drake- Because you can never just say no to people that how you end up in the positions you do.

Me- Drake please lets not fight I had such a good day for once and I was looking forward to your call.

Drake- I'm sorry it's just killing me to be penned up like an animal in here! Are you bringing the bay to see me Saturday?

Me- Do you just want to see the baby or me?

Drake- Ash come on I'm just going crazy here of course I want to see you.

Me- I don't know I guess we'll just see what happens.

Drake- Please Ashlee I'm sorry I didn't mean to freak out I just miss you so much.

Me- Drake look I don't know what going on right now and I know you have your mood swings and I have made peace with that but it usually happens when something is going on so is there something you want to tell me?

Drake- It's really nothing…

Me- Well obviously it's bothering you.

Drake- Bebe keeps writing me letters, I called her to tell her that I wasn't interested and she just kept telling me that we were meant to be and that she was coming up Saturday. I don't know she always makes me feel so torn.

Me- What torn between me and her?

Drake- No… kind of.

Me- Drake do you want me to make this easier? I mean I will just walk away. I don't know what you want me to do! Your telling me that you might love someone else come on your play with my head what to much. (I started to sob uncontrollably once again I felt so alone in the world. I could never understand what these girls had that I didn't. Why couldn't he just adore me like I did him.)

Drake- Please don't cry baby that's not what I meant. I don't love her I love you. Its just that she's my type, she's in the same business she would drop everything to be with me

Me- She's a wanna be who could never make it on the chart even with your help. And I guess giving up my life wasn't enough for you? Drake I think I'm going away for a while with the baby.

Drake- Where are you going to go?

Me- I don't know but I need to time to think if it's worth sticking around if your whole hearts not in it. You're a cheater and you'll always be a cheater. Me and you son mean nothing you're selfish! You're a selfish spoiled brat. Good bye Drake!

Drake- Ashlee please no! Just hold on a minute.

Me- No Drake I want nothing to do with someone that can committee themselves to me. Jesus if you can't stop with all these other girls there's no help for us.

Drake- No Ashlee I just meant that… I don't know what I meant but I know I want to be with you I love you, and I know you love me even if you don't want to admit it right now. Please don't go anywhere.

Me- I don't know, I'm going to go to bed the babies sleeping and we had a big day all on our own.

Drake- Good night Ash can you kiss Colton for me.

Me- Sure.

Drake- I'll call you tomorrow morning.

Me- No it's alright I'll call you.

Drake- I do love you with my whole heart. I sleep in this little bed and it feels so empty, this bed, my head, my arms I just want to be with you so much that some times I can't even sleep at night not knowing that you and the baby are safe with me. I can't protect you from here. I'm useless.

Me- You would be even more useless in the arms of another woman so just remember that! Plus I do love you with my whole heart I really do.
(I started crying once again.)

Drake- If it makes you feel any better I told her if she comes near me or you guys I would send nasty things about her to TMZ.

ME- No just don't talk to her no more she writes you a letter throw it our she calls you ignore it. I mean I listened to you and dumped my best friend. You could at least so me the same respect.

Drake- I understand I'm sorry I love you. Get some sleep I'll call you in the morning.

Me- Goodnight I love you.

Rehab what does everyone think? Drake's dad I don't know where to go with that yet I just kind of left it hanging with the baby show.