He didn't come home that night. I stayed awake until six in the morning and waited for him, but he never came. I had the men out looking for him and the girls home to comfort me. How could he do that? How could he leave me there? After everything I went through for him. After everything I said, and he said! I cried all night, and that made me relive what happened in September. It felt like he didn't want me again. I had always felt like I didn't deserve him, but he always said he didn't deserve me. Apparently, he agreed with me one the one thing he promised he never would.

When I woke up, my eyes hurt and so did my throat. Alice was beside me, and she was stroking my hair. "Oh, Bella. I'm so sorry. I can't believe him. I know it hurts. But we'll settle this. I promise." I got up and noticed I was still in my wedding dress. I sighed, not knowing what I was going to do, I covered my face with my hands and dropped on the floor. I heard a noise behind me, but didn't look up. Then someone said my name, "Bella?"

I looked and saw Edward standing in the doorway, looking unsure of what to do. I stood up and the rage came automatically. "How dare you! Leave me at the alter when it was you that proposed to me! You have no idea how that felt, to hear you say you weren't going to marry me! It was like when you left me earlier this year, you said you didn't want me. This feels ten times worse! I stayed awake crying all night, just waiting for you to come home so that you can explain everything to me. Did I do something wrong? Did I do something that made you not love me anymore. If I did, I'm sorry. I just want to love you and you love me and . . . Please tell me Charlie wasn't right! 'Cause if he was, I"

"Bella! Listen, please. I do love you, you should never doubt that, and you've been nothing but the perfect angel I fell in love with. And I did, and still do, want to marry you. But the way you looked at Jacob, the way you told him you were going to marry me instead of him, the pain in your voice. I couldn't bear to have you i that kind of pain again. I wasn't going to make you marry me when you still love him. I wasn't going to hurt you like that."

"So you decided to leave me again! Yeah, leaving me at the alter is much better than letting me marry the one I love and can't live without, my other half, my soul mate! I don't love Jacob Black enough to leave you or stop loving you. Everything I said to him, to you, I meant it all. I want you, not him. How many times do I have to tell you that?" I was sobbing and Edward came in and pulled me tight against his chest.

"I'm so sorry Bella. This is even worse than what i did to you before. Can you ever forgive me?" I nodded. He kissed my hair, then down my face, and to my bare shoulders. "Thank you," he breathed against my skin. I turned in his arms and kissed him. Deeply and passionately. He moved his hands down my back, unzipping my dress as he did. "This could have been our honeymoon, love." I sighed. He pressed his hands to my bare shoulder blades and I slipped his jacket off. I then unbuttoned his shirt and threw it across the room. Oh, how I loved him, his touch, his love. I ran my hands over his perfectly, sculpted, icey chest and lavished it with kisses. He tried to slide my dress down a little more, but I stopped him.

"Your family?" I gasped. He shook his head and whispered,"hunting," in my ear. I pushed away from him. He looked hurt.

"Let me change into something more appropriate," I said seductivaly. I brushed his cheek as I passed him and went into the bathroom. I pulled off my wedding dress and placed on the hanger hanging on the drying rack. I put on my favorite, and his, perfume to smell extra tempting. I undid my hair from the ponytail I had put it in and then shook it out around me. I liked it.

I walked out and Edward had also become more comfortable. He pulled his pants down slightly and looked at me with desire. He got up, off the bed and then took my in his arms. "My gorgeous angel, are you ready for an amazing night just for you and me?" I sighed, and nodded. He took a step back and then took me in. My lingerie was light blue and showed off my curves and everything that I wanted him to see. He walked backwards toward the bed and then pulled me on top of him. We kissed lightly, and then it became more passionately. He brought his hands up under my lingerie dress and pulled it off, over my head. I slipped his pants down his beautiful, long, muscular legs and rubbed my hands all down them, as he did mine. I felt a small burning in my pelvis that soon became a hotter burning that couldn't be ignored. He unclasped my dark blue bra ad then ran his hands over my breasts, lavishing them with kisses and sucking on the nipples.

I looked at him and he was aroused. He pulled off my underwear and I his black boxers. I pus my hand down on him and he moaned, but it was good. He pulled my hand up to his face and then rolled over. He thrust his hips and went into me. I screamed in pleasure and pulled him closer, bucking my hips. He pulled out and the went back in, faster this time. I felt like I was walking up a hill and at the top there would be fireworks. He went out and in again and we moaned as we climbed the hill together. We rolled around on the bed for hours until we finally reached the top and exploded. Even afterward his hands roamed over my body and I did the same with his.

I eventually fell asleep in his arms and dreamt of what our reception would have been like if it had happened. Then I remembered what happened that made it not happen and my dream turned into a nightmare. Edward didn't come back and so I went to Jacob and then I slept with him and the when Edward did come back, he found out and then tried to kill me and then I woke up. I bolted straight up and held the sheets up to cover my chest. Edward wasn't next to me so I wrapped the sheets around me and got up. I walked to the bathroom and slipped on my Victoria's Secret underwear and pajamas. I slipped my robe on and sauntered down the stairs.

All of a sudden, my feet were off the ground and was being flung across the room. I landed on the rug in the living room and Edward was on top of me, smirking. "How dare you!"he exclaimed, using my voice. My jaw dropped. "How could you cover up that lucious body for me not to see?" He tore off my robe and lifted my shirt over my head. I had slipped a bra on before so my breasts weren't exposed. Just then, the family came in, Emmett first. He burst into laughter as he saw me in my bra, my shirt and robe on the other side of the room.

"Sorry," he said as he snickered. I stood up and picked up my robe just as the rest of the family came into the house. I smiled weakly and Edward glared at his brothers.

"Um . . . Alice, can I talk to you?" She nodded and we walked away. "Do you think it would be possible to still have the wedding?"

"YYYESSSS!!" she shrieked. She hugged me so tight I gagged and couldn't breathe. I gasped and she let me go. "We'll set it up for Sunday!" She danced from the room.

I followed and Edward was glowing. He ran to my side and scooped me up in his arms and ran me up to his room. "Don't make to much noise you love birds!" I heard Emmett shout. I was going to laugh but Edward laid me down on the bed and hugged me tight against his snowy chest.

"After everything I've done to you, and said, and how much I've hurt you, you still want to get married to a monster?"

"Well, only if I get to be a monster with you." We kissed again and then went dow to help Alice reorganize the wedding that was set for three days.